waited for best spot

while waiting i paid city online didn't get a bill this month.

i ate too many pretzels last night and the hour sans back brace at seniors an hour my tummy upset.  walter effect of complaining and inge.  i must fortify myself.  

i played bingo i wanted assorted cookies and i won them hurray!  i helped gerde load her walker i felt so good 3 pm i drove to csaa per ron and sat half hour took 5 minutes to renew car registration and get sticker.  then still feeling ok i drove to lucky's no freebie coke bought chips $2.50 overcharged gave me cash refund.  collected freebie big lots sunscreen and bought 3 curry.  then citibank i paid bill.  i'm caught up.  

i ate entire tin smoked sardine with tasteless overcooked broccoli from lunch.  then 4 cookies.  chips.  

toki dropped off duncan hines cake mix and food she cooked.

happy thursday to me

next week starts extended hours.  inge figured it's the start of the fiscal year.  

i don't know what happened blog disappeared.  cody bookmobile came.  he's funny.  he insisted he was late when he was exactly on time.  he's usually 10 minutes early so he felt late.  

leftover chicken from lunch 5 x what i was served.  and tasteless.  maybe the kidney beans had the flavor.  

oh, walter.  he's having an infinite pity party.  he lost another rooster as i warned and has done nothing.  he said he wanted hens and now he's looking for sympathy from the wrong person.  he didn't get a harness leash from petco as i suggested, didn't train them to return.  i hope they don't get eaten.  they'll keep the yards bug free.

back to school

i'm looking forward to new hours next week according to newsletter.  pool open more hours.  hope for a better stronger me.  we'll see.  inge says start of new fiscal year.

i'm free

i'm exercising everyday just to stay mobile.   i feel like the white queen in alice running and running to stay in the same place.  aging takes courage.  it's depressing that death is inevitable and the only big event ahead.  oh, well.  i harvested washed drying allergy plant.  collected water bottles empty and full.  plumeria is finally sprouting.  both planted and sticks.  i'm planning potting allergy and plumeria plants.  i've done enough today.  i trimmed back the rose and tossed the spoiled.  i've already been productive.

freaked myself i didn't know what i did with sunday movies from cupertino.  weren't in the house, in car for 2 days.  

oh, i'm loving my freedom.  i may be old and moving towards eternity i can still enjoy the quiet.  i made ramen added lettuce salad seasoned with braggs amino.  delicious.

i'm feeling guilty for feeling guilty.  i'm so well trained in suppressing my feelings.  

dreamed walters jr, sr

mom told me auntie nancy named me when i wasn't frank jr.  i was rejected, neglected, abandoned by my parents at birth.  

dropped bart money reminder to double check clean up water off.  sprouts $21 clearance 9 wasabi almonds, 8 jack fruit, 4 pretzels.  seniors i parked in best shade.

good day or i'm feeling happy because i have tomorrow off.  lunch bad company good.  toki and 5 strangers, took out their table.  the half wrap full of red onions.  puny salad and alex gave me his lettuce.  leftovers i had taste of pork more sour raw onions i cooked at home.  the brown rice overcooked carrots cauliflower i mashed with fake tuna.  ok.  

firmly ensconced

sitting 10 am cupertino library.  i showered stretched @ 24, checked out dollar tree sunnyvale bought sunday paper.  they stopped during covid.  it was so clean and quiet.  it's usually packed.  clerk said unusual too.  i ate corn cob i brought.  i have sardines, etc.  i ate loaded muffin.

i love people watching.  i'm reading my tina turner.  playing quizzes and games.  if i could take nap perfection.  

my neck is so stiff.  new manifestation.  the heat and smog are making my sinuses borderline migraines.  my eyes are crusty blurry.  nam myoho renge kyo.  nam myoho renge kyo.  nam myoho renge kyo.  nam myoho renge kyo.  hey, it worked for tina turner it is working for me.

we're predators our eyes are in front.  we need vistas to rest relax our eyes muscles while reading.  we wouldn't need glasses.  we didn't evolve reading.  it's new behavior.

i'm crying feeling hurt

praying is releasing pain locked in my body manifesting as spiritual and emotional pain.  i'm leaving the past in the past.  

reading tina turner love story.  when you're hurting you don't have time to suffer you have to keep going.  you push your feelings down and get on with life.  you run fast run far.  i'm remembering a bullet hole in the bedroom door after a babysitting alien trip.  i haven't thought of him in years.  i got a letter today from pers regarding an information security breach.  memory triggers are odd.  i still have that queasy feeling thinking about him.

i keep forgetting my sadness has substance.