study in contrasts-moon day-bad bartolo

eating salty multi grain honey ham sprouts sandwich $4.99.  i'm sitting on the patio watching people.  the sky is overcast and cool.  

2 hour 300 piece puzzle.  so satisfying completing.  

my waist hurting left side weakness trembling.  i need tomorrow tub.  

could be the rose bush and kiwi i trimmed and set out garbage and green bins.  felt good to be able to do.

yesterday i rested watching first season 'bewitched' 1964.  before loss of anonymity.  alien did what she knew was done to her.  secrecy phillip zimbardo again.

i have audrey at home by her second son luca dotti.  very good with recipes and every day life.  i wanted salad and stopped at sprouts r/t lucky's.  50 cents more for salad mix w/o funny chemical taste also bakery special cherry pie $1.99.  i could have bought turnovers, 3 types of cherry pie.  sunny specials in the aft.  

bartolo oh that bad boy.  because i cut rose and kiwi he filled both bins after pickup left them full in the driveway.  left wooden ladder in the middle of back yard again.  not my job to correct him.   he's done.

good lunch

i stopped sprouts 8 am too early for bakery specials.  substantial clearance turkey sandwich $3.49.  seniors swam 40 minutes saw jeanie with boot cast on left foot ankle.  then back to sprouts.  toki never mentioned the jalapeno bread so maybe not terrific.  i bought apple turnovers and assorted muffins.  dropped off home 94 degree day.  sunny vale 10:30 ok parking.  ate sprouts sandwich hungry after exercise.  84 degrees on patio.  assembled bingo puzzle 3 hours.  out to car for soft boiled eggs, best parking under tree, i re parked.  i forgot glasses to puzzle.     

bewitched 127 hours complete series.  

happy b'day sis

i haven't talked to them in years or they'll come sniffing around like thieves.  i bless them from afar.  i loaded and retrieved the lucky's freebie.  sort of fruit soda not sweet not anything.  sophia gave 4 sandwiches, i gave the fruit cups to toki who shared with salome.  obnoxious know it all joe sat at our table looking for a slave.  he took my milk, tried telling me eddie's was mine.  he returned my milk then tried to sneak it back.  i took it back again.  tom and alex wouldn't sit with him.  he finally moved to another table.  whew!  dino likes him, doesn't have to do anything for him.  jane helped him at bingo.  he wanted someone to watch his card like the privileged women talkers last week.  treat me like their slave.  jane won twice me too.  i still wonder how many have bingo and don't pay attention.  

planning my week county city closed moon day sunny open.  today tomorrow 95 degrees.  morning swim seniors.

woo hoo! puzzled 2 hours

 i'm pampering myself.  supposed to get to 94 degrees today.  i'm remembering to exercise my left leg while driving my car and my back is popping and crackling.  

saw brian class cancelled

we sat 2 hours we're so the same.  we can change the world.  two gathered to fix the world.  arrogant hindu-christian man interrupted.  oh, well.  he tried telling me what to do be.  

lunch ok.  toki disappointed her other eye surgery cancelled 'til december.  

i am grateful.  i am grateful.  i am grateful.  i am grateful.  i am full of gratitude.  

i puzzled in senior air condition 'til 6:30.  91 degree day was 84 when i got home.

great day!  celebrity wheel at 9 excellent.  i'm saying my good byes.  regular wheel no vanna has covid.  and i'll miss pat.  jeopardy is a farce.  ken is just unpleasant.  

adult-finally figured out

it's been 3 years since i quit smoking.  my body remembers my mother attempting suicide and i started smoking again.  i'd forgotten.  

october dad would get anxious about being laid off during winter rainy season.  he was so mean to mom she took all his sleeping pills.  i was at work.  i got home 4 pm and dad asked if i wanted to go to carrow's for prime rib dinner.  i told him to ask mom if she wanted to go.  that's when he told me she was at valley medical because kaiser had no psych dept.  he called 911 instead of taking her to emergency.  we live 5 minutes away.  i couldn't believe my dad's behavior.  total disconnect with reality.  iasked when my sisters arriving he wondered if he should call them.  he hadn't, he called my auntie, her sister in hawaii 3000 miles away and didn't call my sisters half hour away.  so bizarre.  insane.  i never realized how deeply sick my family was.  my sisters to this day deny reality.  they still insist my mom swallowed an entire bottle of sleeping pills by accident.  

my body has remembered.  post traumatic body memory.  just thinking about it i want a cigarette.  i'll buy more nicotine tabs.  i may need them for the rest of my life.  i refuse to suffer any more. 

ate an apple

i'm getting my enthusiasm back.  stayed in bed watching movies yesterday.  very relaxed.  considered getting bags from car, nah.  i'm feeling more energy.