DUE DILIGENCE

I WENT TO THE CITY LOST & FOUND LOOKING FOR MY FORGOTTEN GYM BAG AND "NOTHING BIGGER THAN A WATER BOTTLE".  SO TODAY I PUZZLED AND RESTED.  I CONSIDERED SAVERS AND THE LIBRARY AND PREFERRED TO PUZZLE.  CAME HOME.  I HAVE TWO GREAT BOOKS TO READ AND FEEL GREAT. 

I PADDLED IN THE POOL FOR HALF AN HOUR.  I WENT ONLINE TO LOOK FOR CAROLE FOR ROSE MARIE.  SHE NEEDS HELP AT HOME.  I'D RATHER EXERCISE.  I'M AMAZED AT THE ATTITUDE OF SENIORS WHO DON'T LIKE TO MOVE.  THEY WANT TO SIT AND GOSSIP. 

T. GRANDIN

I'M LEARNING MORE ABOUT THE AUTISTIC LIFE. 

AND LIVING MORE.  I TRIMMED THE CACTUS THIS AM,  FILLED THE H2O BOTTLES,  PICKED UP & DROPPED OFF DVDS AT CAMPBELL.  A FULL DAY.

MY NEW BEHAVIORS ARE BECOMING A WELCOME, COMFORTING ROUTINE. 

YESTERDAY I BROILED A SMALL PORK ROAST AND ATE THE LAST OF THE MASH.  I'M CREATING MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT IT, NOT THE WAY IT HAS BEEN.  NEW BEHAVIORS=NEW RESULTS.

UNLEARNED

MY PARENTS BELIEVED ONLY PUNISHMENT GOT RESULTS FROM ME.  MAYBE THEY WERE RIGHT.  MAYBE THEY NEVER TRIED TO BRIBE (PREPAY).  NO, I WOULD HAVE REMEMBERED A GIFT.  AND THAT'S SO HURTFUL THEY TREATED ME SO UNKINDLY.  SO DIFFERENTLY FROM THE EVIL SISTERS GIVEN EVERYTHING AND THEY TURNED OUT LIARS, CHEATERS, THIEVES.

I'M RELEARNING TO LIVE MY LIFE.  THURSDAY I FORGOT MY GYM BAG ROLLING SUITCASE ON THE SIDEWALK BEING DISTRACTED BY AN ACCIDENT AT THE INTERSECTION OF HARRISON X MONROE WHEN I WAS LEAVING SRS.   I WENT HOME ON LINCOLN.  I DIDN'T MISS IT UNTIL THE NEXT MORNING WHEN IT WASN'T IN THE BACK SEAT.  FOR ALL I KNOW IT EVAPORATED SOMETIME IN THE NIGHT.  I CHECKED LOST AND FOUND AND I'LL CONTINUE FOR A WEEK, DUE DILIGENCE.  I FIND I DON'T NEED IT.  MY BACK IS SOOOO MUCH BETTER I CAN COMFORTABLY CARRY MY BAG. 

PART OF ME FEELS I SHOULD BE MORE UPSET WITH MYSELF OR SOMETHING BUT I'M NOT.  I'M STILL HAPPY.  THAT OR SOMETHING BETTER.

I TREATED MY SELF TO R-B SLIDERS, GLAZED WALNUTS FOR SNACKS.  AND I'M WATCHING MOVIES AT THE LIBRARY.

HOORAY!!  ME!!

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REMINDED ME CHROME WAS DUE AND I CHOSE TO CONTINUE TO SRS.

I SENT AUNTY A CARD AND NOTE SINCE I'VE BEEN FINDING SO MANY DIMES.  AND I FOUND ANOTHER ONE IN THE STREET.

UNCLE IS THE BEST ANGEL.

I CAN GO TO LIB LATER AT NIGHT.

SO MUCH FUN

I'M ENJOYING MY CAR LIKE NEVER B4.  I DROVE TO CUPERTINO LIBRARY LAST NIGHT TO AVOID TODAY'S HEAT.  I'M WATCHING DVDS AT 2X SPEED SO TWICE AS MANY. 

I'M LIVING LIKE NEVER B4.

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TIRED AND CONTENT.  I OVERLOOKED MY KEY BAG AND HAD TO WALK ALL THE WAY BACK TO ST J FROM THE LIBRARY.  I TOOK THE CHROME AND CHARGED IT AT ST J.  I WAS SO FOCUSED ON THE CHROME I FORGOT TO DOUBLE CHECK MY SPACE BEFORE I LEFT THE FIRST TIME.

MORE EXERCISE

I JUST WALKED FROM THE LIBRARY TO ROSS', SAFEWAY, POPEYE'S, ST J, BACK TO THE LIBRARY IN TWO HRS.

I PROMISED DR CHUNG TO EXERCISE MORE AND I'M HAVING MORE FUN.  AND I GOT CHICK TENDERS AND TURKEY SANDWICH.

