Wednesday, October 3, 2018

OF COURSE EX

FELL ASLEEP 9:30-DREAM:  WENT TO COMIC CON OAKLAND(?) WITH EX.  HE HAS TO PEE, I WAIT FOR HIM IN WAITING AREA HE CALLS TO ME TO ENTER MEN'S ROOM, I DECLINE.  HE DITCHES ME.  I'M STRANDED.  THE BAND IS LEAVING I ASK IF THEY CAN CALL UBER THEY OFFER RIDE TO SANTA CLARA AND DRIVE ME HOME.  I HAVE MANY BOOKS WITH ME.  THAT'S WHY HE'S THE EX.

STRANGE DREAM.  I KNOW HE'S DEAD SINCE 2006.  I HAVE BEEN GRIEVING ERIC AND MARIA, MAYBE I'M GRIEVING THE HORRIBLE MARRIAGE I ENDURED.

4:45-DREAM OF GOING TO TEACHER'S BOOK NOOK.  AWOKE FEELING SMALL WEAK DEFENSELESS HAIRLESS ANIMAL FROM CHILDHOOD.

ALL THESE FEELINGS TRAPPED IN MY BODY RELEASING.  FEELS HORRIBLE.  I DON'T WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS.  I DESERVE BETTER.

HARVILLE HENDRIX REQUIRES COUPLES TO SIGN COMPLETION CONTRACTS BEFORE HE'LL AGREE TO COUNSEL THEM.  THESE ARE POWERFUL UNCOMFORTABLE FEELINGS.  I DON'T LIKE IT.

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