PAID Costco-43/52 & 38/64- Hygge(Danish well being hew-guh)

and it feels good.  I love paying my bills and receiving value.  

I decided to try Santa Clara comic con 2026.  the first one was R2D2s and a photo booth 2016.  8th one skipped 2 years covid.

10 am only half a dozen parking spaces under central.  I walked to St Justin lunch pick up.  this comic con is another planet the Star Wars bar scene.  costumes from everything.  Dr. Seuss, Power Ranger, etc.  no one seems to be getting paid.  

I got 3 swag bags.  Toki won't want one.  Trudy might.  

free bottled water like the Manuka honey is hard to open.  last night I mixed strawberry Quick w/vanilla protein powder.  so delicious.  I always bought chocolate less sugar.  

Gut Feelings Dr Will Cole prefers R Plutchik Wheel of Emotions 1980 to Leary's Circumplex 1957.  

hormetic-good stress cold shower

Sunny 41/64 & 44/52

maybe I'll try lemon cream pie.  

lovely cool plat day.  3 pm went to central closed for comic con prep.  rummage at first baptist $10/ 6 new movies, sterilite paper plate carrier, lavender oil, spoon.  well within my budget.  

wheel- pounding the pavement

celebrity wheel- Lennon Parham

latest ever-43/64 & 47/52-target bill

2009 I couldn't walk so I came early to park close.  the asphalt is still a mess.

and I'm changing.  William(Vera) asked for a pen.  I directed him to the nurses' table since he was waiting for a blood pressure check.  old me would have stopped to 'help' him.  he was looking for attention not a pen.

I'm loving doing nothing.  my nerves are itching tickling coming back online.  

I returned the Motherload 2026 and now I'm researching the creators married couple Van Tran Nguyen and Alex Derwick.  just thinking of it makes me smile.  

I managed to baptize myself with my cup of tea.  I distracted myself.  

I'm relaxing on the couch.  I'm researching Nation's pies, b'fasts, burgers.  food, food, wonderful food.  

custard floury not eggy.  not worth $8.  not $4.  

decided not to wait -46/64 & 48/52

for 7:30 spot.  2 men come at 7 less than half hour and leave.  

I'm considering going to county.  I want to try triple Krusty Jack in Box $7.50.  free fries coupon.  

I reading, resting on upstairs couches.  I ate spinach and cookie.  

I got free med fries with a triple krusty.  passed on county.  

wheel-a zesty dish  

tossed breads soaked in tub 8:30-10-48/64 & 49/52

maxed out.  

Joanne complaining 74 o's heat 94 projected.  

gorgeous pink and gold sunrise-Costco $5.90/gal

I'm feeling OK despite PTSD.  Louise reminds me to breathe, release my breath, anxiety.  

I puzzled, soaked, relaxed.  94 degree day.  

Walter did me a solid.  Larissa had a wheel of dental questions and I wanted another kit so Walter took 2.  he makes me laugh.  Larissa didn't know what happened.  we ran back to lunch.  

I puzzled and napped till 4 then pool part 2.  6:30 I decided I wanted Burger Queen.  so good.  and watching Space Truckers 1996.  goofy but fun.  my happy childhood.  

heat advisory bad air-54/52 & 55/62

my dress weighs lb & half.  dry swim suit half.  24 hour internet.  kids swim.  

MMMM...noon 91 o's Burger King fries.  salt tastes so good.  garlic powder, think about it.  I'm loving the wet suit and towels.

12:50 library underground parking not open.  8 cars parked.  82 degrees.

I'm reading up on Jack Cassidy.  I was always amused by Jackass idy.  then the tragedy of David. 

binned overipe fruit-56/52 & 57/64-PAID Bartolo -Toki fruit

so perfect 60 o's ready trash.  cool, clear, comfortable.  b'fast rice + cooked pkg chicken.

seniors #1 parking.  I have CSC internet.  I left extra fruit.  lovely soak.  

10:15 St Justin only 1 ham cheese.  Sandy gave me extra chip.  never too late for a happy childhood.  weekend bag.  

maybe chicken will make the packaged bean jambalaya palatable.  or diced fruit. 

I'm reading, listening to Louise.  HEAVEN.  The Inflammation Spectrum, Dr Will Cole.  and PG Wodehouse Gutenberg.org.  

I reversed direction in the copy room.  Better.  I stayed 'til 5 dropped off on the way home.  tuna sandwich & chips.

parking #1-57/52 & 61/64

I am dedicated to having more fun.  it was difficult re writing my programming.  so much of my life spent avoiding punishment from the family.  I didn't know what I wanted or liked.  I only knew what I didn't like, what I didn't want, so of course that's what I created.  it was all I knew.   

we are magnetic beings.  we generate our own magnetic fields.  we attract what we invest our energy in. 

Luigi Galvani had it correct.  we're powered by electricity.  where it comes from and how it works is a mystery.  

wheel bonus-full cookie jar

celebrity wheel-Matt Iseman

yippeee! $5 roast beef bag lunch-66/64-58/52

recycle money.  like found money.  I love finding money.

Dan Craig "castles" had a piece missing.  magically appeared in puzzle.  

Fred and Walter got me extra rice.  6 times what I was served for lunch.  

3 pm munchies.  

wheel-improving our chances

I'm prayed up-58/52 & 66/64

I doing a "castles" puzzle.  no box or picture.  I think it's one Fred's Debi brought.  donated to the seniors library.  I think I did it b-4 I'm 90 % done.  

wheel-quick to judge

I'm always amazed when all the pieces are present-PAID CITY $16 OVERDUE!! and I'm OK-67/65 & 60/52

I finished the "Tigger" 1000 piece puzzle.   

I was showing Gloria the chrome book and renewed.  HUH!  

battery 1%-city 62/52 Sunny 76/65-wheel -beaming

took 3 minutes to regain pages.  1:43 minutes to full charge.  pool open 'til 6:30 today.   I can't watch Bruce Willis movies w/o feeling his sadness.  I don't know what happened but he's so sad.  his eyes have such pain.   

 

Sunny lunch open Monday 10/12 -84/65-city 63/52

I choose me.  

and Ernestine Ulmer.  she wrote eat dessert first.  

my life=puzzles-87/65-65/52 HAPPY FRIDAY!

Safeway $5 fresh fruit tarts.  fruit, pudding, crust.  simply delicious.

Fred, Toki, Walter.  got me extra lunch I have 2.  or I'd buy another tart.  

such fun doing what I want.  

wheel word-spider

bonus-believe the hype

open to life-92/65 & 66/52-Beverly & Walter & Leta

woke at 6.  leftovers for b'fast.  calm, calm, calm.  no mom, Aiko, dad, Mit to hit me.  I give them to God.

I can rest and relax enjoying my life with peace and calm.  

6 new movies Cody mobile.  

I sat at table 7 for a change.  Gloria and Fred stayed at the back table.  Walter came and sat w/me.  Gil at the next table chased him away.  Walter couldn't keep himself from looking at Gil.  

And I saw Walter, Leta upstairs nurses office.  

Gloria came to talk.  I explained about Walter.  she walked to the mission library brought me weekly ads and BK coupons.  so hot out.  

wheel-synchronizing our watches

words-gone fishin'

Recycle Inge $3.52 w/mine no one there-68/52 Sunny 94/65

I made $1.20 after the cost of gas.  soaked and stretched an hour in both pools.

lunch ok.  Walter is still at odds taking extra and complaining.  I'm loving the distance.  Letting go is delightful.  if he's trying to dis me too bad.  

