whew-cranberry slaw

i'm feeling tired and healthy.  i put out garbage went dollar 10;30.  last 3 chips two mouthwash.  seniors i walked 10 minutes stretched felt good.  main pick up 3 drop off lego isla, south, saving.  thought of going county remembered banking tomorrow so went am tire for air check.  no one came after 10 minutes so i started doing it myself.  young man came over offered to do it.  i acquiesced.  

came home haunches throbbing ate lunch put things away.  rest up for tomorrow.  

i made potato w/cheese, turkey cranberry, toasted corn bread, yam.  i love my pyrex 4 cup measure for cooking.  i have a lid that fits.  over time i've collected glass lids for ceramic bowls and plates.  it's fast and convenient with the spout venting steam and handle for safety.

cesar in las vegas

 i'm getting quite the workout adjusting the antenna.  after an hour i'm done.  i'll watch something else.

i rested 'til 3 and ruminated i want to go to lucky's but i don't want to do anything.  didn't want to do anything so i let it go.  i dressed and took my inner child in tow.  i bought my lucky's corn bread, yams and sesame oil and got my free sparkling ice.  i checked out big lots no mix but 2 sport bras $10, 7 spices $1 each.  great bras.  i'll have to check campbell and milpitas.  there's one cambrian too.  

i'm almost done with turkey.  still delicious.  i'm eating the potatoes and yams.  so good.  with cheese, with gravy.  

i remembered to watch jamie.  life is good and getting better.  reading up on saints i learned when good things happen self punishment is expected.  no wonder i loved my family they punished me like i was a saint.  

today or tomorrow.

i finished reading green lights last night.  when i read it 6 more times it's mine.  

coming home to nurse dad brought me face to face with the programming i'd received.  mom and dad always looking for someone to take care of them.  something i  did since 8 years old.  and i was back again.  unlike my sisters who knew they didn't want to be used.  i'd been used my entire life it was all i'd been taught.  it motivates me to reprogram.  i witnessed their deaths.  the result of their life programs.  

i'm reclining in the living room.  i almost stayed in bed all day.  i'm wiggling like babies do to build the muscles to function.  i'm rebuilding my body my life.  8 years of bed riding i learned a lot.  i was too sick and weak to hold a book so i watched a lot of educational tv.  i couldn't digest much so i ate simple carbs and reset my metabolism.  

b-a-h year of the rat is almost done

betrayed.  abandoned.  heartbroken.  humbug.  it's just what some people do.  who some people want to be.  that's what makes me sad.  they don't love themselves enough to be the love they are.  maybe they've never felt loved.  dangerous people to be around.  predators devour everyone around them.  they tolerate those they can feed off/use.  other predators in a herd tending live stock to sustain them and do their dirty work.  should a more attractive work force appear the old stock is slaughtered.

alien chose valentine's day to announce to her then husband, father of her children she was divorcing him.  dale stone someone she hooked up with during a high school reunion replaced him for a short time.  she made her children part of the lies and deception.  she pimped her daughter like she did with me.  i wonder how far she'll take it, to the next generation?

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so good.  i cooked potato wedges in gravy with sliced carrots and zucchini.  big slice of turkey and mounds of cranberry.  yam for dessert.  

i'm here for me.

choices

i'm bundled up in the living room feeling tired after standing in line yesterday.  do i want to go find lunch?  41 o today.  i can revisit the past and if so how far back?  one place is north, one south and 2 west.

i had a bit of turkey and leftover lunch brown rice for breakfast.  for lunch turkey potato cranberry.  i made one of the many freebie gravy.  pretty good.  i rested and napped.  yam dessert.

what a great thanksgiving!!

oh, what to do

i dreamed i visited eric and wanted to stay but he said i couldn't follow him.  i slept 7 hours.  7.  

that's like tom.  the first person to limit where i go.  first he invited me to a concert then reneged was taking his nieces.  what a jerk.  i decided not a healthy person to be around.  exclusion is negative.  

