Tuesday, November 12, 2019

worst night terror yet

WOKE 3;30 FLASHBACK TO THE FEELINGS I STUFFED DOWN TO BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH THE EVERYDAY FAMILY CRISES.  THAT'S WHAT ALL THE  EMOTIONS I'VE BEEN PROCESSING IS ALL ABOUT.  RELEASING STUCK ENERGY.  I THOUGHT OF CALLING SILENT UNITY FOR PRAYER SUPPORT.  CONTACTING DR CHUNG FOR PSYCHIATRIC SUPPORT.  I HAVE OPTIONS.

I'M OK.  I'M LOVED.  I'M PROTECTED.

WENT TO GYM TO SHOWER FEELING HOT AND STICKY.  LEFT 7;30 AND SPENT 10 MINUTES PASSING FREMONT HIGH SCHOOL WHAT A MESS STUDENTS AND CARS EVERYWHERE.  I WAS STILL FEELING ANXIOUS.  GOT THERE EARLY TOOK MY TIME WITH ID CARDS AND PAPERS. 

SHIRAN FROM ISRAEL WAS VERY KIND AND PATIENT ANSWERING MY QUESTIONS  SHE PUT ME AT EASE.

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