Fred is back already.  4 days he missed us.  he said a week and half.  I didn't ask.  

wheel bonus-taking flight

words-in the garden

space bar is finally working.  

I LOVE PLAYING-93/65-70/52

I NOW LOVE LIFE!!  

Walter has made me the enemy.  and I don't care.  he's chosen to construct a contentious relationship.  oh,well.  

I got an extra lunch sitting up front.  he got one also.  my shadow.  

I finished the 1000 travel poster puzzle and Gail gave me 2 fun puzzles.  

wheel word-the piano

bonus-my bags are packed

Monday seniors-city wifi 71/52

for sure.  1 week Sunny hot spot stopped.  so back to city wifi.  

wheel bonus-former olympian

 words w/ friends - graduation day.

oh, what to want-Dollars ($) movie 1971-chrome froze

following spirit.  I'm resting watching TV.  Warren Beatty, Goldie Hawn.  they work so hard at stealing money I'm feeling exhausted.  

I'm remembering to wipe off after picking up fruit, going outside.  warnings on air quality.  I'm hoping my allergies are part of toxin clearing from smoking.  I never had allergies 'til I lived on my own and started smoking.  my body missed the nicotine I was born with dad's chain smoking.  

I'm missing it now.  

I managed to retrieve pages.  

Talk like a Pirate Day-Art and Wine

I was unsure what I wanted to do.  I waited 'til spirit led me.  24 hour #1 parking 8 am.  

I showered then sat waiting for further direction.  9:30 drove to St Justin blocked off for Art Wine parking.  I checked lunch pick up still happening.  then to decide park and pick up or pick up and park.  under library late opening 9:50.  one car stuck at bottom until gate unlocked.  so now I know no timer, someone late.  or passive aggressive.  

last year I avoided it entirely I think I went to Sunnyvale.  tomorrow special hours open 10-5.  hmmm...

lunch bag only one ham cheese sandwich.  no weekend bags.  I ate everything.  i stayed 'til 5.  I was feeling tired.  I remembered I had salad mix and lemon pepper tuna at home.  

Nat'l cheeseburger day-FRED's B'day

a bright spot in an insane world of fires and floods about no one seems very concerned.  it's only getting worse and those impacted seem oblivious.  

Fred was happy handing out wrapped Grandma's cookies.  Melvin gave him big box of tea, Toki chips, little Gloria snacks. I gave him giraffe card and $5 for a toy from all of us.````

I went to Cup library after a contentious conversation w/Walter.  he thinks Fred and Toki's politeness means he's not disrespecting us by droning on and on his past of which we're too too familiar.  so insecure.  

I thought I was buying 2 salmon cesar salad when it was seafood.  eh, I was hungry from a tiny lunch.  low blood sugar to the brain.  my 3 pm snack.  half off $5.99 ea.  and pure sugar cafe strawberry cake quarter $2.99.  Lawrence super Safeway.  

had to sit cafe area.  copy room occupied.  

Sammie happy his wife back from China.  

b'fast Vienna sausage

swam and soaked.  stretched.  lunch w/Toki and Walter.  NOT letting him dump on me.  I got myself 2 noodles.  Elizabeth picked the giraffe card.  Toki didn't want to choose signing on a giraffe.    

I finished 500 piece Grogu Mandalorian puzzle.  so fun.  

I feel like a queen  Fred and Debi brought me PB cookies.  I ate 2.

home at 4 pm.  The air is so bad I'm wheezing.  

no rushing -PAID PGE

I took my leftover chicken noodle and ate at seniors.  lovely calm quiet b'fast.  I took EVOO and brushed my teeth.  I have other jars to keep home.  

Fred wanted help handing out his b'day cookies Friday.  I mistakenly thought Walter would want to support Fred.  no way.  Walter started making excuses, no is sufficient.  

after lunch w/Fred, Toki, Walter I decided to pay PGE at Walmart.  in my car I looked through all my papers and found 1 b'day card w/giraffes.  

2 pm I stopped to pick up Lucky's weekly ad, found clearance 4 boxes Hostess chocolate cupcakes $1 ea, 2 drinks $1 ea, $3 peanut chocolate spread.  

I walked around Walmart and found a clearance Cobb salad for dinner $2.08, a third off.  I drove back to the seniors considering a second swim.  not today.   

home I finally remembered to look and found frog "Hoppy Birthday" card. 

seniors

I brought my fish b'fast.  lost track of EVOO and supplements.  I wasn't hungry because of allergies.  and I have chick cracklings.  

I ate the fish and potato I forgot I cooked.  

lunch Fred 

home 6:30 I left supps home.  took them w/beets.  I ate the cracklings for dinner.  

I am Here Lord

I dropped and found my gym lock keys and shampoo.  

Nicole left her purse on the lunch chair.  I took it to Jon & Jennifer front desk.  she came back w/her daughter.  

I puzzled until Toki came upstairs.  I remembered to get copy paper to document the website.  she's going to write to them since there's no reply online.  

my allergy is better since I'm wearing a mask and drinking gallons of water.  every time I go out to my car the pollen gets me.  

I dropped off today's 4 oranges.  

lovely cool found Atomic Habits

I picked up avocado, guavas gone.  wearing a mask less allergies and I wipe down.  nuked chicken skins.  

I drank strawberry Quick.  so good.  I have to stay hydrated because of allergies.  

the best is the library access to everything I need.  water, air conditioning, rest room.  

10 am 66 degrees.  LOVELY.

11 am 24 hour fitness.  feeling hungry I decided on Jack Box.  2 breakfast jacks 2 hash browns.  library arriving too early I parked, ate the potatoes.  funny how keeping busy I'm not hungry.  

interesting men bring their daughters to the puzzle table so they can ignore them.  they might as well stay home.  bad daddies.

feeling sad change insecurity-PAID Disc, Cell, Car-Bartolo & Adele

Discover to Cap One.  Toki and I are dealing with change.  it's nice to have conducive company.  I found 5 new cloth 95 masks.  

I decided no 24 at 8 am.  I'm being gentle with myself.  I may go later.  

hell seeker turned off my recording while I got water and took a break.  so I plugged in ears.  they have a right to live in hell how they choose.  

I'm finally eating the last cheddar almond crisps exp 10 may 2024.  such dry salty cardboard they must be so healthy.  I bought a box maybe 6? and this is the last.  the idea was better than the execution.  

twenty five years ago-Hark

I woke 5:46 and turned on the TV being bed ridden since mom's death.  (I desperately tried to pull her from the bath tub and ruined my back.  took 3 firemen to get her out.)  for the first time I was glad she didn't have to see the chaos and destruction.  

I can't watch those enjoying the attention.  

lunch OK Fred, Toki, happy Walter.  2 extra meals.  Toki got another jury duty notice.  Walter said his last was received after expiration and never bothered him again.  we may handle it Monday on senior computer.  oh, I could go over.   

Fred's b'day Friday 18th then 2 weeks vacation.  

I'm comfortably in my original spot.  bottom copy room nickel upper occupied.  

Hark I can listen just for me and still fulfill improving the planet containing me.  

most excellent warm morning-Costco $5.50/gal Sunny dime more-no heaven for u

the chrome went down to 46% I plugged it in crooked.  people use devices to avoid living.  I love improving my life.

lunch with Walter OK.  Sunshine and Ruben gave me desserts.  I'm eating allergy leaves and vitamin c until the fluffy plant goes away.  Walter gave me new box trader joe choc chip cookies.

