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I WOKE TO MY ANGEL TEAM WRAPPING UP ERIC/CAR HEALING AND DISCUSSING AILEEN.  I CAN FREE MYSELF FROM ANY AND EVERY CONCERN OF MY SISTERS.  IT'S HANDLED.

LETTING GO IS HARD WHEN I'VE BEEN BLAMED MY WHOLE LIFE.  SO MUCH OF MY SURVIVAL IS BASED ON KEEPING THINGS RUNNING.  CONSTANTLY RUNNING.  FAMILY MADE ME RESPONSIBLE FOR EVERYTHING.  ESPECIALLY MOM.  WATCHING 'I REMEMBER MAMA' IS SO ALIEN.  A MOTHER WHO WANTS THE BEST SHE CAN PROVIDE FOR HER KIDS AND WANTING THEIR HAPPINESS.  I THINK THAT'S WHERE MY GENERAL CONFUSION COMES FROM.  THE WORLD DEFINITION AND MY ACTUAL EXPERIENCE.

I WATCHED MY GAME SHOWS AND JAMIE NOT TOO INTERESTING.  GOOD REST.  LAST NIGHT WATCHING MY CHANNEL 5 COMEDIES I GOT BORED AND CUT OFF 4 INCHES OF HAIR. 

9;53 SENIORS LUNCH LINE.  I LOADED THE LAUNDRY 9 A M AND DIDN'T WANT TO RUSH SO I WENT TO TARGET AND WALKED THE STORE.  MY HIPS ARE SO SORE IN NEW AREAS.  GOOD WARM UP.  EYELET AND DENIM BIG.  I'M FASHIONABLE AGAIN.

I'M STILL GETTING USED TO DOING CHORES IN STAGES.  THE FAMILY PROGRAM OF CONSTANTLY PUSHING ME TO DO FOR THEM IS DEEPLY INGRAINED.  I'M OK.  NOT TOO MUCH STRESS.  STILL UNCOMFORTABLE.

3 PHONE CALLS ARE STRESSING ME OUT.  MY UNREASONABLE FEAR OF FAMILY CALLING WITH SOME NEW DISASTER.  2 CAREMORE, 1 NO ID.  AND I DON'T WANT TO TURN IT OFF.