I'M NOT ELECTRICAL-SUNDAY

I DON'T WANT AN ELECTRIC CAR, I FLUNKED ELECTRICITY IN COLLEGE, MY UTILITIES THIS MONTH JUMPED FROM $120 TO $450.  USUALLY c.200 UNITS TO EXACTLY 3000.  I DON'T KNOW HOW.  EXACTLY 3000.  IT COULD BE A COMBINATION OF THE NEW SMART METER GLITCH OR I LEFT THE PUCK OVEN ON.  I NOW UNPLUG IT.

ASHLEY-CITY SENT RE-READ WITHIN AN HOUR,  EXACTLY 2650 T00 MUCH.

I TEST DROVE A 2008 YESTERDAY THAT FELT LIKE A TANK.  I'M DOING THE BEST I KNOW AND IT DOESN'T FEEL ENOUGH.

I FELT SO SAD THIS MORNING.  MEMORIES.  AND DEPRESSING DVDS.

AT LEAST WHEN I GOT HOME FROM G2, CUPERTINO LIBRARY OPENS 10 AM 7 DAYS A WEEK (I FOUND A NICKEL AND PEN), TRINETHA MARKET GRAND OPENING ON WEBSITE DIDN'T SPECIFY 2016, LUCKY'S 5X BONUS WEEKEND; ROGER RABBIT WAS ON TV.  I ALWAYS LAUGH.

I KILL GIANTS IS ABOUT TRYING TO BEAT DEATH, MOTHER DYING LIKE ME.  A LOT OF THE KID'S DVDS ARE DEPRESSING.  THIS ONE TALKS ABOUT FINDING JOY BUT HASN'T ANY.

FINALLY

I DID IT AGAIN, MY SELF-SABOTAGE OF  SCARING MYSELF BY MISPLACING AND THINKING I'VE LOST MY PURSE, OR PHONE OR WHATEVER.  I GOT IT FROM MOM.  SHE WAS ALWAYS AMBUSHING ME, CAUSING ME PAIN.  DAD TOO TO A LESSER DEGREE, HITTING ME FROM BEHIND IN THE HEAD WITH A ROLLED UP NEWSPAPER.  MOM WAS HANDS ON.  HITTING OR PINCHING WHILE YELLING. 

I WAS ACCUSTOMED TO A CERTAIN LEVEL OF  PAIN.  I LEARNED TO ANTICIPATE THEM AND TOLERATE THEM AND NOW I CREATE IT FOR MYSELF TO NOT MISS THEM. 

4 AM

I DECIDED TO SHOWER AT ARQUES AND DID MY WALKING B4 PT.  HAD LUNCH CAME HOME. 

NOW I'M LOOKING AT CARS. 

ANOTHER 2 AM

YESTERDAY I RAN AROUND COLLECTING FREEBIES 3 STORES, EXERCISING, ST J LUNCH, LIBRARY.  I WAS EXHAUSTED BY 7;30 AND WENT TO BED.  I WAS ASLEEP BY 8.  SO I AWOKE VERY EARLY SORE AND TIRED. 

I CAME HOME BEFORE 1 TODAY.  I CHARGED MY PHONE AND READ THE PAPER.

THIS CHROME ONLY HOLDS A CHARGE FOR 5 HOURS. 

AWAKE SINCE 2

I WAS EXHAUSTED AND FELL ASLEEP AT 9.  HEALING TAKES A LOT OF ENERGY.  I ATE RICE, SPINACH, MASALA LENTILS. 

I DOZED WATCHING BASMATI BLUES.  NOT BAD FOR A MUSICAL ABOUT ETHICAL RICE.  [THE SPACE BAR SOMETIMES DOESN'T WORK ON THIS CHROME]  I STARTED TO FALL ASLEEP AT 6 AND JOLTED AWAKE TO GAS MY CAR.  I OPENED THE CLEANER IN READINESS AND FORGET TO ADD IT UNTIL I GOT HOME.  IT HAS IMPROVED THE MILEAGE.  IT WAS THE PERFECT TIME TO GO.  TYGJ.

IT'S LOVELY COOL SO I CONSIDERED BUYING THE CAR, NOT YET.

IT WON'T PUBLISH.  IT'S STILL ONLINE SO IT MUST BE THE PROGRAM.  SOMETIMES WHEN IT GETS STUCK I FIND 4 OR 5 DRAFTS.

SONGS

I HAVE COUNTING MY BLESSINGS PLAYING IN MY HEAD.  I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO SLEEP.  IT ISN'T PERRY COMO SINGING.  I'M READY TO KARAOKE  AGAIN.

THE PHYS-THERAPY IS WORKING.  I'M FEELING BETTER, STRONGER.

THOUGHTS

I HAVE SO MUCH GOING ON I DON'T KNOW.  I'M LOOKING FOR A CAR, A NEW DENTIST , I'M STARTING PHYSICAL THERAPY, NEW PHONE TO LEARN. SO MUCH TO DO.

I'LL STEP BACK FOR A BETTER PERSPECTIVE.

TODAY'S DAILY WORD=HEALING.  I'LL MEDITATE ON THAT.