Tuesday, October 27, 2020

yup-mudita

i made sure i saved everything and it was still here this morning.  then i published.  

with the stress pastilles i use less nicotine gum.  

i stayed in bed 'til 9.  9.  i've never done that not sick before.  woke 4 something, turned on player to watch 'good place'.  it was so mostly silly i didn't expect much but heaven is like i dream.  they took it a step further.  eternity is a long time i hadn't considered.  what comes after eternity.  having love eternally is perfect.  so what if only god loves me here.  

10;07 #6 car i thought about walking to post office but i wore clogs so no.  i walked around park talked to mirek.  someone harvested shepherd's purse.  ground undisturbed, roots still in place.  must be the young gal i talked to about removing tumors.  

$8.40 postage.  the flip female charged me for 2 packages at the post office.  for  2 $1 socks and 2/$1 cards.  we're worth it.  so $11.67 for happiness. 

i spent 2 days looking for the opposite to schadenfreude in my posts and finally looked at the instructions to find it.  bunches of stuff i'll never use.

feeling sad.  i watched 'burnt orange conspiracy' dvd.  i knew she was going to die.  she wouldn't shut up. i don't know.  i'm yelling at the movie shut up and run.  reminded me of my crazy family.  you don't get between them and what they want.  you run away.  mom threatened to kill me so many times.  i wanted to see mick jagger act.  he was ok.  i've been worried about watching dvds and then i remembered hurrah i have the portable as back up.  so i can watch anywhere.   rested 'til 4;30.

8 pm i'm suddenly so thirsty i drank 32 oz.  maybe the cobbler.

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