CRAZY OLD LADY

I GET TO BE MYSELF FOR THE FIRST TIME.  AGE HAS CLOAKED ME IN THE ARMOR OF AGE.  I CAN GET AWAY WITH BEING MYSELF AND STANDING UP FOR MYSELF. 

I'VE NEVER FELT FREE TO BE ME!!!

MAYBE I AM CRAZY, IT JUST FEELS RIGHT.

SUNDAY AFTER THE GYM I PARKED AT LUCKY'S AND A MAN IN A SUV HEADED FOR THE SAME SPOT MOTIONED FOR ME TO MOVE, GESTURING AT ALL THE EMPTY SPOTS AROUND.  I ADMIT I GOT IRRITATED AND GESTURED BACK TO HIM ALL THE EMPTY SPOTS HE COULD PARK IN.  HE THEN GESTURED I WAS CRAZY. 

I HAD ALREADY SET THE PARKING BRAKE AND TURNED OFF THE CAR.  SO WHO WAS CRAZY.  AND DOES A SMART PERSON GESTURE ANY THING AT A CRAZY PERSON.

THE TERRIBLE TWO'S

DAD AND ALL LIKE HIM DISRESPECT ME WHEN THEY REVERT TO TWO YEAR OLD BEHAVIOR AND AS THEY BE THEY HAVE.

WITH TWO YEAR OLD BEHAVIOR COMES TWO YEAR OLD CONSEQUENCES.  ARE THEY READY FOR THAT.

SO MANY SENIORS HAVE A HORRIBLE END OF LIFE BECAUSE THEY CHOOSE TO BELIEVE THEY ARE OUTSIDE THE RULES THAT EVERYONE HAS TO FOLLOW. 

IT'S GOOD I LIKE RULES.  I FIND RULES COMFORTING.  I FEEL SECURE FOLLOWING RULES.  I KNOW THE PROBABLE OUTCOME.

HEALING-DW MONDAY 12/12

THE FIRST DAY OF SRS SPA CLOSED.  I'VE BEEN TO ST J, LUCKY'S FOR MY FREE COFFEE, AND RETURNED THE SJ DVDS.  I'M AT THE ROSE GARDEN LIBRARY.

AND I'M THINKING OF 24 HOUR FITNESS.  AND I'M OFF.

I STILL HAVE MY FREE CHILI'S DESSERT TO PICK UP.

STAYING HUMBLE

TODAY I GOT TO SRS AND LOCKED MY PURSE IN THE CAR WITH ALL MY KEYS.

THE GOOD PART WAS CSAA WASN'T BUSY AT 7:26 SO I WAS BACK INSIDE BY 8.

I WAS TOO EXCITED TO PUZZLE SO I TUBBED. 

THIS SITE IS DOING STRANGE THINGS TODAY.  I'M GOING TO PAY CITI.

SAYING NO

SAYING NO OR DECLINING IS SAYING YEAS TO OTHER THINGS.

BUT WHO KNOWS

I WONDER IF I'LL EVER GET TO SEE THE OVERVIEW OF MY LIFE LIKE I CAN CHART BLOGS.

OF COURSE BLOGGER DOES IT FOR ME.

I DROVE OFF THIS AM SANS BELT.  RETURNED AND PUT IT ON.  THEN TO SRS WHERE THE SPA IS CLOSED SO ON TO CAMPBELL?

I DON'T HAVE TO SO MAYBE I WON'T.  AT LEAST I'M OUT OF THE HOUSE.  MAYBE I'LL GO TO SV SPA NEW.

FEELING VERY ADULT

FINALLY, I FEEL MATURE.  I'M GOING INTO THE HOLIDAYS WITH A NEW ATTITUDE.  I HAVE OPTIONS.  I CAN GO TO FIRST PRESBY SC 11:30-2:30, ST CLARE 12-3, FIRST PRESBY SV 4-6.  ANY AND ALL. 

I HAVE THE GYM FOR THERAPY.  I HAVE A RICH AND FULL LIFE. 

DONALD TRUMP IS FORCED TO GROW UP AND GROW OUT OF BULLYING.  MAYBE IT WILL BE TRUE FOR ALL BULLIES.

MY BACK NOT BEING BETTER HAS A PURPOSE.  I FIND OUT THE REALITY OF MY RELATIONSHIPS.