in my family. i don't know how they go on. maybe because they're not alone. i just know i can't manage any more abuse. i may go berserk. ok i feel calmer and after i stretch i'll feel better. i'm still waiting for my token games to load. if it wasn't for my love of playing i'd be a lump going nowhere doing nothing. i watched 'kajillionaire'. a strange movie i identified with on a spiritual level. i had to go to wikipedia to find out the plot. i guess in their limited odd way they loved her.
listening to stress free is healing. i woke at 4:30 dream of a big benign gray rat. maybe i should watch 'ben'.
for breakfast i had 6-7 raw asparagus. all i wanted.
consumer cellular suveen programmed my link 2 phone. 15 minute hold. she tried programming envoy 248 but the card is too old so she's sending a modern 3 part card. 3-5 days. i can use the old one 'til it quits.
ominous, i checked mail preview something from gov. i have to get back early enough to rest my back for sleeping. not in today's.
monopoly; when all else fails read the directions. i got 3 tokens.
stretched and home for pork, mash, asparagus. cooked lucky's beans in bag. young tender.
watching 'danny says' danny fields knew so many celebrities. he stayed humble and honest with himself loving music above all else. stars love with passion music, art, movies. they project their love to be received by the masses. that connection creates an energy feed becoming 'popular'. some celebrities search for that feeling in drugs, sex, rock and roll. some like monkeys with orgasm brain implants kill themselves. janice joplin, jim morrisey, etc. others accept the reality that feelings are meant to travel like sine waves with peaks and troughs. buddhism seeks a middle path. no peaks or troughs. peace. equanimity.
the autistic take a lifetime to connect those parts of the brain. like me. we have a different perception of life just as real one step removed.
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