TODAY IS A DAY OF RELAXATION. 10 YEARS AGO I DIDN'T KNOW HOW I'D LIVED MY LIFE DRIVING MYSELF FORWARD BY HABIT. I DIDN'T OWN MY OWN LIFE. I WAS TAUGHT/HABITUATED TO DO WHAT WAS RIGHT FOR THE FAMILY. I WAS COERCED TO NEVER QUESTION WHETHER IT WAS GOOD FOR ME. I KNEW WHAT I HAD TO DO. EVERYTHING WAS FOR THE FAMILY. I DIDN'T EXIST. I LIVED FOR THE FAMILY. I THINK THAT'S THE BIGGEST LESSON FROM FRESH OFF THE BOAT. THAT WAS IN BELLS ON THEIR TOES TOO. THE SEQUEL TO THE 1940'S ORIGINAL CHEAPER BY THE DOZEN BIOGRAPHY OF THE GILBRETH FAMILY.
EDDIE HUANG HAD TO FIGHT FOR HIS LIFE. AS AN ASIAN AMERICAN A FLUID IDENTITY IS SO ALIEN. EVERY PERSON IS AN IMMIGRANT. EVERY HUMAN BEING HAS A CHANCE TO CREATE THEIR OWN IDENTITY AND LIFE. THAT'S THE AMERICAN DREAM/PROMISE. IT KILLED ERIC. HE TRIED TO BE AND WAS THE PERFECT JAPANESE/AMERICAN SON. HE HAD NO PERSONAL AGENDA. HE DIDN'T EXIST. THAT'S WHAT I'M SO SAD ABOUT. HE NEVER REALLY LIVED HIS OWN LIFE.
WHILE FIGHTING FOR MYSELF MAKES ME STRONGER I'M TIRED.
I WALKED TO 7/11 FOR A LOTTO TICKET $34 MILLION. HEY SOMEBODY HAS TO WIN.
1 PM- I GOT LAST NIGHT'S EMAIL FROM SAVERS. IT WAS ALMOST EMPTY. I ASKED THE CHECKER WHEN THEY ANNOUNCED THE CLOSING, TUESDAY. VERY SHORT NOTICE. TODAY THE LAST DAY. THEY STOPPED RESTOCKING TUESDAY.
I GOT PINK COTTON FABRIC AND SALAD BOWL $2. I STOPPED OFF AT ST. JUSTIN'S WILL BE CLOSED 18-28 SPRING BREAK.
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