WHAT I WANT. IN THE MOMENT I KNOW. LONG TERM I DON'T. I NEVER THOUGHT LONG TERM. PROBABLY THE CONDITIONING OF MOM CONSTANTLY THREATENING MURDER. TOO MANY TIMES. AND EACH TIME A LITTLE MORE DEPRESSING A LITTLE PIECE OF ME DYING UNTIL I HAD NO SELF ESTEEM OR HOPE FOR ANY FUTURE. I CAN'T IMAGINE THEIR THINKING. WAIT THEY DIDN'T THINK.
88 o s NOON. IT FEELS WEIRD AND FANTASTIC TO DO WHAT I FEEL LIKE DOING. I'M STILL IN AWE. I EXPECTED TO GET USED TO IT. JADED. BUT NOT YET.
97 o s 4:30. WHAT TO DO FOR DINNER.
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