King of Queens TV 2003

I woke so angry not a clue.  so I burned off the adrenaline and cortisol by going out to the car and working on next month's bills.  after an hour I felt calmer and realized the threats of murder and mayhem acting on TV were unlike feeling the hatred pouring off my mom onto me my whole life.  I cut off feeling in order to survive emotionally and spiritually.  

I think that the mass shooters are already dead inside.  they have nothing to lose.  they kill the innocent they envy.  

one good thing mom taught me was to use anger energy to get things done.  I saw her clean house twice in my life.   I was already cooking and cleaning @ 8 years old.  my Cinderella complex.  school was my only respite.  

I figured out how to view the year in blogs.  click on 2025.  I walked book sale.