sigourney weaver

the popularity connection.  she's fascinating to watch predator/prey combination.  i've often wondered why my family hated me when kids at school loved me.  i have that borderline predator/prey combination.  i take care of loved ones with no hesitation to defend them.  

i dropped off recycle 8 am.  exercised picked up lunch famished ate fish and spinach tasteless and filling.  called Inge 5 more bags and still more.  she made me tea and cookies.  visited an hour.  she and Maurice had 4 year honeymoon every day.  wow!!  she's so sad.  she needs time.  i'm sad for her.  when she heals she'll remember the good times.  

i feel so blessed to live at this time with the modern conveniences.  even 25 years ago my aching back would have been so much more difficult to manage.  i have wonderful distractions and aids.  tygj.

neener neener

visited with toke she encouraged me to visit doctor.  i'm feeling better.  my eyes are improving.  called inge and picked up some recycle.  she has a lot.  visited 'til 1 she's lonely and bored depressed over Maurice passing.  if she'd visit Gerda it would help.  i'll go back next week.  

cupertino is open 7 days more hours than before.  sunday 10-6.  unbelievable city is shut down again.  sunny vale smooth.  i computed and came home.  nice to rest and relax.  

sat 1/29- woke 4 am hips and legs aching.  watched mr rogers dozing 'til 7 needed to eat something sleeve of ritz crackers.  got up at 8 made plain and blueberry oatmeal added sliced almonds ate half.  took willow and supplements filled holder for week.  cooked quinoa to add to can soup chicken.  lunch i added shredded lettuce still amazingly good.  stomach and back upset.  i put clothes away in batches instead of forcing myself as the family forced me to do everything without enjoying anything.  Cathy called from hospital.  fell due to carotid needed stent.  still no idea anemia.  15 min since she pays /min.  

sun 1/30- decided to wait 'til afternoon when football in full swing.  so i'm puttering around house spot cleaning.  finished eating immense oatmeal and toast.  tummy is better and i'm taking willow.  6 am went out to car for water and rolling cart.  i still don't know what to do with front yard.  checked big cooler mess from chicken i cleaned h2o2.  

this blog is doing weird things and me along with it

i woke sore and tired.  i did a lot especially recovering from stroke.  my right eye is still messed up.  i want to call for handy parking additionally.  i keep reminding myself to take willow thinners and drink more water.  when i remember i feel better.

i went seniors early and computed upstairs.  10:30 i was bored and decided to change and mini workout.  picked up lunch.  Inge showed up we chatted.  i'm still re organizing car contents.  42 o frosty morning i had to find inside window wiper.  found one i didn't know i had plus a grapefruit drink and 3 pounds of potatoes.  

driving to sunny vale library blinking traffic signal i needlessly worried when everyone did just they were supposed to do.  life is improving i am improving.  found good parking listened to healing while lunching.  found call from Cathy when i charged phone.  went in and gamed computed 'til i got bored.  gym 2 i'm parking further down to use better exit.  drive home pleasant uneventful.  rest and relaxation.  finished hanging socks.  

good day.  trying to stay awake for comedies.  using spot lamps since dad's fluorescent never worked right.  i have big lettuce keeper i didn't know i had.  

being

no thinking.  and here i am.  hear i am.  

as long as i drink plenty of water and take willow for blood thinning i trust i'll be better.  i went to seniors showered exercised moderately, picked up lunch, ate and washed at lucky laundry and on to library.  detoured decided to fill gas.  i computed gamed 'til i became bored.  gym 2 i soaked 20 minutes.  safe way bought lettuce and 2 bread.  home i opened garage remotely brought in wash on wheels.  occurred to me i could wait 'til tomorrow if too tired.  i hung what i wanted then cooked pizza bites.  ate all 20 oz for dinner.  my favorite old movies on, life with father, cheaper by the dozen Clifton Webb marathon.  i'm resting.  

i used to be so compulsive about doing everything now.  useless pressure.