I feel like I'm still clearing my lungs from ex smoking.  

old white female bookstore volunteer complained my recording started while I was browsing I shut it off.  I commented on white folks in the library talking at the top of their lungs.  she said I think so.  yes I know so.  she'd rather serve in hell than allow anyone else heaven.

doing the best I can

Sunnyvale library open.  considered and discounted sewing lab.  I don't feel like working.  

24 at 9 am #1 parking spot.  maybe it's the time walking not the distance.  I love the unlimited hot water.

enough time for B King.  compared to Jack Box $1.50 for 2 med fries.  

I brought lemon pepper tuna just in case.  

people litter frustrated.  they're trying to express their hurt trying to project the hurt.  took 4 minutes for signal to left turn.  

Sunny water weird.  I used back fountain.  

11 am city is 86 o and Sunny 82.

5:40 finished 750 sewing 7 cats puzzle.  

allergy plant and vitamin C-PAID CITIBANK

I'm feeling much better.  the 11 hour Louise states I'm positive.  I was born positive and they hated me for my positive attitude.  

24 hour unlimited hot water is delightful.  3 days sans brace.  

I decided to pay gasoline.  I'll fill up tomorrow maybe.  still $5.29/gal.  Banh mi OK not as good.  regular bread no cilantro.  I enjoyed cucumber salad.  Walter got one also.  coleslaw eh.  dinner is covered.

I drove around to Toki's car and loaded all the fruit since there is no seniors this week.  

The central elevator is broken so Martha security asked permission to take me on staff elevator.  she looks like she lost at least 10-15 lbs.  

I bought Beatles REVOLVER $2.  

wheel --fuji apple

summer cold-Toki Arare

aaugh!!  took a 24 hr antihistamine not very good.  I'm OK.  I have vit C, allergy plant Tylophora indica.  resting, watching Love Boat.  sneezing.  sore nose.  

Toki left me Arare and my fruit box.  I caught an allergy cold.  the fuzzy plants blowing around.  I went out to pick up fruit and my sinuses are blocked.  eating allergy leaves really help.  

wheel-wearing-beige wool coat.  bonus puzzle page messed up.  

feeling the past-healing the past-I'm free!

preparing for the future.  senior center closed next week I'm free!

1 egg avocado omelet w/hi bread slice.  I set the bread aside and lost track of it.  I got more bread and recreated my steps.  and found it.  

I ate candy yesterday and I'm stuffy.  post nasal drip.  bag of chips.  

I'm watching Biography- Cat Stevens, Dolly Parton.  

I made mac & cheese, more comfort food.  

funny how the mind forgets and the body remembers dad-Melvin chips

it's been 27 years.  maybe by 30 the body adjusts.  my body is reliving dad's miserable death because of my sisters.  they tortured dad, mom and me the last month of his life.  he was in excruciating pain keeping mom and me in agony with his crying and pleading.  

listening to 432 Hz Alpha waves.  quite nice.  you tube plays whatever.  it's working.

3 pm Melvin brought me 2 bags of low salt chips.  MIRACLE.  he went to seniors gym this morning missed me.  so I told him about dad's death day. 

I'm no longer alone.  

Friday! Tyler from senior gym visit

working retail I always worked weekends.  since the family conditioned me to serve 24/7 I never thought about it.  NOW I have weekends.  

Gohan has been working for the city, well, playing since he was 16.  Gail got him an 'internship'.  they get paid to put on celebrations, festivals.  PAID TO PARTY.

Like my life with Eric Karaoke Kids.  Paid to party.  Hard physical work lugging 500 lb equipment box.

I Thank Louise for my improved Life.  I toil not, neither do I spin.  

MeMe came to visit.  she's still working early at Nob too.  city after 1:30.  

Wheel still messed up.  food and drink Thursday bonus-QUICK BITES answer today.

so far so good

I started and finished 500 piece Garden Path puzzle.  hurray! me!  

lunch was not good.  I decided I wanted chicken cream wild rice adding extra can chicken, celery and avocado.  I gave away 2 boxes of fruit.  

Cody bookmobile didn't show.  I gave fruit to Susan.  

Wheel conundrum Show FAMILIAR VOICE-thing, but bonus page has food and drink, 2 words start Q 5 letters, 5 letters end S.

seniors

I'm making the best of it.  nightmares of child abuse I'm trying to see through love.  

the angry child wants to get rid of everything.  throw them all away.  dad, mom, aiko.  mit came after.  throw it all away.  bad memories.  

I soaked and stretched over an hour.  I almost finished puzzle.  Jon came to ask me about some man in a blue cap.  I never noticed.  

lunch was bibimbap.  Fred and Toki took off early.  I told Walter I was moving to the front for leftovers and he decided to go.  after getting an extra lunch I went back to finish the pink and gold house.  

annoying ex came with his lunch saying I had made progress.  when I finished the puzzle he gave me permission to pick the next puzzle.  what a jerk.  I went downstairs didn't have my blue swag bag.  I looked in the cafeteria, went back upstairs he was sitting on my bag.  last week he moved my car keys from the chair arm but today the jerk sits on my bag.  

I went downstairs to charge my devices and listen to Louise.  

2:30 I was tired.  home by 3.  supposed to rain tomorrow.  

I'm learning to take time

75 years of habits not easy to rewrite.  my heart is lightening.  the family heritage is being written over.  slowest fast food Burger King Scott.  half an hour just to order.  cook and 1 front.  5 orders backed up ahead of me.  

jr BK and 2 med fries for dinner.  jr tomorrows b'fast.

end of month

I decided taking my time was perfection.  I drove to Leta's to drop off fruit and couldn't find it.  I gave it to Toki.  half of the trunk.  I called Leta after lunch, wrong house number.   she still has plenty of fruit.  

Elizabeth gave me coupons I'll give her fruit tomorrow.  

I puzzled 'til 6 then Mission library returned movie and college Safeway $6 /8 piece chicken thighs drums Monday.  half fried half roasted.  a dozen cake pieces on a cart with $2.50 tags left from Friday.  I wanted to return when charged $3.99 so because it was tagged $2.50 I got it free.  

anxiety motivating me to move-Dolly Parton

I made spinach and egg and I'm getting my library books ready.  

Atomic Habits, James Clear accepting boredom is the most important to success. 

I located All is Well Louise Hay   

Dolly Parton died 1 year 5 months after Carl Dean.  mom 1 year 8 months.  

located my checks and cash-PGE due 8/17 oh oh

preparing next month.  listening to Louise I can relax and know I'm living my best.  I feel OK.  

avocado onion 2 egg omelet b'fast.  

I didn't know where I wanted to shower so I did housekeeping 'til 8 and got in my car drove to 24 last good wall space.  then I didn't know if I wanted to swim I took my suit.  Yes, I showered soaked stretched cooled down.  9 am I showered in the best stall again. 

on to St Justin 9:43 Ruben & co.  someone left a box of fresh veg and some delicious individually wrapped Taiwanese Chung Hsiang Foods Ind. Co. Ltd. sesame milk crackers.  maybe from 99 Ranch Wolfe, Cupertino.  the fresh ginger was sweating in plastic so I opened it to let it breathe.  man seeing what I had officiously said to give it to him to "inspect" I declined.  they were too good to look for themselves and expected me to hand it over.  old me would have.  

