MY BACK IS ACHY AILEEN BEAT ON ME LIKE MOM BEAT ON HER LIKE DAD BEAT ON HER. PECKING ORDER. MOM WENT TO WORK. I HAD TO WAIT FOR AILEEN TO COME HOME TO LET ME IN. SHE ALWAYS TOOK OFF WITH FRIENDS. I BECAME CONSCIOUS AND WATCHFUL FOCUSED ON SURVIVAL. MITZI WENT TO BABYSITTER AND EMOTIONALLY HYPOCHONDRIAC.
I WOKE TO OLD DREAD. THAT'S WHEN I STARTED HATING WAKING UP. MOM'S ANXIETY ON KEEPING HER JOB. THERE WERE NO JOBS FOR HER BACK HOME THAT'S WHY WE CAME HERE TO CALIFORNIA TO GET HER JOB. SHE NEVER TRUSTED DAD TO TAKE CARE OF HER. HE WAS ALCOHOLIC LIKE HER BROTHERS. SHE HATED HOUSEWORK BEING HOUSEWIFE. MOM WANTED TO BE LIKE DIVORCED AUNTIE HIDEKO WORKING. AND AILEEN AND MITZI REPEATING PATTERN. POOR AILEEN HAD TO DIVORCE LARRY.
UNCLE KATSUGI FOUND DAD A CARPENTER JOB AND AUNTIE KIYO WORKED AS SECRETARY TOO. MOM HAD KIDS TO COMPETE WITH HER SIBLINGS. MY FIRST TWO YEARS GRANDMA TOOK CARE OF ME SO MOM COULD WORK. MOM WAS ALWAYS AFRAID DAD WOULD KILL HIMSELF LIKE DAD'S FATHER HUNG HIMSELF IN THE FRONT YARD THE FIRST YEAR THEY WERE MARRIED SAVING FOR A DOWN PAYMENT FOR THEIR OWN HOME. DAD'S FATHER DRANK HIMSELF TO CANCER NEVER WORKED. MOM SOUNDED LIKE SHE WAS PROUD OF HIS NEVER WORKING AND SHE'D BUY HIM BEER. MOM COULDN'T UNDERSTAND HER MOTHER IN LAW NOT APPROVING. OR MAYBE IT WAS SCHADENFREUDE.
very nice day. not many people showed up lots of left overs.
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