twenty five years ago-Hark

I woke 5:46 and turned on the TV being bed ridden since mom's death.  (I desperately tried to pull her from the bath tub and ruined my back.  took 3 firemen to get her out.)  for the first time I was glad she didn't have to see the chaos and destruction.  

I can't watch those enjoying the attention.  

lunch OK Fred, Toki, happy Walter.  2 extra meals.  Toki got another jury duty notice.  Walter said his last was received after expiration and never bothered him again.  we may handle it Monday on senior computer.  oh, I could go over.   

Fred's b'day Friday 18th then 2 weeks vacation.  

I'm comfortably in my original spot.  bottom copy room nickel upper occupied.  

Hark I can listen just for me and still fulfill improving the planet containing me.  

most excellent warm morning-Costco $5.50/gal Sunny dime more-no heaven for u

the chrome went down to 46% I plugged it in crooked.  people use devices to avoid living.  I love improving my life.

lunch with Walter OK.  Sunshine and Ruben gave me desserts.  I'm eating allergy leaves and vitamin c until the fluffy plant goes away.  Walter gave me new box trader joe choc chip cookies.

I feel like I'm still clearing my lungs from ex smoking.  

old white female bookstore volunteer complained my recording started while I was browsing I shut it off.  I commented on white folks in the library talking at the top of their lungs.  she said I think so.  yes I know so.  she'd rather serve in hell than allow anyone else heaven.

doing the best I can

Sunnyvale library open.  considered and discounted sewing lab.  I don't feel like working.  

24 at 9 am #1 parking spot.  maybe it's the time walking not the distance.  I love the unlimited hot water.

enough time for B King.  compared to Jack Box $1.50 for 2 med fries.  

I brought lemon pepper tuna just in case.  

people litter frustrated.  they're trying to express their hurt trying to project the hurt.  took 4 minutes for signal to left turn.  

Sunny water weird.  I used back fountain.  

11 am city is 86 o and Sunny 82.

5:40 finished 750 sewing 7 cats puzzle.  

allergy plant and vitamin C-PAID CITIBANK

I'm feeling much better.  the 11 hour Louise states I'm positive.  I was born positive and they hated me for my positive attitude.  

24 hour unlimited hot water is delightful.  3 days sans brace.  

I decided to pay gasoline.  I'll fill up tomorrow maybe.  still $5.29/gal.  Banh mi OK not as good.  regular bread no cilantro.  I enjoyed cucumber salad.  Walter got one also.  coleslaw eh.  dinner is covered.

I drove around to Toki's car and loaded all the fruit since there is no seniors this week.  

The central elevator is broken so Martha security asked permission to take me on staff elevator.  she looks like she lost at least 10-15 lbs.  

I bought Beatles REVOLVER $2.  

wheel --fuji apple

summer cold-Toki Arare

aaugh!!  took a 24 hr antihistamine not very good.  I'm OK.  I have vit C, allergy plant Tylophora indica.  resting, watching Love Boat.  sneezing.  sore nose.  

Toki left me Arare and my fruit box.  I caught an allergy cold.  the fuzzy plants blowing around.  I went out to pick up fruit and my sinuses are blocked.  eating allergy leaves really help.  

wheel-wearing-beige wool coat.  bonus puzzle page messed up.  

feeling the past-healing the past-I'm free!

preparing for the future.  senior center closed next week I'm free!

1 egg avocado omelet w/hi bread slice.  I set the bread aside and lost track of it.  I got more bread and recreated my steps.  and found it.  

I ate candy yesterday and I'm stuffy.  post nasal drip.  bag of chips.  

I'm watching Biography- Cat Stevens, Dolly Parton.  

I made mac & cheese, more comfort food.  

funny how the mind forgets and the body remembers dad-Melvin chips

it's been 27 years.  maybe by 30 the body adjusts.  my body is reliving dad's miserable death because of my sisters.  they tortured dad, mom and me the last month of his life.  he was in excruciating pain keeping mom and me in agony with his crying and pleading.  

listening to 432 Hz Alpha waves.  quite nice.  you tube plays whatever.  it's working.

3 pm Melvin brought me 2 bags of low salt chips.  MIRACLE.  he went to seniors gym this morning missed me.  so I told him about dad's death day. 

I'm no longer alone.