living pain free is challenging. i have to change my movements without planning ahead. i'm still accommodating the pain that's gone. 21 years is a long time. pain makes everything seem even longer. and now the emotional pain needs processing.
i finally finished sewing the dress i started last year. mom's quilting fabric. so i decided to wear it to library. feeling good i went to gym 2. dinner i wanted b king. 20 minutes for order. big king 2/$5.
9:30 bed feels so good.
sunny vale library open 'til 6. gamed updated feeling rested. so cold i stayed in bed 1-3 watching healing resting napping. feeling rested went gym 2 safe way around corner no value eggs. so on to maria lucerne substitution eggs $1.93 value price and sliced almonds. came home 8:30 heated rice quinoa melange then added egg to soft. tuna bread. so good. i sliced olive bread loaf. i ate tuna on celery for lunch. i should add sliced almonds.
having what i want when i want is healing. heaven.
i reset my pages. i chose to drive around sunny vale library parking lot. olive street still blocked construction. i found a bunch of spaces in front. 2 days pain free. anat baniel method works like magic. i'm beside myself feeling out of body. i ate and listened to healing. i appreciate not having to decide on menu shop prepare cook clean up. my 8 year old self loves the freedom. i did it for the whole family 'til 18. alien had her 9 month boyfriend dale stone do it all. i preferred she didn't take my tools and groceries when she moved out. oh, well.
she moved in with lauren january 2002 taking my things to the fordham house she made mom cook and clean and gardening. she started selling mom's orchid online connie's orchids.
checked locations wells fargo next to sprouts. cashed it. ate lunch no reception no healing music. lack luster gristly beef 2 pieces broccoli. yahoo.
well, world war 3. i just hope trump isn't planning a takeover here. i was reading his support of putin egging him on to invade. the internet is full of it. i suppose trump believes he can take over america. sad to live to see it. i'm sure trump believes putin will help him like before but putin only helps putin. the only reason to help trump is to take down america and attempt to control the world.
took 2 days to find the jacket i safely put away for Walter. i didn't want the sisters to get it. i stored it in a pillow case to use as a pillow. i'm getting better at remembering the daily things.
pch sent me an email i won $10. i got it today too.
everything according to me. i listened to heal my life and my anxiety is gone. i took my time (my time) went to gym 2 2:30 pm relaxed. drove to library charged chrome. looked up willow and engine cleaner at Walmart. and target is there in mountain view. it's a plan.
i'm not ready to retrace my 1992 steps. i'm still feeling trauma. my right temple so sore. mom was worse than dad. she insisted he remain a big baby.
stay cation 2/21 affirmations working. took 45 years and worth it. i've processed not just my baggage but the family issues. i'm an expert on me. the human condition. talking to Walter is talking to myself. talking to anyone. watching the interviews on healing the common affect we're all freaks. there's an eagerness and stunned quality in their eyes. no wonder i'm off putting.
