Sunday, June 17, 2018

THE GOODFATHER

AMERICA OWES MR ROGERS FOR WHAT SANITY EXISTS TODAY.  HE TAUGHT KIDS HOW A REAL MAN BEHAVES.  IF I HAD BEEN THE RIGHT AGE AND GROWN UP WITH HIS INFLUENCE I'D HAVE CHOSEN BETTER.  INSTEAD I MARRIED SOMEONE LIKE MY FAMILY, UGH.

IT'S NEVER TOO LATE.  I CAN REDO MY CHILDHOOD AND UPGRADE THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE.

I'M ALREADY DOING BETTER.  I EXERCISED, RETURNED DVDS TO CUPERTINO, BOUGHT HOT DOGS AT LUCKY'S, ATE LUNCH, WALGREEN'S, $ANTA,  RENEWED CHROME, AND I COULD BE DONE FOR THE DAY.

I BOUGHT A SELECTION OF CHIPS.  YUM.

HAPPY F-DAY TO ME.  I'M CHARGING MY CHROME. 

BEST FATHER'S DAY EVER.




Friday, June 15, 2018

I'M FEELING

A LITTLE OUT OF MYSELF.  I FORGOT TO WHEEL GERTA'S WALKER.  I WENT TO ST J AND HOME.

I ACTUALLY LOVE COMING HOME NOW.  I NEVER FELT THIS HOUSE WAS MY HOME.  I WAS NEVER MADE TO FEEL WELCOME.  I HAD TO EARN MY PLACE HERE.  I HAD TO DO ALL THE WORK WHILE MY SISTERS AND MOM LAZED AND MY DAD DID THE BIG JOBS UNTIL HE DECIDED BEING AN INVALID WAS EASIER.  SO I NEVER FELT AT EASE HERE. 

AND MOVING BACK WAS BETTER AND WORSE.  I WAS AN ADULT, STRONGER AND THEY WERE MORE CHILDLIKE AND SET TO REMAIN UNCHANGED.  MATURITY REQUIRES, DEMANDS CHANGE. 

LIFE REQUIRES CHANGE.   THE LACK OF CHANGE IS DEATH. 


Thursday, June 14, 2018

BLAHHHH

I DON'T LIKE THE HEAT.  I'M FEELING BLAH, MEH, AUG.  SPELL CHECK CONSIDERS THEM REAL WORDS.

AND THAT'S HOW I FEEL. 

IT'S LOVELY AIR CONDITIONED.  AND I CAN CONTINUE EATING STRAWBERRIES.  I BOUGHT AND ATE TWO SFWY SANDWICHES FOR $12 AND I FELT GOOD.  I FELT I DESERVED THE BEST.  THE PROGRAMMED GUILT AND SHAME ARE LESSENING.  THE LESSONS.  NB HAS 1 lb FOR $.97.  YUM

MY APPOINTMENT WITH DR. PC TODAY AT 2. 

AND I'M SAD, TIRED AND OK.


Wednesday, June 13, 2018

I'M STILL HERE

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING.  I'M WORKING AT KNOWING WHAT I WANT.  I DON'T KNOW.

I LIKE HAVING THE LIBRARY COME TO ME.  CODY TOOK CARE OF MY ACCOUNT.  I WANT TO ARRANGE FOR BEING PAMPERED. 


Tuesday, June 12, 2018

choices

AFTER PHYS-THERAPY I FINALLY WENT TO $ CAMPBELL.  DRIVING TO SRS I DETOURED TO CARLOS' AND ASKED FOR MORE OPTIONS.  THERE AREN'T AS MANY USED CARS. 

Monday, June 11, 2018

no corolla

NO ONE CALLED ME BACK.  I'LL SEE IF THERE' SOMETHING ELSE CARLOS RECOMMENDS.

I CALLED AGAIN.  THIS TIME TONY.  SAYS IT'S SOLD.  THEY HAD RAISED THE PRICE SO I DON'T KNOW. 


Sunday, June 10, 2018

MY LOWER BACK IS COMPLAINING.  I DID A LOT YESTERDAY.  DAILY WORD-RENEWAL.  AND I AM.  I FOUND TWO SILK BLOUSES AND TWO GIANT BLACK TEES.

I WENT TO EXERCISE AND PICKED UP MY FREE GINGER ALE.  I BOUGHT 3 lbs. OF STRAWBERRIES $4.99 AND PREPPED THEM/MONK FRUIT SWEETENER.

TODAY I'M RESTING.  I FIXED THE SWEATS I BOUGHT FOR $.49.  AND JUST TOOK MY TIME.