war pollution

as if it isn't bad enough bully Putin is threatening to make global warming 10 times worse.  what's the point of limiting pollution if spoiled children are allowed to play their real life war games?  his waste of human life is criminal.  the millions he's wasted on war could have made his country paradise for his people and they follow him over the cliff like lemmings plunging to their deaths.  emotions manipulated in the worst way.

Trump is good at that too.  all he offers is anger and 'self righteous' fear.  and some people love him.  makes them feel alive until they're dead.  makes me wonder how terrible their childhoods were to prefer a life of constant hate.  feelings are choices.  

waited for toke

i feel like a week went by yesterday.  still sore and tired.  remembering thinner when my eye hurts.  i computed picked up lunch exercised late waiting.  i was just about to leave when she showed up.  

Carlos has removed the fear of the check engine light=my freedom to move.  mobility.  the third family tradition.  alcoholism, suicide, fear.  mom threatened killing me so many times i grew to prefer death to the family.  at least i wouldn't have to tolerate the crazies.  like alien locking me in the closet i preferred the peace and solitude to the torture.  some people want any attention they can get.  i don't.  love me or leave me alone.  

oh, Trump is an attention addict.  he'll say anything do anything for any attention.  

check engine light

i wrote out Cathy and auntie's Valentine cards.  my hips and legs so sore i'm exhausted from the pain.  i'm moving so slowly.  i want to mail today.  

i went to post office and called Carlos.  he had time.  i asked if he needed anything no.  he cleared the light and i told him he was right when the car is cold everything is loose and i must remember to warm everything before driving every day.  no charge.  

seniors i computed first feeling tired.  2 hours sitting i went showered and stretched.  picked up lunch no calls to sunny vale considering nob hill on the way home.  tired 2 pm home stopping to buy cooked chicken for dinner and 99 cent clearance cake mix with substitution recipe.  went and lay down 2 hours.  body is exhausted i'm taking my time moving slowly.

i'm eating

the only ability we don't lose with age.  i walked safeway after gym 2 clearance ready chestnuts and bamba peanut butter puffs my lunch.  pretty tasty.  

check engine light.  i didn't warm it up.  it's on me.  the engine needs to seal itself before driving.  when it's cold it isn't sealed.  i went gym 2 2 hours.  beautiful day.  left library when annoying men sat down at computers 3 pm.  came home ate cornbread stuffing and soup.  

feeling sad or maybe tired from hot tub.  well tonight 'celebrity wheel' and new 'all creatures'.  i stayed up 'til midnight watching '3 coins in the fountain' last night.  so i started tired.  tonight 10 pm bedtime.

2/5 sat

i spent so much time having fun yesterday fry day.  i did my seniors helped Gerde with her walker and decided to go to main to pick up new movies requested Thursday.  picked up free Bio Steel drink Lucky's.  first paid Citibank.  dropped off 2 bags groceries st just.  on to sunny vale library.  enjoying myself.  helping others and helping myself.  

i got depressed.  i was tired looking for Panera receipt and looking at taxes.  i barely have to pay soc sec but i feel i screwed up.  overly tired.  i still can't tell.

woke 2:30 am hurting back of thighs coccyx pelvis took willow and kava.  watched mr rogers dozed.  even stretching not helping pain relief.  stomach hurting ate beef jerky.  got up 8 am hungry planning to stay home day of rest.  wore brace cooked frozen broccoli added eggs.  settled stomach a little.  taking willow helps a lot.  took supplements organized next weeks.  i can cook potatoes add can chicken and succotash.  i love my microwave.  

Cathy called 6:30 to ask for stickers to i d her walker.  what!!  i asked her if she had return address stickers to use and add her phone number.  she was thrilled.  i don't know.  seems obvious to me.  we talked 22 minutes.

i'm having fun

forgot to renew chrome

i maxed out my renewals and forgot limited hours library.  and i wanted to finish Inge's recycle.  when i got there i asked if she'd eaten no.  put senior lunch in trunk.  did she like Panera?  yes.  i had to clear the front seat.  filled back seat and trunk.  her car in the shop for sensor light.  she bought her Mercedes used.  has warranty.

we dined steak melted swiss and for dessert she ordered artichoke i wanted bacon souffle.  half a sandwich filled us up we took the rest home.  at least i know she'll eat.  she's so sad.  4 year honeymoon.  retired love is the best like 2 kids no responsibilities.  she saw him everyday.  loaded 4 bags bottles.

recycled and tipped man $4 helped me 3 days then went to panda for orange chicken broccoli beef and my first red envelope coupons.  sv library checked sale.  home for feast.  

wed-groundhog day 2/2-woke 4:30 left arm neck hurting.  after hour half stretching i'm better than ok considering all i did yesterday.  b'fast bacon souffle.  8 am hungry had some panda.  after picking up lunch Gerde arrived i waited unloaded her walker and loaded when she returned.  i did banking.  chase then credit union.    remembered library overdue chrome but couldn't access my main account from seniors.  i went to st just picked up pantry home to drop off.  i had to wait 'til 3 to go to main late hours.  Ben helped me renew chrome.  Ben called Cody so i could say hi.  i decided to come home and go to sunny vale tomorrow.