got home no blog

i guess i didn't open page.  i don't know.  picked up food.  pretty good chicken crema.  spinach in roue not cream.  asked about Inge, taking month off.  library filled bottles, computed gamed wheeled.  gym short time to pamper myself.  safeway took 20 minutes searching last day spring rolls.  didn't like bought others better value w/chicken.  micro for dinner.  crisper in toaster oven.  yum!

driving home detoured lucky's last day crave 13 oz potato chips 100 bonus pts also pizza bites.  saw Inge parking lot talked 15 minutes catching up.

completely lost connection

amazing.  i recovered some settings w/o clue card.  happened outside seniors i checked internet still no city everything gone.  i managed to stay calm.  

i can minimize to logo and you tube still plays.  i had another mini stroke early this a m.  don't know genius or what i'm assuming.  this morning dizzy, confused, light headed.  showered babying myself.  

i keep checking print size finally medium.  i kept resetting and blog kept reverting to normal size, huh.  

well, weird day all around.  and it went back to smaller 'normal'.  maybe the chrome book.  it's a reflection of me.  i played pch games, lotto, quiz, wheel.  

i finally figured out people watch sports not realizing it's a tribal survival need.  too bad it has nothing to do with reality.  so much of the planet could be improved if the competition were focused on helping others rather than beating 'them' down.  there is no them.  only us.

heaven

arrived library 10 before open and #1 parking open.  brilliant!

i went to panda 10 am thinking 10:30 open when 10 am.  being first not best.  lots hadn't been cooked yet.  i tried teriyaki rubbery no taste.  no glaze.  extra packet but still.  chow mien just adequate.  

on the way to gym 2 i remembered $v $tore.  ramen finally amber wash flashlights.  i'm rich.

home early

had my fill of gaming and computing.  beautiful weather inspired me to cook gristly fatty hamburger.  i drained off fat let cool stored it.  i used med fine mesh strainer made quinoa for b'fasts.  came out sticky.  fluffed it.  cooked brown rice in meat dish.  less clean up.

i was feeling sick in the library.  feeling sad city on lock down next week because of pandemic again.  the warm weather perked me right up.  

i want a cape.

l'm having fun

i'm doing what i want sitting sunny vale library gaming computing resting my back.  

i have 3 pages of games open earning tokens.  i don't even have to think just do.

i'm living like the rest of the world.  woo hoo!!  

amazing

i spent the day wondering if i'd go anywhere.  i watched movies all day then because of football nothing to watch 6 pm i headed to sunnyvale.  i went to gym 2 relaxed.  since it was 60 o i computed gamed listened to healing at library for an hour.  

i figured out the carbon deposits are from my 1 mile drives so no short trips when it's cold.  inefficient burning when the engine gets cold.

not thinking is hard

the remarkable mr pennypacker another example of just because you can doesn't mean it's a good idea.  

like sports.  when physical survival depended on fitness and ability it was important to compete to prove superiority.  

better

first thing this morning i decided to stop thinking and just do what i feel.  the mind is the tool to get things done but the heart is the center of creation.  so i got dressed to go to gym and cooked sausage first.  i ate some with brown rice and peas from last night.  the rest i'll add to bottled sauce.  surprisingly tasty.  i never order sausage preferring bacon.

i headed to gym and found estate sale i saw only 1 sign for yesterday.  i started looking around and the 8 teaspoons of beet powder in 10 ounces of water i drank yesterday started complaining.  i found bag collected 8 med 1 small binder clips, remnant lace and seam binding $1.  i left for sprouts bathroom then bought bullion and pickled ginger.  then i remembered i wanted to buy fine mesh strainer at Ross $4.  on to library for computing gaming listening to healing.  noon i decided to pack up and on the way home found another estate sale nothing.  i was home by 1 to watch concentration.  sewed red bag fixed pocket for aqua bag.  made linguine in my pasta and more.  added bottled sauce to sausage so good and toasted pastry extra almonds for dessert.