I wrote Life check, assembled Citibank 100, Bartolo 80.  

up and at em atom ant

made an onion omelet.  Walter's fear is contagious.  I'm loving the rain and fear is lurking.  he reminds me to be diligent.  

I puzzled 'til 9:30, showered then lunch.  Hilde came over apologizing losing Walter's lunch.  he just wanted to complain like my dad.  blaming everyone else like my ex husband.  Fred cancelled fish for lunch.  Walter showed up 11:40 launching into repeating yesterday.  I refused to listen.  he kept on until I kept interrupting, continuing to insist he let it go.  so he left early threatening to stop lunching.  I won't be threatened.  

I waited for cart 3 with today's left overs.  first 2 salad from 3 days.  I still left at 12:17 to pick up sale water for 5/$5 college Safeway Friday.  home by 1 pm.  

lovely to just be.  

Brilliant Happy Thursday to me!

first hour sorting fruit and washing car windows.  I feel so much better.  

Walter refuses to process vomiting his stress and anxiety over all.  I continually stop him.  he's not practicing for himself.  I have to run away or he'll never learn.  

I soaked, stretched early.  gave Cody treats and fruit.  lunch OK.  Nah Young lost Walter's lunch.  I suggested he get lettuce from Joanne for his chickens he'd rather complain.  he went on and on all week.  he refuses to process his PTSD.  he avoids and distracts maintaining the status quo.  I have to run away for him to learn to control his thoughts.  I can't do it only he can heal himself.  I sent him home.  

weird energy 20% chance thunder showers.

happy anniversary me

finished 480 puzzle 11 X 13.    

great sadness

I dreamed of feeling wanted.  all the shows I watch are about inclusion.  

Leta's inclusion is the love I lost at 4 yrs old when we left Hawaii.  

my family always left me out.  they made me the scapegoat.  I was blamed for everything they didn't like.  I wasn't liked.  

talked w/Walter about us.  he still doesn't get that we're the same.  he just doesn't listen.  he got me extra lunch.  he stayed to talk we ate at 3. 

I finally understand playing Louise is ALL I need to do.  I improve the world by playing Louise.  I raise the planet vibration.  Everything is alright.  

moving up in the world-wheel  

high humidity 77%

 cheers word day

indulging myself bonus puzzle.  

I played all day.  took fruit to Toki.  couldn't find my keys , back to seniors I found them fell next to driver seat.   scared myself.  

I puzzled 'til 6 decided I wanted to shop Raley's Nob Hill.  clearance soup, cor cakes, sale blueberry almonds 2/$7, Gorton's frozen fish 8/$5 Monday I cooked all using sandwich microwave crispers.  2:30 minutes crispy and crunchy.  

home 7:30.  

day of miracles-Leta pancake b'fast St Justin-returned hot spot city-116/52

8 am #4 parking at 24 hour.  tub and pool half hour.  best shower coming and going.  St Just last shady parking.  Woo Hoo!!  I ate a banana b4 and after workout.

Oh, so good.  6 pancakes butter 4 links and pineapples, strawberries, honeydew.  orange juice.  

Leta such a lovely maniac.  and a lovely family.  Walter, Beverly, son Oliver.  she kept handing me bottles of water making me laugh.  insisted on getting her own coffee.  

library 90 degrees at 4.  I was going home to watch Fantasy Island but I hadn't planned on 90.  projected 84.  80 at 1 pm.  

mojo chicken and gummies b'fast-Sunny hot spot due 9/12

I remembered to ask myself what I need to be happy.  Supplements for the week I decided I wanted Glucosamine and A Reds.  

I decided on CVS at 9 am to use $10 coupons expiring today.  10 St Justin lunch then Sunny Dollar tree for AA batteries parking space front door (never happened before).  11 am Sunny library my favorite shady spot in back.  

Sunny hot spot charger plugs into chrome book USB.  

11 hour Louise Hay recordings.  

PG Wodehouse story Sea of Troubles contemplates suicide.  I'm reading online Gutenberg.org.  Dad's death 9/5 coming up.  

5 pm I finished 2 puzzles.  I suddenly decided to go to Dollar tree for frozen dinner and ice cream.  Woo Hoo!!  

seniors hot shower-Leta b'fast 10 St Justin tomorrow

Happiness is the little things.  I enjoyed the puzzle.  

Toki came to lunch.  Walter was visibly relieved.  he got me extra chicken.  

I stayed and played on the puzzle.  3:15 Omeed reminded me the center closed at 3.  I went to college Safeway for 2 $5 Hormel beef.  I walked the store, no donuts I wanted.  

home 4 pm I froze them and ate a pint of macadamia rocky road ice cream.  

happy baby.  

brand new puzzle Octagon box

I discarded 5 missing puzzle blamed on Ozzy and Jackson.   I don't put up w/blame.  take responsibility.  

I gave Cody bookmobile milk, cookies, spicy tuna rice beans, fruit cup.  then pool tub soaked stretched.

most excellent lunch of fish sandwich w/Fred, Walter, Gloria, Nicole.  

went to Cupertino for holds.  walked library then back to shady parking.  I'd been thinking of tire air pressure check, couldn't find America's tire went and walked big Safeway Lawrence x Stevens Creek Blvd.  back to Woodhams found and they checked.  on to central library returned and requested the overdue book All is Well.  

getting hungry 4:30 I want grilled cheese or potato cheese.  

so I walked Savers and bought 24 new red envelopes $1.49 and new gold bandana $1 orange tags.  Grocery Outlet $13 bargains, dinner and b'fast.  

blogger problems?-solar flare-Zza

maybe internet glitches.  very slow.  like under attack.  

I went to *1 deposit check, teller researched as much as she could, I could have gone to B of A looks legit.  if it bounces $10. 

$10 Mtn Mike pizza. I went to Senor Pizza first.  pepperoni good.  mini 5 inch.  mini 3 toppings $13.  came back to seniors.  pizza so rich made my bones ache.

I considered another swim.  big police presence on Franklin across Benton.

new me.

lovely puzzle fun

annoying man ex-Will phone conversations w/wife and rental realtor.  probably for my benefit.  not personally, he's trolling for a wife replacement to blame.  been there.  he can't refrain from simply not eating or drinking posted on the table.  I've mentioned to him twice.  

and I'm happy.  I finished the puzzle ignoring him.  WIN!!

unlimited hot water Lx Gym-A BIG PROMOTION-wheel

6:30 lots of parking.  12 hours of sleep gives me energy.  babies and seniors need more rest.  I'm doing what I want.  

I got extra bean soup and Ruben gave me 2 ham cheese sandwiches.  I ate chicken salad celery parsley.  I removed the diced red onion.  

I took Toki avocados and oranges she cancelled tomorrow so I'm glad I delivered.  her right leg hurting.  

lovely overcast cool 64 but smoky

I'm still feeling stressed.  smoke and dad's death coming up 9/5.  Aiko making his last month HELL for all of us.  she must be so proud.  

lack of oxygen and anxiety.  

I slept lunch to 5:30.  feeling better.  

