Monday, November 25, 2019

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LIGHTS CAME ON 40 DEGREE WEATHER.  MY CARS HAVEN'T LIKED COLD WEATHER.  I DO.  INVIGORATES ME.

I'VE BEEN THINKING OF ERIC.  HE WAS A GOOD MECHANIC.  DOING HIS BEST.  I THINK I UNDERSTAND HIS LOYALTY TO HIS DAD WOULDN'T LET HIM SUCCEED AT HIS OWN DREAM.  HE ALWAYS STARTED OUT GREAT OPENING A NEW CLUB AND JUST COULDN'T CONTINUE BELIEVING  HE COULD DO IT AND SELF SABOTAGED.

I LOVE MY FAMILY.  HE WAS MY BROTHER.  TOM WAS SO JEALOUS.

MAYBE NOT THE BEST FOR ME THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT.  DYSFUNCTIONAL.  WATCHING 'DRIVEN' ABOUT JOHN DE LOREAN.  EVERYBODY'S DYSFUNCTIONAL.  AND HE WAS INDEED DRIVEN TO CRIME ATTEMPTING TO REALIZE HIS DREAM.

I WANT TO FIND MY PERFECT;Y IMPERFECT FAMILY.

I WANTED SMOKES WALGREEN'S AND REMEMBERED PASSPORT PHOTO.  DONE AND DONE.

THEY CAN'T LOVE ME THEY DON'T LOVE THEMSELVES.   MITZI AND CRAIG ARE MOM AND DAD.  AILEEN IS AUNTIE HIDEKO.  AILEEN NEVER LOVED LARRY.  SHE WOKE AND TOLD ME THE NIGHT SHE MET HIM HER BEST FRIEND'S BOYFRIEND SHE'D MARRY HIM BECAUSE SHE COULD MANIPULATE HIM. 

TOM LIES TO MANIPULATE.

I'M COMMITTED TO LIVING MY OWN LIFE.  ANYTHING LESS IS DEATH.


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