SOLITUDE

I AWOKE CONCERNED THAT RICH HAD 3 BIG HITS; HIS MOM DIED, YOUNGER BROTHER DIED, HIS DAD HAD STROKE.  AND HE HASN'T GOTTEN COUNSELING.  I WENT TWO YEARS KAISER UNTIL THEY KICKED ME OUT OF THE PROGRAM.

I SUPPOSE IT'S LIKE DAD DIED '99, MOM DIED YEAR AND HALF, MY SISTERS BETRAY THREATEN HARASS ME TO THIS DAY.  RICH IS YOUNGER, STRONGER AND THE STAR IN THE FAMILY.

WE BECAME ORPHANS.  NOW I KNOW WHY I ALWAYS ENVIED POLLYANNA.  ANNIE.  MAYBE WHY THEY'RE SO POPULAR.  I'M NOT ALONE.

I DON'T KNOW WHERE I'M GOING WITH THIS.

8:15 I FELL ASLEEP WATCHING ABOUT A BOY SERIES.  I AWOKE TO A DREAM OF STEPHEN ROOT DRESSED AS WHITE LINEN SHIRTED HIPPIE PLAYING GUITAR IN STREET PERFORMANCE AND THE SINGING IMPROVED AND WAS FROM DVD.

THE SUBJECT WAS WILL MOVING TO NY FOR DR SAM, LEAVING MARCUS AND FIONA IN SF.  THEY'RE ALWAYS USING PHONES TO COMMUNICATE.  ALONE WITH THE ILLUSION OF TOGETHER.  MITZI AND AILEEN STILL USE ME AS SOMETHING IN COMMON.  WHEN I WAS SICKLY AND WEAK MITZI CHOSE "HEALTHY" AILEEN.

NOW I UNDERSTAND PEOPLE CONSTANTLY ON THEIR DEVICES TRYING TO AVOID LONELINESS.  WELL, WE ARE SINGULAR.  WE ARE ALONE.

THE CONNECTION IS LIFE FORCE, GOD UNIVERSAL SPIRIT, ELECTRON ENERGY.

GOD IS THE HUB OF THE WHEEL OF LIFE.  WE ARE SPOKES ON THE WHEEL.  THE FARTHER AWAY FROM GOD THE MORE TURBULENT OUR LIVES.