watching "finding your roots" I realize I was merely property to my parents. my rich auntie wanted to adopt me providing me with a better life that mom and dad couldn't accept. and so began their life of toil.
Newton's law of equal and opposite reaction is basically karma. what goes around comes around. "judge not lest ye be judged" warns of self condemnation. my family taught negative values and the results of that thinking and acting. makes me sad it's so simple. they couldn't accept that either.
refreshing shower at 24 then lunch at Sunny 9:30 I'm 4th to last. everyone likes meatloaf and mash. and the enthusiastic dancers. music must start at 9 when they open. it's from 1930s-40s. not our era but classic. the universal language. I'm playing with the menu I downloaded. imagine me downloading.
I love reading my blog. I can see what I've done and the changes I've made.
5:30 pm I'm feeling unreasonably angry today dad's death day. OK I'm angry Mitzi hypocrite crying to me when I warned her to leave him be. so I'm moving to burn off the chemicals. when mom was mad was the only time she cleaned.
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