Happy Halloween World

I pondered gas fill up.  I know it will go up after the election Tuesday.  $5.40/gal when the web says .35.   

seniors tub great 9:30.  St Justin just Sandy spare lunch no water or weekend.  

an hour 12-1 for a 200 piece planets satellites puzzle 10 X 20.  

Angelique then Wermaryl TransAmerica Life-PAID CITY

36 minutes 800-851-9777.  ext: 4820982.  getting through the robot is tough.  I'm getting paperwork 5-10 business days re surrender value and taxes.  

I don't enjoy talking.  I am loving my unicorns glasses case I'm using for my phone.  4 rhinestones shiny pink.  lavender lining.

Walter got me leftover pasta meatballs.  Fred was back with flashlight made Walter happy and mini lettuce salad.  I remembered Toki's oranges.  lots of cookies for Halloween.  Florence gave me cards and handkerchiefs.

so I went to college Safeway for 3/$5 Friday beef spring rolls GONE $60 cash over pint of pistachio ice cream 2/$5.  jetted to home CVS bought multi 2/1 shelves bare.  Safeway none I bought 5 cans Progresso soup for 2 and $60 cash over.  

I misplaced my medicare card.  I knew I put it somewhere safe when I added my CDL to my wallet.  an hour I looked all through the front of my car and couldn't find it.  it was in my sharks backpack in the house.  I knew it was laughing at me.  

pistachio delicious.  

Linda nurse envies me

I think not.  be careful what you wish for.  she wants my life she has to work for it.  I was meditating in the tub on how my mom and dad taught me arguing with the stupid and/or insane is dangerous.  

Walter was in a snit.  took an entire pain pill and thought he's all that and a bag of chips.  his "poor me everyone else is to blame" will keep him stuck.  no matter how many times I explain that attitude is powerless he insists on whining.  he took the pain pill to make himself worse.  I can't go there.  he insists on acting to cause pain looking for sympathy.  I can't sympathize with him beating himself.  

I tried to share my day he said he wasn't interested OK get away from me.  I'm not interested.  

I'm capitalizing on rest and relaxation.  

8 pm trying to shop medicare.gov no specific details very frustrating.  I can't figure out how to click the site.  glad I signed up for an appointment with hicap.  

here I am again

I misplaced the life insurance bill again.  standard that I must change.  I'm still depressed.  

my left top foot has a blister.  my right heel hurts.  Sketchers.  

lunch w/Toki, Walter, Gloria's friend Maria.  grilled chicken must be commercially pre cooked.  salty.  I prefer plain cinnamon sweet potatoes.  no sugar.   

most excellent Savers 4 pm purple tag 2 k stud earrings $7 gold plated 925 silver, 4 new wrapped movies 2 Esmonde-White Aging Backwards, the Great Rupert 1950, Bill Murray Quick Change 1990.

Grocery Outlet Dolly Parton chick fried steak, good green beans, mash dinner.  

I forgot Target $20.43-Diane 1st Presby

I called customer service robot transferred me to Alliance One Eliuska Miller in India.  noisy background probably phone center.  EH.   

Target 800-659-2396 Alliance 866-395-7475.  I was in tub 2 hours and remembered thinking it was Nov 1 overdue $1.   

Diane 1st Presby returned my RSVP to Thanksgiving Dinner 11:45-2.  

Savers senior day white nightie $2.09, Braun wand blender $7.69, pineapple 2 X shirt $3.49+ tax=$14.56.  Grocery Outlet bacon fried rice Yippee $5.99, steak cheddar sandwich $2.49= $8.48.  

park anywhere day

people are very noisy must be north wind.  coming up to DST Nov. 1.  

I soaked and stretched b4 and after lunch Toki, little Gloria, Fred w/flu, Walter got me extra meal and I got twice the portion of tiny lunch.  

I started taking magnesium in the morning and I feel happier.  America is depleted due to agribusiness.  so the 8 years bed ridden no D3 and I'm healing.  

Me and Louise living the teen age years

I'm relaxing.  it's so hard with PTSD.  since my 4 year old self was disappointed coming from love and warmth to unfathomable cold persecution.  we landed at SF airport at night on the beautiful fairy lights of the runway to the beginning of my cold nightmare of a childhood.  OMG.

the fear and confusion is leaving releasing memories.  rising like steam.  I'm breathing through it.  I've learned the tools to build a new life.  I'm calming myself using breath work to survive and thrive.  

my gut is physically vibrating.  I'm allowing healing.