whew-cranberry slaw

i'm feeling tired and healthy.  i put out garbage went dollar 10;30.  last 3 chips two mouthwash.  seniors i walked 10 minutes stretched felt good.  main pick up 3 drop off lego isla, south, saving.  thought of going county remembered banking tomorrow so went am tire for air check.  no one came after 10 minutes so i started doing it myself.  young man came over offered to do it.  i acquiesced.  

came home haunches throbbing ate lunch put things away.  rest up for tomorrow.  

i made potato w/cheese, turkey cranberry, toasted corn bread, yam.  i love my pyrex 4 cup measure for cooking.  i have a lid that fits.  over time i've collected glass lids for ceramic bowls and plates.  it's fast and convenient with the spout venting steam and handle for safety.

cesar in las vegas

 i'm getting quite the workout adjusting the antenna.  after an hour i'm done.  i'll watch something else.

i rested 'til 3 and ruminated i want to go to lucky's but i don't want to do anything.  didn't want to do anything so i let it go.  i dressed and took my inner child in tow.  i bought my lucky's corn bread, yams and sesame oil and got my free sparkling ice.  i checked out big lots no mix but 2 sport bras $10, 7 spices $1 each.  great bras.  i'll have to check campbell and milpitas.  there's one cambrian too.  

i'm almost done with turkey.  still delicious.  i'm eating the potatoes and yams.  so good.  with cheese, with gravy.  

i remembered to watch jamie.  life is good and getting better.  reading up on saints i learned when good things happen self punishment is expected.  no wonder i loved my family they punished me like i was a saint.  

today or tomorrow.

i finished reading green lights last night.  when i read it 6 more times it's mine.  

coming home to nurse dad brought me face to face with the programming i'd received.  mom and dad always looking for someone to take care of them.  something i  did since 8 years old.  and i was back again.  unlike my sisters who knew they didn't want to be used.  i'd been used my entire life it was all i'd been taught.  it motivates me to reprogram.  i witnessed their deaths.  the result of their life programs.  

i'm reclining in the living room.  i almost stayed in bed all day.  i'm wiggling like babies do to build the muscles to function.  i'm rebuilding my body my life.  8 years of bed riding i learned a lot.  i was too sick and weak to hold a book so i watched a lot of educational tv.  i couldn't digest much so i ate simple carbs and reset my metabolism.  

b-a-h year of the rat is almost done

betrayed.  abandoned.  heartbroken.  humbug.  it's just what some people do.  who some people want to be.  that's what makes me sad.  they don't love themselves enough to be the love they are.  maybe they've never felt loved.  dangerous people to be around.  predators devour everyone around them.  they tolerate those they can feed off/use.  other predators in a herd tending live stock to sustain them and do their dirty work.  should a more attractive work force appear the old stock is slaughtered.

alien chose valentine's day to announce to her then husband, father of her children she was divorcing him.  dale stone someone she hooked up with during a high school reunion replaced him for a short time.  she made her children part of the lies and deception.  she pimped her daughter like she did with me.  i wonder how far she'll take it, to the next generation?

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so good.  i cooked potato wedges in gravy with sliced carrots and zucchini.  big slice of turkey and mounds of cranberry.  yam for dessert.  

i'm here for me.

choices

i'm bundled up in the living room feeling tired after standing in line yesterday.  do i want to go find lunch?  41 o today.  i can revisit the past and if so how far back?  one place is north, one south and 2 west.

i had a bit of turkey and leftover lunch brown rice for breakfast.  for lunch turkey potato cranberry.  i made one of the many freebie gravy.  pretty good.  i rested and napped.  yam dessert.

what a great thanksgiving!!

oh, what to do

i dreamed i visited eric and wanted to stay but he said i couldn't follow him.  i slept 7 hours.  7.  

that's like tom.  the first person to limit where i go.  first he invited me to a concert then reneged was taking his nieces.  what a jerk.  i decided not a healthy person to be around.  exclusion is negative.  

i got to the car.  no keys.  locked in house.  i looked for hidden key.   it'd been a long time.  the cats or squirrels knocked it around.  i finally found it.  i want a better method.

i went to $tore scored 4 slightly bent pans.   walked, stretched park, picked up lunch and list of places thanksgiving dinners tomorrow.   hmm...  kind of far.  map quest posts fuel cost $2.25.  lunch diced turkey loaf thin gravy i made potato.  diced yam, roll, broccoli.  

do i want to go 3-7 libraries?  i went main long line, home in 45.  saw justin and bea.  ate whole individual seedless watermelon for dinner.  didn't feel like turkey.  

ouchy

my right brow and eye.  so sore.  

arrived seniors 10;16 #6.  didn't stretch talked to art getting his address for christmas card.  took me 3 tries saving on the phone.  i didn't know what was what.  so i used up my time on art.  

i went to college safe way to see if freebie no bake cookies since last day.  score.  also frozen michelina mac hamburger 62 cents and sliced havarti cheese.  i want to compare to swiss.  another 50 cent brush.  $3.16 total saved $8.17.  

i've been staying up midnight reading green lights.  so good.

i made potato and cheeses for dinner.  so good.  and yam for dessert.