i got to the car.  no keys.  locked in house.  i looked for hidden key.   it'd been a long time.  the cats or squirrels knocked it around.  i finally found it.  i want a better method.

i went to $tore scored 4 slightly bent pans.   walked, stretched park, picked up lunch and list of places thanksgiving dinners tomorrow.   hmm...  kind of far.  map quest posts fuel cost $2.25.  lunch diced turkey loaf thin gravy i made potato.  diced yam, roll, broccoli.  

do i want to go 3-7 libraries?  i went main long line, home in 45.  saw justin and bea.  ate whole individual seedless watermelon for dinner.  didn't feel like turkey.  

ouchy

my right brow and eye.  so sore.  

arrived seniors 10;16 #6.  didn't stretch talked to art getting his address for christmas card.  took me 3 tries saving on the phone.  i didn't know what was what.  so i used up my time on art.  

i went to college safe way to see if freebie no bake cookies since last day.  score.  also frozen michelina mac hamburger 62 cents and sliced havarti cheese.  i want to compare to swiss.  another 50 cent brush.  $3.16 total saved $8.17.  

i've been staying up midnight reading green lights.  so good.

i made potato and cheeses for dinner.  so good.  and yam for dessert.

must have computer bug

i was typing along and blip everything gone.   start over.  arr seniors 10;27 my latest ever #7.  i'm slowly like a glacier emptying fridge.  i put out bins start week out fresh.  i tried to renew 'secret'.  9 the new max.  i went to main they renewed #10 time.

it's cool overcast mist.  lovely.  came home ate almost inedible slice of pork loin.  couldn't manage boiled diced carrots broccoli.  

i started watching dr oz, olivia newton john, kelly preston breast cancer.  i started wiki and 12;55 realized i was due dr chung at 1.  i was dressed jumped in car and 5 minutes late.  all tests normal.  i gave him the letter from anthem, he made copy.  i asked for and got copies of my tests, home 1;40.

i got national geographic from auntie.  i was going to write after holiday but today's good. 

i made plowman's share for dinner.  i seasoned the veggies with amino, baked potato, melted philly and swiss cheese on top.  so good.  i cooked big yam for snack dessert.  my tummy so happy.  

it's so hard for me to cry

or show any emotion having had it beaten out of me.  i had to put on a neutral face.  being happy was punished too.  sometimes just breathing was punished so i held my breath afraid to breathe even.  i was watching mary poppins-saving mr banks.  

was my mother crazy?  she punished me for everybody.  like 'igor'.  so no i guess not so far as the general population defines crazy.  the prevailing behavior no matter how insane is determined 'normal' by majority rule.  look at trump as president.  

something weird i got usps email saying i had mail.  there's no sunday delivery.

i went to dollar for 3 chips, mat, ramen.  got to st j before 1 no lines table and church ladies.  i asked and turned in letter and envelope.  i was given choice turkey or 2 $10 gift cards.  i drove around and john greeted me, another choice safe way or lucky's.  i got home 1;04.  i put everything away.

i got one bag 3 lbs carrots, 10 lbs potatoes, package gravy, stuffing mix, canned yams, green beans, 2 corn, apples, oranges.  

i chopped some jerky, added tomato turtle beans, heated with leftover lunch of ramen veggies.  i want fresh cooked yam for dinner.  i had one for breakfast.  

hurrah!!  i remembered jamie 6 pm.  yesterday i only caught the last 14 min.  i love the flashback button.  i can surf without remembering what i was watching.  

sore stomach

 muscles feel bruised.  i got 6 hours uninterrupted sleep hurrah!!  i ate burrito it was good.  

i'm watching odd couple together again made for tv movie jack klugman, tony randall felix says "if only everybody would do what i say the world would be a better place."  made me laugh out loud because alien always said that but she wouldn't live it just like mom.  

miracle

my stomach is still iffy but i know how to deal with the symptoms.  my back ribs are sore.  my neck feels on the mend.