Anxiety from past life

Golden Girls is bringing out so much.  I'm taking care of myself and my feelings.  self-respect.  without an example it's been tough to do.  like living on another planet.  a raw emotional landscape.  every new emotion hurts.  

taking care of others is easier.  focus outside ourselves.  eyes and ears survival is outwards.  releasing pain I needed to move.  so 24 hour at 8:34 no parking I was way in back.  added to my exercise.  I soaked stretched in hot tub and cooled in the pool.  10:15 I picked up St Justin lunch and remembered I wanted to use CVS expiring coupons.  bought beets 2/1.  I walked Ross' and Safeway.  realized I didn't have a car key and started to freak.  I put beets in the trunk.  key waiting for me.  

parked under Main at noon.  book sale.  I ate my lunch feeling so tired.  air quality is bad from fires.  2:30 I went home to nap 'til 5.  parked in the shade.  

moved my car to my driveway 8 pm.  I watched "Stars in my crown" 1950.  so glad I napped.  

Lx Gym tub/pool-Target - Leta St J b'fast Sunday 23/10:30

$15 new charging cord and 2/$4 small chunky PB.  

I'm finding the good in change.  

the senior locker room is closed so I went to 24.  then I decided to shop Target to keep my card current.  

I'm feeling capable.  

I bought fresh fruit tart for dinner.  a little disappointed the $5 enchilada dinner is veg only.  I wanted chicken suizas.  

Paid city-Leta 92 B'day-forgot Cody bookmobile-Sunny 24/63 paused

delicious Baskin's ice cream cake.  Walter got me extra piece.  I think he annoys to get neg vibes.  

Best hardest Disney puzzle Mickey & Minnie.  takes me within.  

I was so mellow last night I forgot to charge spot.  

goofing

such fun to do what I want.  I'm releasing anxiety.  I didn't miss it at all.  yesterday and today smoke warnings on the weather.gov.  people feel stressed because the body notices.  

it amazes me people complaining of feeling tired when there's no oxygen.

people live in bubbles totally out of touch with the world.  makes me wonder how they survive.  proves there is a God.  

Costco $4.80/gal-Citibank $.17 credit

seniors resting.  having more fun.  Walter got me 2 fish squash dinners and extra fish.  

Paul stopped by w/salt vinegar chips YUM!  my needs are met.  

unlimited hot showers

hot tub 104 pool 84 degrees.  and me free.  I drove to CUP library couldn't access summer reading even w/help.  then Panera nothing I wanted was almost was boxed in by the over sized in compact spaces.  took some maneuvering to get out.  

KFC Taco bell combo I tried spicy fresh jack pepper burrito $3.  eh, OK.  senior green banana perfect dessert.

eating lunch in lovely Sunny library shade 80 degree 1 pm.  I want to turn in Summer reading.  got my $5 coupon.  

I didn't feel like cooking opened a can of soup.  

Sunshine such a maniac-Valley Village flea Aug and Apr-releasing stuff

after getting Ruben's goodies St Justin she came over and asked if I went to a senior rummage sale at the center.   I had to ask where, "on Winchester".  she's so used to secret dealing she's losing her vocabulary.  

I checked no movies or books.  I remembered how to get there the back way.  it's been awhile.  May last year.  

I'm getting back my shine.  today's weather is perfect.  forecast 90's not happening 77.  I caught Paul's fear.  

I turned in summer reading for Mtn Mike personal pizza, book bag, book coupon.  SCORE!!

I have a county book and cd overdue I may return tomorrow.  I thought I lost the case when I had it with the movies.  I saw Sammi as I was leaving the underground garage after looking through my trunk for it.  I gave him some avocados he gave me a T-Joe PBJ crepe I ate to fuel my search.  TA DA!!.  prayer partner.  

ladies showers still cold-Paid DISC/CAP*1

BUT the family showers must be the same heater as men's nice and hot.  

I do love my puzzles.  they have roast beef bag lunch again.  I'm pondering.  

I brought the buffalo chicken and kept the crackers.  I never considered it before.  

I puzzled 'til 10:30 lost in my own world.  I decided to shop college Safeway after lunch.  I came home and ate sushi and watched TV.  5:30 I decided 24 hour unlimited hot water, walked Food Maxx home 7.  new bill I called Disc to check it out after confirming my bank balance.  so far so good.  

wheel-fancy blazer

Day of Remembrance-Cody paper Peace Cranes

Saturday Cup I picked up 2 Peace Cranes for Cody's Bookmobile.  And I found them in my doubled Sprouts bag.  

I finished Ferrari puzzle I started yesterday.  

I LOVE HAVING FUN!

wheel solutions back today.  

it's been so long since I called *1 I wasn't sure how.  it came back to me.  

programming the future

by playing Louise I'm raising the vibration of the planet.  by improving my health I'm improving the planet.  done and done.  

I'm fulfilling my purpose.  everything more is flourish.

5 pm chrome crashed.  I put in blogger.com and voila!  

I guessed the wheel word.

Inge $3 recycle Danny's 7-4 open-Carlos' 1 pm 81 degrees-Oxygen sensor

easy not even a gal of gas.  I bought a roast beef bag lunch $5.

Carlos wouldn't take any money.  I already paid $300 for his taking care of last week.  that was last week.  I still owe him on account.

Croatia & window box wheel words.

I'm loving doing what I want when I want.  

just listening to Louise raises the planet-PAID BARTOLO-cleared car floor 91 degrees at 8 pm

called Carlos O 2 sensor I'll call 1 pm to confirm or reschedule.  

it's so smoky I want to run away.  I feel panic.  

my left eye irritated blood shot, both eyes stinging.  

3:30 he will have part.  lunch VERY salty.  Carlos has to attach through cabin I must clear floor.  

I decided I can postpone if I want.  NO PRESSURE.  I planned on using rolling tubs.  

while I was clearing the passenger floor Tony came by promising to touch up the paint and fix the gutter again free.  nah ah.  he wants money.  I already paid $3K.  

Burger King /avocado b'fast-Bartolo money

I'm loving my broken home.  Aiko broke the oven, washer machine, refrigerator, front door lock.   I picked up fruit.  I started to stress looking for cash.  I have so many bags.  located Bartolo pay.  

new behaviors, never be locked out by locking up w/key.  anchor desired memories to remain focused.  

I added avocado and peach to Grocery Outlet salad for lunch.  

4 hour nap.  I was exhausted from picking up kitchen avalanche.  I am loving my leisure.  

90 degrees and I'm good.  

semiquincentennial-250 years

LX Gym-new hot spot central-mailed LIFE Mariposa ctr-Miracle "IGOR"

lovely shady parking.  I drove early.  Randy's menu $3-$5 each.  

I have so much more energy. 

Randy's donuts long lines has sparked Stan's long loyalty lines.  

St Justin's long lines too.  Sunshine likes to talk.

I ate my lunch in copy room listening to Louise.  I charged 10/$3 kid movies and 25 cent new dream catcher in card basket from bookstore.  Sammi brought 2 nieces to meet me.  county due to expire.  I used to freak when overdue (Marla Gibbs) and now I take it in stride.  I can go tomorrow.  

I decided to go at 4 after I wanted Burger King.  I parked permit close to Cup L door.  then chose 2 Hiroshima remembrance cranes.  

I decided I wanted to get Grocery Outlet.  Savers first I found like new "IGOR"!! half price $1.49.  perfect salad spinner, Capri jeans, jewelry stand 20% off reward.   Grocery outlet choc almonds, goat blue cheese crumbles $3.49, tomatoes  $.99, 2 cheese chips, clearance salad $1.49.   

home 8 pm Heaven.  

