IRRITATION

HARVILLE HENDRIX-PROJECTED WOUNDS RESULT IN ANGER AND IRRITATION.  SOMETIMES.  WHEN WILL CHOSE TO STAND ON MY FOOT THE PAIN WAS REAL.  I WAS RIGHTEOUSLY ANGRY.

MY PART WAS CHOOSING HIM WHEN HE HAD NO DESIRE TO HEAL.  I LIED TO MYSELF THAT HE WAS THE ONE.  HE LIED TO ME ABOUT EVERYTHING ELSE.  I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW HE WAS THE SUM TOTAL OF MY DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY.  THEY CONDITIONED ME TO ACCEPT ABUSE TO SURVIVE.  I DON'T KNOW WHAT WAS GOOD ABOUT THEM.

I DON'T KNOW HOW I'LL KNOW.  I'M FEELING SO PARANOID I DON'T WANT TO RISK REPEATING THE PAST EVEN TO ANY LESSER DEGREE.

THE MUNDANE IS REASSURING.  I'LL FOCUS ON DOING LAUNDRY.

I MAKE MISTAKES WHEN I'M AVOIDING TRUTH.  I DISTRACT MYSELF BY CREATING A PROBLEM TO FIX.

AT BINGO ALMITA CALLED GINNY A DONKEY BECAUSE GINNY HELPS HER.  AT LEAST GINNY'S NOT AN ASS.

MY UTILITIES ACCOUNT IS BACK.  WHERE IT WENT FOR TWO MONTHS I DON'T KNOW.

FREE DONUT AT LUCKY'S.  TODAY IS NATIONAL DONUT DAY.  2X POINTS THIS WEEKEND SO I BOUGHT ALOE H2O AND CANNED CORNED BEEF.  JUST LIKE HAWAII.  I GOT CHIPS FOR 100 POINTS AND COCONUT H2O FOR 100 POINTS.  450 POINTS ARE EXPIRING SO IF I GET IT BACK UP TO 1000 I CAN GET ANOTHER B-KING GIFT CARD. 

I' FEELING TIRED AND BLUE.  I OVER TRAINED YESTERDAY SO I'M RESTING WITH MY BAG OF CHIPS.