lucky's freebie $1.25 burrito.  small breakfast egg bacon sausage.  and yams.  5.3 lbs.  my latest snack.  wash, wrap in parchment cook in microwave.

seniors 10;26 # 11 walked park stretched.  i can't believe how quickly i recovered.  

exhausted from agony

since 3;37 a m i've been trying to get comfortable.  i dragged myself to dentist 9;30 appointment.  miss alex so caring.  arr 9;46 seniors car #6 i could barely move.  back to 2003.  i sat in car stretching trying not to overdo.  no exercise today.

picked up stinky fish.  heated chicken ate half brown rice and spinach.  took me 2 half hours eating so slowly to avoid cramping.  i'm lying in living room propped on pillows trying to avoid injury listening to secret.   i'm wearing 2 braces keeping everything in place.  

took kava and willow.  feeling so so tired.  processing pain is exhausting.  my shoulders to my hips down my legs.  exhausted muscles processing pain.  my neck my skull.  

i'm so tired of feeling incapable.  

finally removed braces 4;30.  

more igor

never good enough.  that's all i ever heard from mom and dad.  mom always telling me to be like my sisters.  she finally shut up when at 16 i replied 'if you knew half of what they're up to you wouldn't say that.'  she didn't say anything.  she either knew or didn't want to know.  she never used that comparison again.  and when dad got sick i was the one moved home for both of them.  good thing i wasn't like my sisters.   

i checked dollar store for leg warmers none last package chips 2 liners..  picked up lunch walked park stretched.  

home ate and showered.  rested.  drove to 99 cent store 2 pair leg warmers and 3 liners.  still half hour early checked out dollar tree nothing.  drove back way to mammogram.  sat in car 15 minutes.  went smoothly bone density done by 4;30.  main library walked right in said hi to bea.  dropped off jamie picked up emma and green lights.  seems too perfect.  

letting go

giving up the past to make room for a new better future.  hard and scary.  the doubts.  what if it's worse?  go back.  maybe hardwired to instill caution.

i paid pge walmart, walked store.  9;30 too early seniors so i sat in car 'pheasant under glass'.  wind tropical storm.  decided to try calling mammogram.  after 10 minutes i replaced cancellation tomorrow 3;15.  easy peasy.  2 1/2 weeks calling.  nervous energy driving to seniors i saw big avocado.  arr seniors 10;07 #7 briskly walked 3 blocks to pick up found another.  whew i was sweating.  

some of the nervous energy is due to the high velocity south wind electricity.  one day at a time.  one thing at a time even though i revel in multi tasking.  makes me feel skilled and talented.  not being able to do strength things sucks.  i miss doing physical things.  making things, trimming trees, cleaning gutters.  i never found them to be difficult.  i always managed to simplify the task.  i changed the broken door hinges on my datsun.  i did all my plumbing repairs, painting.  and now my back, shoulders, hips don't allow me.  i feel like a loser.

from the crest of the sine wave of life into the trough.

practical experience

 my purpose to be happy.  my new cells are screaming and crying.  at least that's how i'm feeling it.  

arr seniors 9;47 #1 roast beef.  i didn't want the pasta.  i removed the red onion to cook and added dill pickle i added green olives to mellowed the saltiness. 

i felt good so i cut the suckers in the front yard and down spout.

so many memories how the parents went gambling tahoe, reno, las vegas, entire weekends once a month.  mom asked me what i wanted.  alien and nit always asked for and got something expensive while i would get something cheap so i asked for harvey's roast beef sandwich with dill pickle.  in high school alien started having all night parties with her friends weekends.  alien sent me and nit to our friends' houses for the weekends and rented out our bedrooms.   then when i was 13 alien decided i was old enough to help set up and clean up her weekend parties.  that's when alien started pimping me out to creeps who couldn't get dates.  i couldn't tell or mom would have killed alien.  i'd seen too many beatings for nothing.  

nit went to nora burbridge's down the street and talked me into lending valerie burbridge my coin collection from charles and amy for show and tell.  valerie refused to return it saying she had added to it.  that's on nit.  i had to scramble for somewhere to go.  i wasn't allowed friends.  