Gisele on being human-31/52 & 63/64

it's helped me to resolve, accept humans are weird.  she survived.  

MAKE THE WORLD BETTER.  my new focus.

my hot spot is ready central!  so I paused Sunny and decided $5 Friday PF Chang beef broccoli at college Safeway $3 lemon cake, steak and Cobb salads.  

an hour housekeeping.  the garage freezer iced shut I used a screwdriver and hammer 2 buckets full for the lilac.  and flashing water softener I added 10 lbs salt pellets.  

fun fan day wheel word- VENICE  and Collette and bonus- just kidding around

ebb and flow of resentment-32/52 & 64/64-CITI 17 cent credit

Cody updated my chrome.  yesterday there was one request, today none.  so legally another 4 weeks.  

watching tv scrabble.  feeling in transition.  I feel normal whatever this is.  

wheel-vintage jean jacket.

I'm in charge HALLELUJAH!!-34/47-69/65-Carlos

I can change feeling sad to glad.  feeling sorry for myself is new.  I was in too much terror.  I'm in charge of my feelings.  

reading Gisele is bringing up my pain.  it was waiting for me.  

someone stole my new 2 piece bathing suit and underwear and socks.  not in lockers, lost & found, or garbage.  I didn't have it long enough to love it.  NOT MY SISTERS stealing from me TODAY!!  

1 pm waiting at Carlos' for muffler guy to bring back unsigned check.  business is good 3 cars need work.  so we postponed O2 sensor to Monday.  car seems to be getting better mileage but I could be wrong.  confirmed.  

another customer same collision but more damage Pedro de la Luz is fixing.  and Saturday Kiely Homestead, last night Los Padres ECR 4 police cars blocking intersections.  big black SUVs collided.  

wheel-BOOK A FLIGHT

fruit pick up took 10 minutes-76/65 & 36/47

I couldn't access wheel solutions so I had to go to the Wheel site to enter the fun day giveaway.  

Wodehouse has so many foreign words, online it's imperative to look up meanings.  

wheel; cubed honeydew  the solutions website license has expired.  

learning to love life-BAKED ZITI

I let Inge know Jin is happy, healthy taking care of 9 month grandson and doesn't like talking on the phone.

everyday a little better.  I finished the "fly fishing" puzzle.

reading Gisele Pelicot is chilling.  there but for the grace of God.  makes me SO GLAD I never perpetuated my family dysfunction.  who knows how many generations will continue to contend with the damage and pain.  

Fred brought me and Toki key rings from Morro Bay.  he brought me back a Brain toy like "Igor".  

Leta!  such a fire cracker.  gave me half her noodles.  I gave everyone avocados.  

I SOLVED WHEEL-BAKED ZITI

Minivia remembered me from 5/26/26-New ME

I was surprised.  she's a luminous dark eyed beauty.  it's been 2 months.  I soaked and stretched hot and cold.

I decided on Burger King.  $9 special 2 double b'fast sandwiches croissant and biscuit ham or bacon taste test I preferred biscuit and bacon.  

home at 10 am I parked in the driveway, so it was much easier to unload the car.  making my life simpler.  NEW ME.

I ate a box of beans rice chicken palatable with honey goat cheese and 3 avocados.  the honey to 'disguise' the tang I much prefer plain.  

just talked to Jin @ 24 hr

Inge just asked of her.  I soaked hot 102 cold 84 degrees, stretched.

St Justin 9:44.  Sunshine in charge.  central library lunch.

home 1 pm tired from yesterday.

Carlos the Great catalytic converter-Gisele Pelicot the Great-40/47

I left a big bag of avocados and gave him a dash camera $19.99 Ross I bought yesterday.  too complicated.  never occurred to me to take it to Carlos has a newer Toyota.  I was thinking of Walter.  

Carlos' getting my catalytic converter re welded.  my personal check for $625.  stolen on the street.  lots of strange cars parked on Nobili due to paving Notre Dame.    

researching how to file a police report.  wouldn't print until I logged off.  

when I went to my car I rinsed the frosty windows.  the engine sounded like 1/13 2022 when the accelerator sensor switch cut out.  it was terrifying to drive a noisy rickety car.  I found a bolt next to my left front tire I put in the back and gave to Carlos.  I drove to his shop at 7 called and waited 'no rush'.  8 am he started calling around to muffler shops.  he wanted me to follow him to San Jose.  I chose not to drive in San Jose.  I offered him $350 to take care of it.  he didn't want any money I insisted on $300.  he saved my mind body spirit sanity.  I'm still vibrating.  

1:17 pm returned and paid 2 converters $1,150.  I paid him $800 on Discover instant payment, $300 over for driving to San Jose and I gave him a seniors' lunch beet chicken feta salad.  saved me the wear and tear on my body nerves mind and spirit.   I'm still vibrating.

I will return "Bob" to Cody book mobile.-87/65-44/47-misplaced car key

I ate salad from college Safeway.  I still have mac burger frozen.  

I have to get A-REDS I can see and feel the difference 3 days.  Monday last day.  

WOW reading about headless men from Wodehouse refers to Othello.  Amazing what people believed.  Anthropophagi.  WOW.  

new behavior, I wore blacktop and pants in the tub.  less to dry.  I forgot the blue green suit at home.  

I figured out wheel from A______  __l.  

I copied letter back to Koyama  & Costello.  

Bob overdue

Walter still refuses to be responsible for his stress.  Fred, Toki left early I pointed out to Walter.  he's out of control.

spoke to Danielle.  lovely conversation I mentioned Amy attorney Danielle mistake.  explained ISO is a professional investigative listing of all court related issues ever.   she also explained CHP report forms are standard used by all law enforcement.  

On My Way to My Heaven-90/65-statute of limitations-48/47

My Divorce.  I'm feeling giddy.  I'm surrounded by people supporting my happiness.  the sisters' betrayal 5 yr statute of limitations for embezzlement.  

Walter showed up today Shadow bantam rooster dislocated his hip.  or did he?  RELIEF.  Walter may have inadvertently trained him by rewarding his behavior.  

I've been restless-94/65-51/47-Koyama & Costello another questionnaire DIVORCE!!

could have been the frozen coke.  slept midnight woke 6.  seniors good.  started new puzzle after finishing old.  lunch OK no Walter.  

da da daaaa, when I got home 6:30 huge envelope hostile plaintiff.  what goes around.  papers like my DIVORCE!!

collision 2271 car door bike rider-95/65

gym and Burger King lunch.

arrived 11:45 Sunny library.  ate fries half jr.  better w/avocados.

returned spot, atomic book, movies.  David here for book sale.  didn't want avocados.

puzzled 'til closing.  

gym

wonderful shower.  

over to St Justin lunch saw Ruben gave me extras.  

I gave Sammi at library buffalo chicken & crackers.  he gives me date candy.  I found a copy of LAST HOLIDAY Queen Latifah.  I enjoy the 1950 Alec Guinness version also.  

dad was chronically depressed-gas $5/gal

wheel-cowboy boots

Sunny hot spot cut out.  I considered tomorrow St Justin lunch and Sunny on Sunday book sale.  

lovely perfect weather.  everyone present for lunch.  Walter got me rice chicken.  we got one bite cupcakes left over from BBQ.  mine, Walter's and staff gave me extra @ puzzle table.  

my changing body

I soaked and stretched for an hour then biked 47 minutes.  I love reading Wodehouse.  I'm stretching as I go.  

lunch with Walter and Gloria OK.  Leta gave me her fish sandwich.  Ruben gave me snacks.  in the trunk getting Cody snacks I found crushed oreos.  yay! still good.  

finished 300 pc puzzle of hot air balloons.  

my trail mix opened in my chrome book bag I didn't feel upset it was oh, well.  new me.  a miracle.

home early 4:30.  I ate fish sandwich and cookies dessert.  

