water is soothing. soaks away my cares. an hour.
processing feelings uses a lot of energy. everything is created by emotions.
Fred and Walter at lunch. I ordered garden chicken salad and got bean stew.
tired I came home at 2:30 napped 5-6:30 so I'm watching wheel and jeopardy after the playoffs.
I'm taking my own advice and processing Eric's death on the 13th.
his garage burned down Sunday night 8:45 pm May 15, 2016 stage 4 colon cancer. first stomach and died of lung cancer June 2017.
my sad story.
watching Jurassic is different. and Ruben gave me his ham cheese sandwiches.
biking @ seniors I realized people watch action movies as a substitute for living. I started watching Jurassic 4. the emotions are cathartic. feels like I'm doing something. workaholics use activity to suppress emotion. Walter.
I forgot the Wheel yesterday so I did it first thing.
I want an unlimited world of peace, plenty, and healing. anyone can have a personal heaven unique to themselves.
the computer room is perfectly cool and empty. I'm fine tuning my life while I wait for the copy of my phone records. new book Atomic Habits.
I printed the 2003 denied appeal of the man convicted in 1999 of murder of Frank Togami Thursday March 12, 1998. and now I understand the energy with Karen Kuek. Eric went through hell before dying 6/13/2017.
I'm just sitting with my feelings. fire destroyed shop May 15, 2016. I was busy surviving my sisters' harassment and threats of physical violence.
Louise Hay. someone set out 300 piece harvest puzzle I finished. I put away the 500 piece Dan Craig castle puzzle into plastic bags keeping the edge separate.
Mallory had peanuts from Smart & Final I got 2 ea honey roasted for Toki and cashews for Fred. I got 2 bowls noodles from lunch. talking to Candice maybe Jack Box burgers for dinner exp 8th. Anne hasn't been at seniors for months, showed up I was thinking of her. Candice helped her fill out forms.
I love my rhythm of life. I got burgers and checked internet.
I finished one tough puzzle. 500 oddly shaped. beautiful. Mall thinks larry meercat is the thief.
today is Eric's 9th. I'm in black. I'm wearing my ruffles this week. 2 black, mint, hot pink.
exactly one week since I received questionnaire. I started.
I'm in mourning. I feel safe. I biked 32 minutes. I'm stretching and relaxing. Walter got me fish and I got one. with zucchini. I didn't want the bell pepper slaw and I'll cook the onion salsa. I finished 300 piece cats puzzle. I'm gearing up to print blog pages for questionnaire. ugh! Capital One bought Discover. fingers crossed July.
