yesterday noon i went out to pick up avocados and the fence had blown down covering the sidewalk. i stressed. i tried to lift it but couldn't like when mom died. city was closed indigenous day so i tried fireman Jason. he's been promoted to captain i talked to Nick. he said he'd call around to find out what to do. he called me back. closest station closed so he arranged survey 2:30-3 drive by. all i was concerned was clearing sidewalk. Nick came 3:30 called for another engine. we waited. he's living next door to his parents in Saratoga with his daughter after his divorce. 3 guys 1 woman picked up put in yard stayed talking half hour gave them avocados guava.
so today i'm still processing. the emotional component is the worst. this house is all them. every time something goes wrong with the house it's like they've died again.
i'm clearing the energy for the next family. it's what i do.
i let go and let god move through me. i was in so much pain i couldn't stand it. i didn't want to move. i made my mind blank and relaxed. i dressed went to seniors thinking i needed nicotine gum soon. showered exercised computed late. picked up lunch toke was later. gave her avocados. i used safe way expiring just 4 u coupons 5 Campbell soups, stag chili, 98 cent lettuce for $3.58. feeling successful i went to Walmart paid pge bought gum.
home 1:30 i wasn't hungry but at gristly sweet sour pork before i had shakes like yesterday from stress low blood sugar. 4 pm i fell asleep for an hour. staying on schedule i watched tv.
coverage america can count on t-mobile wheel of fortune puzzle.
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