following the heart is the only path to happiness.

i'm so much better

i'm feeling calm.  no anxiety or depression.  no obsessing.  i slept typically.  i waited 'til 10:30 to call he thought he might be done by lunch.  he called 11:30 i asked him to pick me up and i can pay him.  dropped off mail i was at seniors 12:30  i asked toke to pick up my lunch and 1 i went in to gym and she took break to get food from her car.  i rearranged my car in the parking lot and went to sunny vale.  

stretching my limits

so busy doing.

thurs 1/13 2:12 pm  sitting waiting for csaa tow.  Rhianon 1:30 said an hour wait time.  i've never been towed.  maybe i can rent a car.  

i went to$tore for amber mouthwash found recharge flashlights 2 finger screen emergency gloves orange caution cones clear face mask 25 cents.  annoying asst mgr telling me twice  clearance 50 cents i said yeas i can read.  she says i know that.  what!!  

seniors i exercised a lot.  picked up lunch headed for sunny library detoured when i remembered tire air check am tire.  got there signs not today.  so i went Lawrence safe way almonds and clearance mini bear claws.  bbb i walked store.  driving Lawrence Expressway car suddenly lost power and i limped into grocery outlet parking lot.  bought beet powder $3.98.  limped to the corner of Brookdale Dr. and Pomeroy and waiting 2 hours.  called again dispatcher sounded drunk hopefully MS or Parkinsons.  said my original location listed Eureka not Santa Clara.  i don't know.  still waiting.  called Michael sounded drunk.  called again Len trying again.  the worst service i've ever gotten.  

i finally got hungry 2:30 ate rice and chicken didn't eat paprika cabbage.  i even have dessert.

finally Kristen 3:49 called fortes bro.  we'll see.  Carlos Gonzalez 35 year old personable tow truck driver made experience great.  took direction Pomeroy to Benton to Alviso and Lewis.   

that is amazing

car is running so smoothly i can't hear it.  better than when i bought it 2018.  

home 5:45 it was dark.  

i remembered goodwill discount.  i left home 10 and got there 9:55.  found display case and got stomach ache.  left store it went away.  thinking of tiger stamps i drove to post office on way to main.  too busy.  main i wheeled and panda survey.  i remembered line dancing and hula that helped my autism.  darryl was so helpful thinking of checking new bookcase.  

seniors toke was exercising i went to talk with her.  only the dining is closed.  

sunny vale i ate my lunch listening to healing.  went in computed gamed.  went to gym 2 saw Adrian from seniors.  almost home i remembered free lucky's soup and $1 off chips and detoured.  i used big lots coupon $5 off $15 too.   home 5:45 it was already dark.  a full day.

check engine

yesterday i didn't freak.  i calmly filled gas and went to Carlos'.  not busy he removed engine cover while i topped up windshield fluid.  the spark plugs were slightly corroded.  never been tuned since i bought it used 2018 so changed and i mentioned the cabin filter changed full of gunk and leaves.  i had to clear passenger seat an hour in trunk and back seat.  he drove me to seniors to pick up lunch.  they closed lunchroom and gym again.  parts delivered i ate and let him work found a penny outside in dirt.  $171.  i never paid less than 500 to Eric.  he really was my brother family.  lost penny blessed it.

straight to sunny vale library i gamed and computed forgot panda survey.  paid city utilities listening to healing.  when i got bored i checked sale nothing.  in car i straightened what i'll need.  went to gym 2 soaked stretched remembered flips forgot lock.  loud Ginny from seniors swimming laps motivated me to leave.  i put suit towel away in car and bought lettuce safe way found bright shiny dime blessing always works.  

home i shredded lettuce with brown rice panda chicken.  i still don't feel like cooking meat and no nob hill meatloaf.  i don't know maybe feed crows.