I'm Amazed! PAID DISCOVER by phone 27 CAP ONE

sleeping to "Blandings" like a baby.  awoke every 2 hours totally relaxed.  

took supplements, dressed, gathered books, closed up the house, and drove to seniors.  I left grocery overage in front I needed the paper bag.  already hot I changed for the pool.  I ate a protein bar.  

after an hour in the pool I changed to shorts and cycled 45, 30 and stretched 30.  reading Wodehouse on Gutenberg.org is a pleasure.  funny Fred showed up.  

lunch was OK.  Hilde brought leftover meatballs diced carrots to the back.  Walter took 1 each, I got meatballs.

I decided I might go back to the pool with my new suit at 4.  I'll see.  

wore wet suit for an hour.  I ate some dinner.  relaxed rested.  home 6:30.  finished dinner macadamia trail mix dessert.  

practicing pacing

someone stole the puzzle box and picture left the completed puzzle.  not my business.

Gohan put out a 6 bottled collection of world coins.  whew!!  they took it downstairs to Jon.  

I finished a 300 puzzle.  93 degree outside.  central under garage 76 degrees.  lots of people enjoying the air conditioning.  Ruben gave me his St Justin tunas, juice, chips.  I found Saturday pastry and Elizabeth cookies.  a feast.  I napped.  I guessed wheel "go for broke" 442 motto.

7 pm Campbell's pork and beans sandwich.  just what I wanted.  

tres leches parfait-paid phone

pretty funny 3 milks in Spanish and parfait in French $3.59 for heaven.  Mmm..  lighter than the chocolate.  and clearance 4 oz macadamia trail mix $1.74.  Bank of Safeway Homes.  

I picked up my 12 movies from county after lunch, parking good.  

upstairs halfway reading prize choice of toys I picked key chain.  

oh the seniors tub was wonderful.  I could go back.  

half b'day-Elio film

I'm still releasing negativity and self criticism.  it was never mine.  they installed it I release it.  per Delorise Lucas I send it to the river of forgetfulness.  

the adults are projecting and bombarding the kids with their weird ideas.  I'm so glad I'm old.  too weird for me to understand.  outer space has no answers to inner space questions.

8 am immobilized by back spasms.  pain nausea.  I usually suffer at seniors.  I'm trying kava and magnesium.  breathing through the pain.  my stomach and back left ribs and hip.  stretching hip and tail bone decompressing nerve helps.  grapefruit lozenge for the nausea.  it usually occurs at nurses offices.  

overcast from fires.  64 degrees 77% humidity.  I got and opened grapefruit mixer.  

12:30 my body still sore, I feel tired and weak.  I cancelled Sunny holds and requested anew.  I've always forced myself to meet commitments when no need just family pressure.  I'm resting my tortured body.  self compassion.

hoppers film 3/6/2026

it's different.  it's beautifully rendered but weird.  fantasy sci-fiction.    

so many options to picking up films from Sunny and county.  

24 hour I soaked and stretched 104 degrees.  older manager reset my fingerprints.  flexible faster.  still a meat market.  saw Vicky Jessie's sister.

St Justin 10:15 Sunshine is quite the schemer.  she takes Ruben's extras.  used to be Bonnie.  

and I forgot hot spot at home.  central reception weak.  1 pm returned home found it in it's bin.  until I found it, back to self criticism.  it's less still mom's lack of support.  removed small bucket of garage freezer ice.  

I refilled Stevia and protein containers.  productive day.  I napped 4 pm an hour and a half.  weekend jeopardy and wheel.

oatmeal

I love using what I have.  

Yippee!!  Tom called I can refuse.  I want a better life.  

I have a better life.  Walter gave me his bowl and I got potatoes.  Fred and Toki perfect parents.  

Safeway $5 Friday sushi and water $2.89+.05=$2.94 free.  and 2 clearance salmon Cesar salads, carnitas I froze.  excellent for me.  

feelings

e motions (energy in  motion) create everything.  the building blocks of the universe.  everything is energy in some form.  master emotions and rule the inner universe.  

to Trump his inaccuracies aren't lies.  he truly believes his lies are true.  

I puzzled, soaked stretched.  Ruben gave me 2 PBJ and Fritos.  lunch was not good.  tough dry pork, noodles, Brussels sprouts I tossed most.  I have corn chili at home.  

I puzzled 'til 5:45 resting and relaxed.  HEAVEN!!

fun fun fun

I'm playing all day.  resting from walking all over yesterday a new record home 8:45 pm.  

I puzzled then soaked, stretched and forgot my towel used face cloth.  I was more tired than I realized.  took longer and worked OK.  slowed me down naturally, peacefully.  

Soul On Fire

 true story of John O'Leary.  most excellent.  5 stars.  

someone left 3 mini Ensure chocolate, s

Paul showed up after lunch I gave him his bag he was happy gave me 2.5 oz bag salt vinegar chips.  

white woman came to compete on puzzle.  after half hour she lays piece telling me "it goes over there."  I let it stay there.  I am astounded at the nerve.  I'm neither her mother or her servant.  I should have asked how much she'd pay me.  

I finished quickly w/o her "help".  

I went to Mission library Walter Cariel and college Safeway nothing thinking of central I went to Homestead Safeway corndog $2.49 and chocolate parfait $3.99.  I'm worth it.  Savers I bought roller and tiara $10.  Grocery Outlet Walter Cariel asked if I went to Savers.  when I told him what I bought he said he just donated his mom Leta's 90th tiara.  

ready to go-found uncle Dickie dime-paid Bartolo, mailed life

 pain free today.  miracle.  and auntie Tomie.  TY.  

after seniors I went to college Safeway bought 2 clearance salads and realized I forgot to fill water bottles.  considered my options I went back to seniors, filled bottles and ate salad.  Paul Lloyd's friend was there I offered him one.  he accepted.  I opened it for him.  he was Very sad and inebriated.  he sat awhile then mumbled something and I guess went home.  he left his bag of alcohol.  I waited an hour and put it in the trunk so he doesn't get banned.  

home I ate the other salad.  

FREE! to be

they loved the way they knew unwilling to learn better.  they chose not to be better.  I know better and do my best to be better, the only way to improve my life.  I've had it hard their way.  they prefer suffering I don't.  they insisted I suffer with them.  no thank you.

I decided to finally watch Life of Pi 2012 an artistic Ang Lee film.  book published 2001.  lots of buzz.  too tense for me then.  I'm catching up at my speed watching TV, listening to Louise, and reading Wodehouse.  

reading Coping With A Difficult Older Parent I realize Walter has become my dad.  

my TMJ and skull are so sore.  and the chrome charger cord has a short.  