2;30 i decided to go to arques gym.  i forgot my shower shoes again.  i'll get back into the swing of things.  i stretched half hour.  they don't know holiday hours yet.  best part is clean clothes.  i even thought working in a laundry would be great.  

i'm cooking all the salad veg and chicken and amino.  and chips.  yum.  oh so good.  i decided to add 4 eggs instead of the chicken and 4 slices swiss cheese.  i ate practically all of it.  

learning to be a child

so many of us were forced to be the accommodating adult compromising ourselves in fear of the adults around us we don't know how to be effective happy children.  only integrated balanced people can be happy and successful.  

the child contains imagination and play.  

cesar 911 i realize i played favorites with my dogs.  i chose felix while tiger was x's dog and mop was a stray i never considered giving away.  

reprogramming is physical pain

everything we learn is remembered by chemical imprint.  all our conscious and unconscious memories are chemically recorded.  strokes scramble the chemical imprint.  changing behavior requires imprinting over existing programming.  it's uncomfortable feels like having bugs running around in the body.  

i want some one to take care of me.  to put me first.  that's igor.  he creates the ultimate weapon and falls in love with his creation.  my fair lady.  becomes devoted to her.  willing to put her above his ego.  my sleep is dictated by what i need to reprogram.  i'm too stubborn to accept reprogramming awake.  so i sleep to what i need to learn.  eva as annie has green dots in her eyes contrasting her red hair and dress instead of annie's white dots. 

i've been feeling drawn to 99 cent only store.  2001 amy/kyochan sent me a 99 cent only phone card from l.a. so i could call her when i was bedridden.  she offered to take care of me but i was mostly sleeping and i would have felt too guilty disrupting her life with charles, john, catherine and the grandkids.  alien threatened to sue her for the $10 k down payment mom gave her like she did for her daughters.  mom gave lots of money to her sisters too.  she couldn't give love so she gave money.  i was the only one to pay her back no wonder mom hated me.  i didn't understand then i was insulting her.  alien was trying to have me physically and illegally evicted so we were in the same boat.  predators.  

i finally tackled the st just chicken from the 10th expecting little drumsticks when it's 4 giant quarters turkey sized.  i can only fit 2 cut up at a time.  must be from monster chickens.  i'll cook them all.  the puck oven i can set and forget.  i decided to use the $1 rechargeable flashlight in the garage.  one of the best buys i ever made.  

my hips are screaming especially the right.

the chicken is delicious.  not much meat, mostly back bones and fat.  so i cooked the other 2 stripping the meat for later.  for dessert so so lemon danish with hazelnut chocolate made delicious.  

i'm cooking the other 2.  i didn't check the temp so it's taking longer.  oh, well when i'm tired.  i finally finished the last lemon square.   i remembered jamie on at 6.  i'm happy.  

still detoxing

my body's in a turmoil.  i'm craving brag amino.  one bottle may only last a week.  rather remarkable finding it clearance at safe way.  

onward and upward! 

i'm doing my conscious breathing.  not knowing what else to do i'm doing what i know.  i went to lucky's picked up cornbread and free k cups.  checked in walgreen's photo machine.  8 1/2 by 11 bed.  do i want more pictures copied?  

arr seniors 10;10 #9 55 o.  dropped garbage walked stretched.  home still no reception tv channel 2.  i'm feeling sleepy.  calm.  

napped and ate asian noodle salad.  i looked for 2 bottles of toasted black sesame seeds gone from seasoning drawer.  oh, well sisters have been shopping again.  

channel 2 is back but channel 5 reception in and out.  supposed to rain interference.  finally warmer.

no dentist.

hurrah!  normal day.  postponed next week i went to sprouts and target.  i forgot to look for leg warmers.  oh, well.  i have to pay pge i can check walmart too.  i want passionflower.    

