20 minutes. i still feel tired, sick and know i'm ok based on past. i went gym-2 8 am. i considered cutting cactus and decided too much today. maybe tomorrow. the water feels so good. so healing. i stretched everything out. my tailbone, neck, right temple so sore. parts of my skull feel bruised. i sat lap pool to cool down. bug ate bite from suit. so weird. time for embellishment. this is suit 2. the other is missing. my thieving sisters.
11:30 i decided to go sunny vale $tore for c drops, amber m wash, found infinity scarf, toothpaste. cooked hamburger patties. so good on bread i ate 4.
8:30 pm i just realized i'm processing getting my family off my back this life and all the way back in time. my symptoms now are what i experienced after carrying dad to emergency 3 times. i didn't have time to feel staying vigilant, working to pay my bills and trying to live some kind of life. i didn't have the time or energy to feel. it was a luxury i couldn't afford.
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