SO FAR H20 TIGHT

I'VE BEEN TOSSING AND TURNING PLANNING WHAT I WANT TO SEE IN MY LIFE.  NEXT WEEK CAR SALE-ENTERPRISE.  THNX GIVING WKND. 

THE HOUSE AND YARD.

LAMENTING ERIC

I AWOKE MISSING ERIC AND THE LIFE HE DESERVED THAT ROSE TOOK AWAY.  WELL ROSE AND FRANK.

I WISHED ERIC SUCH A HAPPY KARAOKE LIFE.  HE WORKED HARD TAKING CARE OF HIS GRANDAD AND ROSE NEVER APPRECIATED HOW MUCH ERIC DID FOR HER.  HE GAVE UP HIS LIFE FOR HER.

J-FAMILIES RUIN A GOOD THING BY INSISTING ON DEFORMING THEIR YOUNG WITH J-VALUES. 

I SOMEHOW HIT F12 AND THERE'S A WIERD DOM EXPLORER PAGE AT THE BOTTOM.

WELL, A MESSAGE FROM ERIC TO GET ON WITH MY LIFE.

SCOTT-SKYLITE SHOWED UP AND FROM THE OUTSIDE IT "LOOKS" FABULOUS.  I'LL FIND OUT WHEN IT RAINS.

last night

I SUDDENLY BECAME SAD THAT MY FAMILY STOLE FROM ME. 

THEY TRIED TO STEAL MY LIFE.  I FEEL SAD KNOWING THE EVIL SIS' ARE WAITING FOR ME TO DIE.

I FEEL SAD THEIR KIDS KNOW THEY ARE THIEVES AND ARE ALSO GUILTY. 

SO I CRIED. 

AWAKE AT 3

IT GIVES ME TIME TO STRETCH/ERCISE AND WATCHING THE CHAIR TAI CHI PUT ME BACK TO SLEEP. 

SLEEPING @ 8-8:30 FROM EXHAUSTION IS OK.  I FEEL WIMPY AND THAT'S OK TOO.  I'M ADAPTING.

THIS AM I WANTED TO FLUFF AND FOLD, RECYCLE.  I CAN GO AFTER SRS IF I WANT TO. 

THIS FREEDOM WAS LONG IN COMING.  TYGJ.

SORE ALL OVER

I'M HURTING ALL OVER SO I CAN'T TELL IF I'M IMPROVING OR NOT. 

I'M LEARNING TO ENJOY THE MOMENT.  MOMENTS AS COMFORTABLY AS POSSIBLE. 

I'VE SPENT MOST OF MY LIFE WORRYING OVER LIFE'S IMPERFECTIONS 'CAUSE THAT'S WHAT I WAS TAUGHT BY EXAMPLE AND COERCION. 

I'M TEACHING MYSELF TO ENJOY WHAT IS AND THE EFFORT TO REPROGRAM IS TREMENDOUS.  SO MUCH ENERGY TO ERASE AND CREATE NEW NEURONS. 

MY NECK/SHOULDERS ARE SO SORE.  DEALING WITH THE PAIN TAKES A LOT OF ENERGY TOO AND THEN LIVING THE DAY TO DAY.

I'M TAKING A LOT OF DOWN TIME.  I FEEL LIKE A WIMP BUT I HAVE TO CARE FOR MYSELF.

I WENT G2, LUCKYS, HM, MLIB, ST. J LUNCH.

NO WONDER I'M FEELING TIRED. 

GLORIOUS SUNNY PERFECTION

I'VE BEEN RUMINATING GENTLY.  I WENT TO WMART, ZERO, FOR WIPER BLADES.  FOOD ONLY.  SO I'LL LOOK AT TARGET.  I COULD ALWAYS HAVE THEM DELIVERED.

I WANT A NEW BATTERY FOR MY PHONE.  IT'S TIME. 

I STARTED CLEARING MY CAR.  I HAD A DREAM A WAS SPYING LIKE SHE DOES.  TWO WEEKS BACK I CAME HOME AND THE FRONT DOOR LOCK BECAME STICKY.  I'VE NOTICED BEFORE SOME TAMPERING WITH THE FRONT DOOR.  SOME MORNINGS THE FRONT DOOR HASN'T BEEN COMPLETELY CLOSED.  MAKES ME FEEL SAD. 

I STARTED REVIEWING THE PARR PAPERS AND SHE EMBEZZLED $120,000 FOR THEIR KIDS.  OH, WELL.  I WONDER IF SHE GAVE THEM ANY MONEY OR IT'S JUST WHAT SHE WANTS TO BELIEVE. 

NEW GIRL

YES I AM. 

T WANTED ME TO SEE THE CAR-GREG'S NEIGHBOR CURTIS-SO I MET HIM AT 2:30.  IN FACT HE GOT THERE WHEN I DID.  I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE THE HOUSE WITHOUT THE JEEP. 

SO I LOOKED AT IT.  THEY WANT TO MAKE IT SOOOOO COMPLICATED.  ALL HE NEEDS IS THE DEATH CERTIFICATE TO THE DMV TO CHANGE TITLE. 

OH.  I HAVE TO GO DMV TO GET ONE FOR MINE.