feeling sad. and detoxing

i spent from 4 am stretching and wriggling trying to get comfortable.  then i started feeling hatred, disappointment, antagonism projected at me from my family leaving my body.  nora monaco said i carried the family's guilt on my chest and that i would find my own psychic answers.  i've stored the family negativity in my cells.  as the projections leave i shiver.  without the cold and isolation i couldn't do it.  bless covid and cold.

my inability feeling happy was from the stored hatred etc.  i was full.  i feel lighter.  i wonder how much obesity in the world is an attempt to compensate for projected negativity.  can't consciously feel it if it isn't self generated.  it's like wearing a coat of anger.  it's on the outside.  unless there's a mirror there's no reflection to see the image.  all my relationships have been attempts to rid me of projected feelings that never belonged to me.  i was just a storage facility allowing my family to succeed in the world.  

aspergers, down syndrome prey conditions allow the predators to function.  we keep the world from devouring itself.  destroying itself.  jesus said as you do to the least capable you do to jesus.  handicapables exist as an opportunity to do better to be better.

some how i lost 2 hours.  bedroom month old battery quit. 1 pm and i'm not hungry.  my body is flooded with toxins.  i'm cooking veg for when i am hungry.  i ate 2 yams. the smaller the better.  i washed wrapped in parchment nuked 3 min turned 2 more.  washed sliced mushrooms in spinner.  cooked in garage 30% 20-stir-20-stir.  3;30 called 24 hour for wait time no one there.  i showered in the warm washed my hair.  no chairs now.  hung on bars stretched.  went walked safe way.  $tore looking for leg warmers feeling pretty good.  50 cent 2 laundry bags, fish oil, 2 m wash.  gave busker$2.  home 5;30 i added mushrooms to ramen and pork slices.  so good.

thich nhat hanh

rev marcia campbell religious science church back in?  he was alone traveling america going from church to church.  such faith.  now i find he's world famous.  huh.

miracle.  after practicing peggy cappy breathing exercises on her relieving stress with yoga without thinking i went directly to the suitcase compartment containing the leg warmers i'd wanted for this record cold spell.

$tore 3 bags chips, 2 m wash, alien spider skeleton.  

sitting on the corner harrison jefferson arr 10;33 #13 brisk walk stretch 10 min around park.  almost got wrong lunch.  i double checked.  put stamp on auntie's card mailed expeditiously.  returned wonder boy to main.  stopped st just 3 bags full.  

straight to cup library parked in shade.  alcohol spray washed bear and hulk.  sorted groceries.  ate b b q chicken sandwich.  heather said it was good i thought it was ok.  had internet reception i tried cup guest, all disappeared not secure.  on to gas fill up.  home took me 3 hours putting everything away.  3 trips to car.  canned goods, rice, chicken, mushrooms, zucchinis, onions, fruit, eggs.  egg nog i'll offer toke.  hard on my back.  

4 calls half hour waiting pch

over 2 days.  finally got thru to talk to elias to cancel grill pan i didn't order on pch.  got call from silicon valley eyes for appointment tomorrow 8 am.  i called rescheduled 12/11 9;15 am.  my comfort.  i took out bins.  i sat on hold 15 minutes mammogram no one answered.

i'm still feeling so tired.  my right hip and leg.  it has to be damaged nerves in my back.  i walked and stretched picked up lunch 10;23 #8.  i waited 'til it warmed up to 60 o.  i wore my pajamas.  comfort highest priority.  i sat on hold 15 minutes for mammogram.  no one picked up.  i went to college and homestead safe way for free one pot pasta and powdered chocolate frosting add butter.  2 swiss cheese, 4 clearance 50 cent, lettuce 98 cents.

since i was across the street i stopped at main.  pick up is inside lobby.  jamie's comfort food inspired me.  peanut butter brownies topped with fresh fruit.  oatmeal cookies with peanut butter good, hazelnut better. 

just as i was leaving i remembered to pay citibank.   