I WENT TO ROSS' FOR THE SEAT COVERS.  TARGET B4 SRS WAS TOO HIGH.  FROM $20 TO $14.  AND I BOUGHT A PINEAPPLE SHOPPING BAG.  I DIDN'T DECIDE ON ROSS' UNTIL I WAS WAITING TO CROSS THE STREET.  I GOT A BIG BOX OF CLEARANCE CRACKERS BACON/CHEESE FOR $1.50 AND MY PEPPER TURKEY-SMOKED GOUDA ARTISAN SANDWICH AND THE 4 PC CHICK TENDERS 'CAUSE THEY WERE READY OR WAIT 15 MIN.  I'M EATING LIKE A QUEEN.

BIG ME/LITTLE ME

I GET TO CHOOSE.  I CAN RATIONALIZE AND REFRAME.  DOING IT NOW.

HHWW.

VERY GOOD

I FINALLY CONNECTED WITH ROSE MARIE.  FRIDAY I HAD A CUPCAKE I WANTED TO TAKE TO HER AT KAISER BUT I CALLED HER ROOM, NO ANSWER.  AND SATURDAY, NO ANSWER.  SUNDAY NO ANSWER.  MONDAY I FOCUSED ON DONATING MY CAR SINCE I FINISHED CLEARING IT.

TUESDAY I FOUND OUT SHE WAS AT SAN TOMAS CONVALESCENT, AND TOOK MUFFINS.  WE SAT OUTSIDE AND HAD A NICE VISIT.  IT'S WHAT I DO.

and by the time i got home vehiclesforveterans.com had picked up the car.

I DID IT

VEHICLESFORVETERANS.ORG-1-888-255-2838.  10 AM.

I FINISHED CLEARING OUT THE CAR THIS AM.  I FEEL A LITTLE SAD.  IT'S BEEN A GOOD CAR. 

I LOVE MY THINGS.  I FEEL CONNECTED TO MY THINGS.  MAYBE THAT'S WHAT LOVE IS.  CONNECTIONS.

DAY 2

I FEEL NEW.  I LOADED/UNLOADED FOR 1 1/2 HR, WENT TO SRS, CAME HERE TO THE LIBRARY.  I SIGNED UP FOR $2.99 SAFEWAY SANDWICHES AND $1.49-12 OZ CHIPS.

I GOT HERE AT 10 AND WALKED ACROSS THE STREET.  ROSS' HAS SEAT COVERS.  I HAVEN'T CHECKED TARGET.  I COULD DO THAT TOMORROW OR NOT.

                                  FREEDOM!

I'VE NEVER BEFORE HAD THIS MUCH GOOD.

GOD'S WILL? FRIDAY THE 13th

I WANTED TO DRIVE MY OLD CAR TODAY AND DISCOVERED THE WINDSHIELD COMPLETELY SHATTERED.  SO I DROVE MY NEW AND HAD TO GO BACK FOR THE CHROME AND HOBO BAGS IN THE TRUNK.  I WAS ALL SET TO TAKE OFF.  I HAD PLANNED TO TRANSFER MY STUFF TOMORROW AND SUNDAY.  OH, WELL.

THE SHATTERED WINDSHIELD ISN'T APPARENT UNTIL I REMOVE THE SILVER REFLECTIVE SUNSCREEN.  LITTLE TINY PIECES OF SAFETY GLASS. 

I'M A LITTLE RATTLED, SHOOK UP.

TIME TO GIVE THE OLD AWAY.

3;30 PM-I LOOKED ONLINE FOR CHARITIES.  ONCE I CLEAR OUT THE OLD CAR I CAN CALL. 

POLICE REPORT; CALLED MIKE @ SCPD AND GIVEN THE OPTION OF FILING ONLINE,  I DID.  I'M FEELING THE GROWN UP, RESPONSIBLE ADULT.  I'D RATHER NOT HAVE ANY MORE SHATTERED GLASS. 

IT TOOK ME 1 1/2 HR TO FIND MY SMOKES.  I DIDN'T HAVE AN ASHTRAY AND PUT THE PACK IN THE CONSOLE.  THEN I COULDN'T REMEMBER WHICH CAR AND WHERE.  I HAD TO HAVE A SMOKE TO FIGURE IT OUT.

ROSE MARIE IS STILL AT KAISER.

DAD DIED AT KAISER.

I CAN BELIEVE IT

I'M GOOD.  I MISPLACED A DVD AND FOUND IT.  I'M SLOWLY CHANGING CARS AND SORTING THROUGH STUFF IN THE HOUSE.  I'M DOING MY EXERCISES AND EATING LIKE A QUEEN.  THE CHROME IS WORKING GREAT.  I SWITCHED MY CAR INSURANCE.  NEXT IS MY GIFT CARD ACTIVATION.  I'M CURRENT ON BILLS.

WHO COULD ASK FOR ANYTHING MORE?

