I changed my clocks. I thought about laundry and decided to rest. the smoked corned beef, potato, soda bread was so delicious. I retrieved the butter from the car.
ooh, bananas. calming food. 3 in car.
I'm feeling so much inner conflict turmoil. this is what addicts cover up just prolonging the pain.
1) I am willing to change my thinking.
2) changing my thoughts changes my chemistry.
3) my chemistry forms my feelings.
4) my feelings=emotions =energy in motion constructs my experience.
I'm resting for St Justin's St Patrick dinner courtesy of Lita Cairel. I don't know if I like it. I feel inner resistance. I don't know. doesn't feel authentic. not my resistance. just stored in my gut.
I'm practicing attentiveness.
I feel resentful of the years I spent attending to a family that never appreciated me. this is all coming out of my tissues. I can feel it in my gut.
I've been truly blessed. Lita shared her beautiful, caring and supportive family with me. they included me in everything, made me feel so welcome. my family in Hawaii is here. the family my parents denied me by moving here.
the battery had to run down to shut off. only took me half hour to restore pages. I still got stressed and blamed myself.
lovely days. library coughing man probably making everyone sick.
Mirreck gave me a dozen grapefruit from his tree. I'm feeling guilty. bad family induced habit. delicious after left over lunch for dinner.
seniors 8 am, lunch, Fred and Walter, 4 extra pcs fish. woo hoo! I rested at central playing in the copy room listening to healing puzzling.
I forgot to fill up the gas this morning, by afternoon already up .25/gal. last night's news warned of rising prices due to war.
I soaked, swam, puzzled, then lunch Fred, Toki, Walter, Salome. I still had yesterday's lunch in the car I forgot. I walked Savers looking at everything deciding on 2 NEW backpacks $5+$4. I decided I wanted to drive calmly so I drove back roads. calm restful, relaxing.
lovely warm 65 degree day I unloaded the trunk and lunches.
I release all forms of sabotage.
seniors ok I walked Savers 30% off. Grocery Outlet lasagna $5 and coconut pineapple $.99.
2 bags Home Depot delivered. 2 pm I put it in the garage. I used 3 plastic tubs and loaded half a bag, 20 lbs. in softener.
I checked Raley's ad and picked up dinner and b'fast, 4 cans of almonds $4.71 ea 7 oz, grapefruit mix $1.50, salad, cottage cheese, coconut electrolyte drink.
Heaven.