computer still acting up.  running so slowly.  looking online emails preview mail auntie sent letter.  hurrah!!  cheered me up immensely.  she sent $100 for thanksgiving birthday christmas.  wow!! from her and uncle dickie.  i wrote thank you card.  she liked the ninja halloween card and goofy socks.  how do you know a ninja's been in your candy?  you won't.

danaan parry

ed zerbe took me to a new age bookstore 'rainbow bridge' 1985.  after having moved 3 times in 2 years with 25 boxes of books i swore not to buy anymore.  while ed talked to his friend the manager i browsed.  passing down aisles and shelves of books one jumped off behind me.  earth stewards.  being a read-a-holic i read the jacket and considered the bible advising mankind to be earth stewards.  not masters or conquerors but stewards.  holding the earth in trust.  i bought the book.  

i devoured the book thinking how nice.  if only.  i was in the middle of getting divorced and putting my life back together.  years later on a sunday after church i went to a friend's house on our way to lunch.   rose living off southwest expressway apologized she forgot it was her group's monthly meeting.  she invited me along.  when she said earth stewards we were both amazed.  she drove us to a park across from the oakland estuary on a perfectly beautiful day.  we parked the car and crossed the playing field to some trees and wooden picnic table benches.  half a dozen people coming from the opposite end of the park greet us recognizing me from a dream i had maybe 6 months before.  in this dream i'm up in a tree over the bench seating 6 men and women.  the woman on the end elbows the man sitting next to her glancing up at me says "she has such an unquenchable thirst for knowledge."  i woke myself up laughing it was so like me.  the six people all recognized they'd seen me before asking what chapter i belonged to and other meetings i'd attended.  none.  my first only physical contact.  

they discussed their exchange program with russian families on a purely informal civilian basis.  i believe they brought down the berlin wall.  people meeting people.  learning prejudice and ignorance are the enemy not people.

still discord-finally done-lost tabs

trump is consistent.  all he's good for is distraction and discord.  hopefully he won't make it racial.  

only biden-harris will get us beyond covid because they care.  trump doesn't care about lives only money.  as long as he keeps making money he doesn't care about lives.  when his money is affected he'll care.

daily word-guidance  i considered going to lucky's for free bottle sparkling ice and paying citibank due 10th.  instead i read through auntie's letters.  her birthday 9th, uncles's was 4th.  uncle died 4/17.  bro 6/17.  i'll make copies of pictures of mom and dad's ashes at the crypt.  

i heated potatoes mixed 2 eggs added cream cheese.  yum.  finally cooked the krusteaz lemon bars.  used last 3 eggs.  had the box $2 clearance for at least a year.  whew!!  too sweet.

i thought about going shopping since open 'til 9 too cold.

harris-biden announced election win.  wonderful presentation.  i've never felt more invested in america.

lost all my settings.  all my tabs disappeared.  whoa, scary.  suddenly gone while watching jamie.  so i'm totally distracted.  missed 45 minutes getting my settings back.  

being the light. showered effortlessly.

most people are afraid the light will show the truth of who they are.  so they're afraid of the light and afraid of the dark.  just afraid.

trump's afraid of being forgotten or ignored.  

10;23 #12 car a new record.  and good reception.  took a little while to connect.  did a 12 minute walk to garbage and stretches.  i'm leaving senior center garbage at senior center.  ooh, i found more shepherds purse by kids picnic tables.  

well my cd adventure lasted 1 day.  

still no final vote count

with the bushes i worried more.  i had my passport ready.  (auto saving.  maybe because of good reception.)  i'm resigned.  does no good to worry.  

i'm so blessed.  i'm watching mary reilly.  child abuse.  i'm exorcising the demons.  i didn't know why i borrowed a movie i was never interested in until the abuse.  i remember waking in the arms of tommy meyer crying "don't, mommy, don't mommy, mommy don't."  i have no memory of the abuse.  alien was always bragging of burning me, sticking me with pins changing my diaper.  i remember her pushing me out of windows, off the swing always from behind and lying that i fell.  all this is behind me.

