I MET ERIC 1992 WHILE WAITING FOR TRAFFIC TO CLEAR. I WAS WORKING IN PALO ALTO AND LOS ALTOS BAR AND GRILL HAD K KIDS. I WAITED AN HOUR TERRIFIED I'D BE CALLED. I WAS AFRAID OF THE MICROPHONE. MY HOUR WAS UP AND I LEFT. NEXT TIME I SAW THEM WAS SARATOGA ART WINE. THEY WERE ONLY TAKING KIDS SIGN UPS. I THOUGHT I HAD COMPLETED MY PART. I WAS WILLING.
THE COURSE IN MIRACLES SAYS THAT'S ALL THAT'S NECESSARY.
ERIC WAS STARTING A NEW CLUB IN WILLOW GLEN A BLOCK FROM WHERE I WAS LIVING. I DECIDED TO TRY THERE. ALWAYS GOING THE EXTRA MILE. I HAD A PANIC ATTACK AND PERSEVERED. FROM THERE I FOLLOWED TO MOUNTAIN VIEW AND SAN JOSE. HE BECAME MY CAR MECHANIC AND WAS A MAGICIAN. BEING JAPANESE I UNDERSTOOD HIS LIFE AND HISTORY. HE WITNESSED HIS FATHER BEING BRUTALLY KILLED BY A DRUNK IN 1998 THE WEEK AFTER ERIC BECAME ENGAGED. HE WAS THE BROTHER I DIDN'T HAVE AND ALWAYS WANTED.
HE DIED LAST YEAR 10 DAYS AFTER HIS 61 BIRTHDAY. I DREAMED OF HIM AND AWOKE SOBBING. IT WAS CLEAR FROM THE DREAM HE DIED THE DAY HIS FATHER WAS KILLED. IN THE DREAM HE DIED IN A TRAFFIC ACCIDENT WHILE ACTUALLY I VISITED HIM IN O'CONNOR 3 X THE WEEK BEFORE HE DIED. I'M STILL MOURNING.
I'M SAD WE HAVEN'T HAD HAPPIER LIVES.
AND NOW I KNOW WHY I BOUGHT THE CAR 6-30. ERIC DIED 6-13 AND LOUISE HAY 8-30. AND I REVISITED AFFIRMATIONS.
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