practicing not thinking but doing

11:30 i went to panda and then ate at library.  i read daily word guidance listened to healing.  didn't go in went to gym 2.  following spirit i came home.  didn't feel like cooking meat.  i have half a can of stag chili so i cooked some potatoes for lunch and dinner i shredded last of lettuce for chow mien.  

good day.

glorious do nothing day

or anything i want.

home 3 pm

seniors routine.  bookmobile Cody fixed everything and gave me his number to call him directly.  i picked up lunch and decided to go to st just pantry.  dropped off at home on to library.  ate lunch to music in car.  went inside to do panda feedback thinking how mom went out to work lunch every fry day with her coworkers and dad to dinner.  she had it good.  since i was 8 years old i did the housework and cooked for the family.  i was the mom.  no wonder i reminded men of their grandmas.  and ex married me to take care of him.  the first thing he did was quit his job so i could put him through college.  

i ordered gum and h2o2 online.  success.  home 3 pm to sort groceries.  dozen donuts, bear claws. whole chicken, tube of beef, tube of turkey, lamb chops, potatoes, 3 chili relleno peppers, oranges, lemons, canned chicken, corn.  i don't know.  i'm tired and feeling stressed.  

i was going to give away half like i don't deserve it.  i do.  i totally do deserve all life's goodness.

loving the new year

grits i cooked last night boiled over.  i don't know why.  cleaned up tray.  if i put bowl inside disposable i won't need to clean.

my regular routine.  picking up lunch weather beautiful.  i waited 'til 11:30 no toke i went to laundry ate lunch.  considered what i wanted to do next dropped off clothes at home then library.  forgot panda receipt eh, tomorrow.  and i want to order gum too.  3:30 done computing i went home hung clothes.  heated grits and succotash.  shredded lettuce with panda.  so good.  doing in steps allows me to recharge.  that's what's good with commercial tv.  i can reset and not obsess.

done and done

finished banking.  if page hadn't disappeared wouldn't be here s v library.  i spent an hour on hold to update world mark.  standing i surprised myself i was ok.  only time to shower picked up lunch walked to car with toke walter showed up i ate we talked 'til 1 i went to credit union to deposit.  i tried going to mission library to renew movies closed.  so i went back to seniors to call main no renewal on bookmobile items i'll wait 'til thursday.  

i was tired going to library.  i remembered beatles cd white album $4 and took $20 just in case.  computed gamed charged 'til 3:30 panda express before dinner crowd.  considered gym but too tired came home taking care of me.  win.

4 pm home rested ate dinner rice shredded lettuce i'm good.  rom coms make me happy help me relax.

just finished lunch sunny vale library

tiny container.  quick lunch.  i'll measure containers. 

got to seniors 9 am after loading laundry in trunk.  i'm doing life in baby steps.  i shampooed taking everything into shower with me forgot locker lock.  worked out good.  exercised taking everything to coat rack.  filled water, biked stretched.  i thought soak and stretch enough but table stretches my hips were so tight.  i wore sweat pants and tank top i was wearing under clothes and changed to athletic shoes from boots.  picked up lunch waited for toke.  she was in hurry to exercise.

straight to library computed gamed librarian helped me copied arby's last day 22% off email.  i drove toward mountain view.  surprise!  super taqueria kitty corner still sunny vale.  bought sliced almonds safe way $4.61 lb.  driving out i noticed chase still half hour open.  tried atm malfunction i went to teller.  withdrew and he offered 2 tiger calendars 5 red envelopes 8 in pack.  score!!

called cathy 2 pm she's better

panda express 11.  opened 10:30.  went gym 2 and practically no one.  found weird rubber kabuki ear bud case between cars.  took it in and belonged to young front desk clerk.  it sat 6 hours.  he said he looked for it.  soaked stretched, safe way clearance cornbread 1 pm.  found 2 pennies.  yesterday i found 1 then it rolled under register i blessed it.  today 2 i lost 1 somewhere.  blessed it. 

on to lunch at library.  panda more veg and fortune cookie smaller container.  even value.