trump is a professional manipulator

he's done it all his life and has built his business on it.  he has blacks and latinos in his pocket.  he's a racist who knows how to appeal to minorities.  he appeals to those who have no hope of equality and pose as supporting winners.  they, like the jews who backed hitler will be sadly disappointed.  maybe that's what they're looking for.  another disappointment to dramatize.  

trump has been systematically terrorizing the usa to better manipulate people.  he's making the economy easier to manipulate by withholding covid aid.  covid is the best thing to happen to trump.  he's using the rampant racism as a smoke screen to blind the world to his business deals.  i watch china global television news on channel 36.3 that shares all the trade deals.  trump is selling out middle america.

for the first time in my life i can feel cold in my back shoulder blades.  felt so weird.  as my body heals my thinking becomes clearer.  the brain and nerve cells are working in tandem.  

i took secret cd and forgot to load.  i tried benny goodman big band.  ok made me want 3 more 'secret' copies.

senior lunch line 10;12 #7 i walked park, stretched, decided to make the effort to give art tom's sudoku and crossword books.  merry christmas to him.  so i parked and walked them to his scooter and practically albino jennifur got in my face like i was trying to pull something.  so typically racist white woman.

lol.  i have to laugh at myself.  i just realized jt chinese chatterbox used to monopolize the conversation to the point ella mae and i moved to another table told me i was getting fat and maybe 6 months later had a stroke.  no one missed him 'til he came back.  happened years ago.  when your family disrespects you it hurts.  eh, when strangers insult you it's on them.

watched 'fido' 2006 canadian zombie comedy.  pretty good carrie ann moss, billy connelly.  

hurrah!! 24 no appointments needed.  

little update cloud

there we go.  it has a strike through it until i update.  and until i update if it's disconnected it's gone into the void.  i wonder if the void is full of stuff or a vacuum.  i wonder do all the bits go anywhere.  bodies are comprised of atoms which are recycled.  thoughts are electrical energy must be recycled too.  

it's wonderful taking my time.  i went to target looking for cord to disc man none i did get glucosamine $18 took one and feel calmer more comfortable in my body.  it has sulfate so who knows it may be my allergy to sulfa.  i walked down to sprouts checked clearance and priced supplements $25.

arrived seniors lunch line 10;08 #7 car just behind fat perv red hyundai.  i wore my $9 designer denim chiffon and walked perimeter of block.  shepherds purse weed killer sprayed oh, well.  perv is aping my stretches.  if it makes him healthier it improves the planet.  

i walked a lot.  

pain is distracting

my spine between my shoulder blades is screaming.  i think constant pain is exhausting from burning calories messaging the brain and moving around trying to find a comfortable position.  

aging is interesting.  observing my body, skin, muscles, hair changing as a part of nature.  

i can't believe i remembered first of month pay bills.  i hadn't thought about it at all.  sitting in line i wrote out life insurance check and remembered i have to deposit.  

i was thinking of picking up cup library holds 2.  for sure.  after lunch pick up i mailed life insurance and voting ballot i filled out last night at kiely mission station.  despite road repair i went to chase new machine, 1.  luckily early no crowd.  straight to star one deposit with urmila named after hindu goddess more road repairs to cup library moving once into shade.  noon i ate my turkey pot pie.   it's sad when the biscuit is the best part.  i ate half.  i tried county internet wouldn't connect.  asian clerk most reasonably checked in and out secret cd having exceeded max 5 check outs.  then i thought $v i got 2 h202, baking pan, blond floor mat.  i decided the light weight mats in kitchen would fit better in car.  i can try it.  i got home at 2 pm thinking it was late i did so much and drove 16 miles.  whew!!

home to rest i'm enjoying building up my stamina.  

i've got the blahs-dst

medulla part of brain stem.  sleep autonomic functions.  my symptoms.  (i'm watching 'medium' brain surgery episode.)  when the plastic step shattered.