woke at 4;40 effortlessly changed dvd players considering plugging in vhs in living room. when God's in charge energy added. green light. i requested from county. i watched mae west dvd. maybe she was before alice faye.
9;57 #4 senior lunch line i'm learning how to be. forgot phone charging. home i still have 6 cooked drumsticks. i ate 3 last night. i had brown rice soup for breakfast. just what i wanted. comfort. i didn't get a lot from family. makes me shiver thinking of them. i used to feel cold most of the time. they were icebergs.
i looked on 24 hour gyms now open 5 am-930 pm pool but no spa. online appointments only. so i'll wait.
i shuffled my pages. i don't know i'm just so tired emotionally drained. i used to be so good at not feeling anything now everything is too much. could be the detox celery i ate.
folks don't realize everything we do online is observed and sold to marketing companies to get more money from us. in the world it's not enough to be a good person, we must be perceived to be a good person. and everyone online is projecting what they want to be not who they are. feeling not enough. i know that one intimately. the easiest way to manipulate and control is fear and insecurity. and family is so good at that.
came straight home rinsed red pepper sauce off fish i ate with brown rice and greens. basic housekeeping.
malthus in 1798 predicted plague as a population control along with war and famine. i suppose covid has more to do with overpopulation than anything else. if they hadn't cut down the forests forcing the bats into people populated areas we wouldn't have covid. and if people didn't wantonly travel spreading it while polluting the planet more than necessary we wouldn't have it everywhere. i wonder how the countries engaged in wars and genocides are doing. population control.
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