SAVER'S

I DECIDED LAST WEEK TO GO BACK FOR A METAL RACK AND SOCK MONKEY.  THEY WERE GONE.  I FOUND A DIFFERENT RACK AND IGLOO I CAN USE FOR GARDEN TOOLS AND TO SIT ON.  I THOUGHT I'D SHOP THE REST OF THE STORE.  I TRIED ON TWO WORK OUT SHIRTS AND A B-SUIT, BRAND NEW.  THE SHIRTS DIDN'T FIT BUT THE SUIT WAS PERFECT.  THE FIRST NEW SUIT I BOUGHT FOR THE POOL.

I WANTED SPAGHETTI AND MEATBALLS AND WENT TO FOOD MAXX.  3 TV DINNERS, CHERRIES $1.98 lb, 4/$1 AVOCADOS, 2 STRAWBERRIES $1 EA, APPLE TURNOVERS $$1.99, 6 TOOTHBRUSHES $3.

92o IN CAMPBELL.  I DROPPED OFF AND PICKED UP.  I FORGOT THEY DON'T OPEN 'TIL 1 MON-TUE.  I GOT THERE 14 MIN EARLY.



   

I'M SITTING IN MY CAR

THE RECEPTION IS FASTER HERE.  I'M EASING MYSELF INTO MY NEW LIFE.

THE LESSON OF THE BUTTERFLY.  I MAY BE PROJECTING BUT THIS IS A VOLATILE PLANET.  I DON'T KNOW.  I'M FEELING MY WAY.

I DECIDED I NEEDED TO GET THE COVILLE BOOK FROM SARATOGA LIBRARY AND GOT LOST.  I WENT TO LUCKY'S WESTGATE SUPER STORE FOR MY FREEBIES SINCE I ARRIVED IN SARATOGA AN HOUR EARLY.

IT'S BEEN SUCH A LONG TIME AND I'VE CHANGED SO MUCH I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE THE TERRAIN.  I CHARGED MY CHROME AND WENT TO G-1.  THE TUB WAS DOWN SO I SHOWERED AND CAME HOME.  97o.

I FORGOT THE PHONE CHARGER.

FAMILY CURSE

SUICIDE, ALCOHOLISM, SELF-DESTRUCTION. 

TOBACCO IS A TOOL, MAYBE EVERYTHING ON THE PLANET IS A MEANS TO AN END.  A COURSE IN MIRACLES SAYS EVERYTHING HAS THE MEANING WE GIVE IT, THE ULTIMATE IN RELATIVITY.

FEELING BLUE

I DON'T KNOW WHAT FROM.  I MIGHT BE TIRED OR ATE JUNK.

LITTLE DOUBTS

I'M STILL WORKING ON ME.  PRACTICING PEACE.

I STILL HAVE VESTIGES OF FEAR AND SELF-DOUBT.  AND MY AFFIRMATIONS TO BALANCE.

THE LEARNED SELF-CRITICISM IS STILL WITH ME, KEEPING ME GROUNDED.  AND I HAVE SO MUCH TO BE THANKFUL FOR.

BACK TO THE PRESENT

I DID A LITTLE TOO MUCH.  I COULDN'T SLEEP AND AWOKE NAUSEATED.  I WAS TIRED MOST OF THE DAY.  I STILL WENT TO THE BANK, ST J, LIBRARY.  I'LL RETURN CHROME TOMORROW.  I PICKED UP BOOK I LOVE.

I HAD A NAP AND SOUP.  I'M TAKING BETTER CARE OF ME. 

HURRAY!! AND TYGJ.

BRILLIANT BEGINNING

I AWOKE AT 3,  TOOK MY TIME.  I WANTED TO STAY IN BED ALL DAY BUT I HAD TO PICK UP DVD CUPERTINO SO I WENT G2 7;30, THEN ARRIVED CUPERTINO 9;40.  I STAYED AND PLAYED 'TIL 11;30 PLANNING ON LA LIB, SAN ANTONIO ROAD.  ON THE WAY ON FOOTHILL I STOPPED AT LUCKY'S GOT MY LAST DAY FREE CANDY AND 100 POINT CHIPS.  I NOTICED WOODLAND LIBRARY OPENED AT 11.  STOPPED THERE INSTEAD, BORROWED A FINE ROMANCE ENTIRE SERIES TO WATCH THE 4TH.  I DROVE TO MAG TOYOTA 12;30, PICKED UP CAR FAX FROM ANDY/FINANCE, CHECKED IF 4TH BBQ.  I THOUGHT I WAS TOO LATE BUT THEY HADN'T STARTED.  LOUIS WAS LAST MINUTE FILL IN.  I HAD A PATTY AND 2 DOGS.  YUM!!  WATCHED WORLD CUP ON BIG SCREEN.

I SHARED THE MOTORCYCLE HIGH-SIDING STORY WITH ROBERT.  I DON'T KNOW WHY.

PRETTY PERFECT DAY 82 os.

I CAME HOME, WATCHED SOME TV, READ AND NAPPED 2 HRS.

TYGJ