omg

my back, shoulders, neck.  at seniors i swam an hour in tub with pool noodles playing water park ride.  i wore my gold crochet chiffon top over homemade raw silk shift.  such a beautiful day clear sunny bright.  lunch good.  gloria, little gloria, her friend julie, toki, diane.  alex was very late next table.  no one wanted to add.  rested digested no puzzle i decided to take harry potter 3 d back to sunny.  puzzled 'til 4 harder than i thought.   nob hill frozen dinner i wanted healthy choice steamer dish, 3 clearance broccoli cheese $1 each, black forest gummy fruit $5.  bed 9 pm.  

today i wear pink top over long raw silk shift.  even at 3 am i feel pretty good.  we'll see what the day brings.

slept 5-7.  showered at 24 unlimited hot water so relaxing.  seniors busy 20 minutes driving around to park.  spun brief, rinsed beads, charged chrome, sharpened pencils.  lunch lovely gloria, little gloria, toki, diane, alex.  tummy upset from almond milk or level of exercise.  walked maria safeway free baguette.  went to sunny library potter puzzle difficult.  wrapped it up home by 3:45 watched 'young sheldon'.  yay!  

check engine light out.  might be new gasoline fill up monday. 

costco gas

maybe 10 minutes.  busy but not the zoo of last night.  seniors so good.  lunch ok, company excellent.  toki, diane, alex and 2 men.  safeway bread and cheese.  mission library no room for puzzle so i gamed 22,231 points.  borrowed 'thundermans 2'.  home 4:30 i missed 'young sheldon' game so i guessed right.  

tummy upset-hidden trauma

2 egg frozen fried rice b'fast.  tried watching sunny copy 'ove' scratches preclude viewing.  too much skipping.  suicide hanging like grandpa.

basic hula video led me to youtube my 4 year old self and losing everyone who loved me when we moved to cali.  wow heavy in my heart.  the pain in my hips is pain from being ripped from hawaii, hula, family.  listening and watching the hulas i learned as a baby.  the fear pain uncertainty of moving here linked to the sudden cold.  

3 pm warmest part of the day i went gym hot tub.  energized to county lib exchanged scratched for good 'ove' video.  then jetted over to sunny 15 minutes to spare returned and borrowed harry potter 3 d 300 pc puzzle.  walked nob hill for dinner.  drove to costco gas crazy full traffic.  home 7 pm.

new for me.

loop listening to healing

wonderful restful.  watching 'young sheldon' fifth season 2021.  bringing up dad issues. 

tosted asiago foccacia with frozen chicken alfredo for b'fast.  i'm restoring my self.  memories of caring for dad and sickening my body.  sacrificing.  forgoing my health.  

3 pm i went to big lots for free soda found body shaper 2/$12.  decided to walk lucky's looking for free move coca cola.  walked store found one in case and i wanted unsalted chips less $3 rewards.  = $1.74.  still early showered went to sunny pick up movies.  perfect day.  

so good

lucky's saratoga 8 am no free no clearance.  seniors lots of hot water everything warm, gym, locker room, pools steamy for weekend.  lunch good.  went main elevator still broken.  parked in back shade.  picked up acer older model laptop.  playing healing music everywhere.  blessed am i.  

safeway bought 2, count 'em, 2 sushi 2 free water, 2 free beets, pretend crab.  so excellent dinner just what i wanted.

tomorrow i can do anything.  st just, taxes extended 10/15.  sunny.  

puzzle therapy

i started healing my back 2007.  i started out playing on senior puzzle to decompress my back leaning and stretching seated at the table.  gave me focus other than my painful back.  can only think of one thing at a time.  respite from my life.  sisters set on evicting me.  betrayal and more abuse.  feeling stupid for expecting decent treatment.

dropped off bartolo payment sprouts bakery maybe for cody bookmobile.  bought brownie bites gave him flax muffin.  and 10:50 he's here.  he said last week one time change in hours.  very busy.  gerde 11 am i helped her and she wanted to exchange coins for paper.  i joked my tips she agreed.  $11.63.  i gave her $12.  she complains all the time like dad.  i love her as i love dad.  i got her coffee.  went upstairs puzzle gone.  took 300 piece 'library cat' puzzle to main.  donut puzzle trashed again.  dollar tree delivery truck day.  i got home to watch 'young sheldon' enter contest.  i nuked lobster roll and patty.  pretty good.  

beginning of month blues

beautiful day i did my banking.