bob hearts abishola

no trace at the libraries.  first bi racial main couple on TV sit com.  

I added buffalo chicken to beans rice plus lunch corn still very very very spicy.  added water helped a little.  

it sprinkled.  

9:30 I decided not to think, just do, so I dressed and picked up lunch at St Justin.  Sunshine took Ruben's extras like a giant baby T-rex bird begging.  he did not look comfortable and she didn't care.  Bonnie pretended we were friends to cut in line apologizing but not going back.  

library I ate ham cheese, Cheetos, apple pouch.  I read 2 People mags, and am reading P G Wodehouse online.  and Marla Gibbs.  HEAVEN.

So blessed.

staying positive

not raised with it, generating takes priming the pump every day.  difficult and exhausting.  Louise helps.

if it wasn't for Fred, Toki and Walter I wouldn't bother with seniors.  the food is mediocre,  most people there are small minded.  workers have huge egos.  more for city employees than seniors.  

I love reading online.  

only 6 months to Xmas

I'm feeling the helplessness and hopelessness of 1998.  I couldn't understand the horror of Eric and me stuck caring for my own family.

I couldn't do anything but pray and feel fear for us.  I didn't have time to feel.  I had too much to do to survive moment to moment.  I had to work to pay my bills and drive dad back and forth to the doctors appointments and emergency.  I barely survived and those feelings are back.  PTSD.  

so I'm going through the motions again feeling I'm barely surviving.  my friends are my reward and I have a legal team.  

lunch was lovely w/Gloria, Fred, Toki, Walter.  Walter got me extra goulash w/egg noodles the best part.  I completed a 300 piece puzzle after lunch.  feeling panicked running away I biked.  I hung out 'til 3 and came home.

I love doing what I want after a lifetime of work, doing what I had to do.  I'm reading the original Gentlemen Prefer Blondes by Anita Loos 1925 on Gutenberg,org.  doing my favorite thing when I want, always.  

I returned Danielle's call 9:30 am

after soak and stretch.  I always feel better after.  my homemade trail mix is so good.  I ate half a pound of lunch fish but I'm hungry.  I gave potatoes and veg to the crows.  

I'm committed to staying on top of things.  I've been so depressed, feeling unloved since the collision.  

I washed a filthy plastic 3.4 qt. OXO vacuum canister I found in the parking lot.  the cafeteria washroom has hot water and antibacterial soap.  

I went to Mission then Central library still didn't have double side printing.  I managed to figure out car registration and license copy myself I needed help on multiple but still didn't get the result I wanted.   oh, well.  I puzzled 'til close.  ouch my back.  

home 7:10

time is finally moving

Francine chose the funny cat puzzle again.

we got the July menu.  I checked Sunny is closed Th-Fri July 2-3.  oh, well.  

I decided to pick up my hot spot and found a new $15 tankini and lemon almonds $3.49 at Ross' and lemon cake $5.99 at Sprouts with samples.  home 6 pm.  I ate some lunch fish considering CVS.  coupons expiring today.  not now my feet are sore walked ALL over.  July 1 OTC allowance.

I ate too much lemon cake.  oh, I remembered corn bean salad best snack.  tankini so comfortable.  

Danielle called no mail yet.  should have arrived.  I mailed Wednesday.  4 days.   

all green lights 5 minutes-24 hour hot spot

I forgot to eat.  took my supplements and felt full.  I always have granola bars.  sweeter than I prefer.  I'm resting at the puzzle table.  my stomach aches.  

wearing a brace helps.  and eating lunch.  they didn't drain noodles and it turned into soup.  I gave Toki trunk fruit.  I released bread and old noodles to crows.  Ruben gave me the last piece of Judy/Bonnie Lucky's cake.  

I just realized I am Igor.  old age hump back.  

I love, love, love goofing off.  

3 pm lemon mousse cake and turkey tetrazzini soup.  I'm so relaxed.  reminds me of falling asleep at the library and the guard waking me.  years ago.  now people eat and sleep anywhere.  and talking.  

I'm wearing navy shorts and pink spandex.  pool maybe 4?  

I'm resting.

self care @ 24 hour-OMG HEAVEN!!- -21/65

 huh, I can come here twice if I want.  miss Vicky Jesus sister said she has one pass w/Kaiser.  Toki could get it.  

ooh, Cup lib 9 am using city guest.  the auto return not online.  I have shade parking, listening to Louise.  HEAVEN!  auto return turned on.

Asian man just gave me new 17.6 oz raw Manuka honey APR 2030 no refrigerate.  

and now to read Marla Gibbs.  more Heaven.  the man who parked next to me is the super gym that trashed the newspaper not sharing.  I didn't know he was homeless.