Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Okay I caught cold.

My confusion with my life improving.  I've succumbed to the influence of the group.  Feeling insecure and achy.  Feverish too.  For the first time in my young life I'm feeling totally. 

As part of self-sabotage I've misplaced SV lib. copy of the horse and his boy.  I think I dropped it at SC city.

Oh, my aaching back.  Home and self-care.  Whatever I need.

Yes, I did return it to city. 

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Reminders of Debts

Blogging from Eric Togami's. 

OK the check engine light on the third time.  The second time after a gas fillup.  Yesterday at Savers after coming directly from Costco.  I didn't freak out this time.  I guess anxiety is contagious.  I never used to be so illogical.  I caught it from the parents.  After they died their legacy of fear continues.  I guess maybe that's where Mit and Ail are coming from.  The reptilian brain supercedes the mammalian and everything  becomes a survival issue.  Only using discipline and logic and prayer overcomes the heavy neural program. 

So I called Eric and once more to the rescue.  He's fixing it in his inimitable fashion.  He's such a superlative mechanic.  This  car thing has been going on for maybe four months.  And he has been so wonderful about it.  The first time he reset the sensors and told me to get heavy duty Marine engine additive.  It worked for a few months.  And he said if the gas cap isn't on tight the engine compreshion is affected.  Why it happens after a fillup I don't know.

I hung out with Denise, his office manager.  I seem to have a lot of personality traits in common with her.  Obviously of above average intelligence and compassion.  Seriously.  Sounds affected but I mean it.   

Another member of the tribe. 

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

What happened??

Somehow all my blogging is erased.  Big Do-Over.

14 minutes later restored and edited since I don't know how to uncreate this blog.

Still wrestling with the internet.  Feeling sudden desire for corn chips.  I'm feeling Soo Confused.  Or Suu Confused.  Good name.

This new Susan, Suusan, Soosan is feeling New!  Like a baby.  I've been experiencing Euphoria for this week.  My back is hurting in new unknown places and my new shoes ( Grocery Outlet) make my feet feel I can leap tall buildings in a single bound. 

I somehow keep closing this out and have to keep signing in.  The odd thing is this new address works better than the other two.

When I typed in hersusanstory I came to II.  In the blog title I used lower case L and without typing the two I arrived at the II. 

Another mystery I don't need to solve.