THIS WEEK RAIN IS FORECAST AND THE DEPRESSION CONTINUES.
AT LEAST I'M CLEAR THAT IT'S A FLASHBACK TO DAD'S SERIAL CRISES.
EVERY EPISODE I HOPED WAS THE TURNING POINT WHERE HE'D LEARN TO DO BETTER AND BE BETTER BUT I WAS SO DEEPLY IN DENIAL I COULDN'T SEE I WAS IN DENIAL.
IS IT POSSIBLE TO KNOW I'M IN DENIAL? DOES DENIAL PRECLUDE KNOWING?
SO HE DRAGGED ME DOWN WITH HIM. WHAT ELSE COULD I DO, ABANDON HIM LIKE MY SISTERS? I NEVER WANT TO BE LIKE THEM. I KNOW THEIR FATES. I WANT HAPPINESS. HEAVEN IS POSSIBLE. I'VE LIVED IN HELL.
HE ABANDONED MOM. SHE NEVER RECOVERED.
I'M RECOVERING.
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