I choose Golden Girls.   I never wanted to watch.  I'm suddenly interested.  

so far so good

becoming normal takes discipline.  people spend their time escaping reality.  actors are our aristocracy because people choose to avoid their lives instead of making their life more in alignment w/their desires.  for whatever reason fear, ignorance, laziness etc.  I decided to live differently.  my family jealously guarded their complaints punishing me for solutions.

making this the best fourth ever-FREAK OUT-paid Citibank bill $100 July+Aug

an opportunity to make it better than ever.  I think my upset stomach is from mucus.  only mornings from pollen then I get better.  

I can do whatever I want.  seniors is a job of being of service whenever possible.  

tidied an hour.  I used to make it complicated.  now I just use a trash bag.  and it's lovely cool.  

The Great Race 1965 is on.  Aiko traded me for dates w/Roy's friends.  she had all night parties when the parents went to gamble weekends in Tahoe.  I was 13 when she decided to include me to clean up.  after two years he took me to Reno too cheap to get a room and we spent the weekend in the movie theater watching this movie all night.  we drove back the next morning.  they always ignored me I was surprised they were upset, too stupid to figure out it was all Aiko.  

WOW!!  I've survived a lot.  

I couldn't find the CITIBANK bill.  I checked to see if I'd paid NO.  then I calmed myself and remembered to call to find balance.  WHEW!!  the old me.  and I charged my phone.  

paid Citibank on the way to Carl's Cali XL added avocado.

Star Chapter books reaching for the stars-Ruben's b'day

Cody brand new book.  I read Super Roomies kid's graphic novel 15 minutes.  fun stuff.  I deserve more fun.  I want more fun.

I finished puzzle went to soak and stretch.  and feeling great.  

lunch was good.  BBQ ribs.  almost cooked potatoes.  Walter still estranged.  I'm actually relieved.  no pressure.  he doesn't have to want a better life.  

I'm loving my life right now this minute.  

dinner green peas 3 T mayo, diced tomato, lunch potato wedges.  dessert 3 snicker doodles, small slice of Ruben lemon cake, half a small bag of Maui onion chips.

pork medallion sandwich b'fast-Bartolo yard

and phantom stole the puzzle picture again.  I still enjoyed puzzling.  I soaked stretched, biked and read Wodehouse.  HEAVEN!!

lunch mediocre Fred back from dentist.  Toki and Walter.  he knows he dissed me wouldn't look at me.  I stepped back he's talking at Fred and Toki.  I don't care.  

I puzzled 'til 5.  I ate 2 servings ban mi pork with salad and bread.  I finally nuked Krusteaz corn bread mix w/ water and butter.  3 minutes OK.  too sweet.  

reading "Damsel in Distress"-Mallory retirement party-mailed Koyama 2024 phone records and weather reports.

and Soon needed her gym lock cut off.  rescued.  bolt cutters to the rescue.  life following fiction.

I'm annoyed Walter ate the ban mi.  I took 2 bowls.  he's hopeless.  I'm done.  out of the nest.   

Damon supervisor Mallory's retirement party.  

I walked college Safeway nothing I wanted found 5 cigs in pall mall pack.

overheated chrome and crashed and I got it back

I was getting nostalgic watching Disney.  eh, I let go of the past.  

I've been suffering when I have grapefruit.  I drank almost an entire 750 ml and my stomach is fine.  

YIPPEE!!

ow! my aching body! 4 vs. me again

this collision is all about releasing and forgiving my family.  the odds are the same.  four of them against me.  and this too shall pass.  

I have friends and a team now.  I'm not alone.  

I'm sipping cherry juice.  took an hour in the tub under jets to relax spasms.  my muscles feel sore and battered.  

I feel exhausted.  

mac 'n cheese

in the micro 6 minutes.  I'm watching mafia mamma.  Toni Collette is so funny.  

I'm creating my personal heaven.  

bob hearts abishola

no trace at the libraries.  first bi racial main couple on TV sit com.  

I added buffalo chicken to beans rice plus lunch corn still very very very spicy.  added water helped a little.  

it sprinkled.  

9:30 I decided not to think, just do, so I dressed and picked up lunch at St Justin.  Sunshine took Ruben's extras like a giant baby T-rex bird begging.  he did not look comfortable and she didn't care.  Bonnie pretended we were friends to cut in line apologizing but not going back.  

library I ate ham cheese, Cheetos, apple pouch.  I read 2 People mags, and am reading P G Wodehouse online.  and Marla Gibbs.  HEAVEN.

So blessed.

staying positive

not raised with it, generating takes priming the pump every day.  difficult and exhausting.  Louise helps.

if it wasn't for Fred, Toki and Walter I wouldn't bother with seniors.  the food is mediocre,  most people there are small minded.  workers have huge egos.  more for city employees than seniors.  

I love reading online.  

only 6 months to Xmas

I'm feeling the helplessness and hopelessness of 1998.  I couldn't understand the horror of Eric and me stuck caring for my own family.

I couldn't do anything but pray and feel fear for us.  I didn't have time to feel.  I had too much to do to survive moment to moment.  I had to work to pay my bills and drive dad back and forth to the doctors appointments and emergency.  I barely survived and those feelings are back.  PTSD.  

so I'm going through the motions again feeling I'm barely surviving.  my friends are my reward and I have a legal team.  

lunch was lovely w/Gloria, Fred, Toki, Walter.  Walter got me extra goulash w/egg noodles the best part.  I completed a 300 piece puzzle after lunch.  feeling panicked running away I biked.  I hung out 'til 3 and came home.

I love doing what I want after a lifetime of work, doing what I had to do.  I'm reading the original Gentlemen Prefer Blondes by Anita Loos 1925 on Gutenberg,org.  doing my favorite thing when I want, always.  

I returned Danielle's call 9:30 am

after soak and stretch.  I always feel better after.  my homemade trail mix is so good.  I ate half a pound of lunch fish but I'm hungry.  I gave potatoes and veg to the crows.  

I'm committed to staying on top of things.  I've been so depressed, feeling unloved since the collision.  

I washed a filthy plastic 3.4 qt. OXO vacuum canister I found in the parking lot.  the cafeteria washroom has hot water and antibacterial soap.  

I went to Mission then Central library still didn't have double side printing.  I managed to figure out car registration and license copy myself I needed help on multiple but still didn't get the result I wanted.   oh, well.  I puzzled 'til close.  ouch my back.  

home 7:10

time is finally moving-Sunny hot spot

Francine chose the funny cat puzzle again.

we got the July menu.  I checked Sunny is closed Th-Fri July 2-3.  oh, well.  

I decided to pick up my hot spot and found a new $15 tankini and lemon almonds $3.49 at Ross' and lemon cake $5.99 at Sprouts with samples.  home 6 pm.  I ate some lunch fish considering CVS.  coupons expiring today.  not now my feet are sore walked ALL over.  July 1 OTC allowance.

I ate too much lemon cake.  oh, I remembered corn bean salad best snack.  tankini so comfortable.  

Danielle called no mail yet.  should have arrived.  I mailed Wednesday.  4 days.   

all green lights 5 minutes-24 hour hot spot

I forgot to eat.  took my supplements and felt full.  I always have granola bars.  sweeter than I prefer.  I'm resting at the puzzle table.  my stomach aches.  

wearing a brace helps.  and eating lunch.  they didn't drain noodles and it turned into soup.  I gave Toki trunk fruit.  I released bread and old noodles to crows.  Ruben gave me the last piece of Judy/Bonnie Lucky's cake.  

I just realized I am Igor.  old age hump back.  

I love, love, love goofing off.  

3 pm lemon mousse cake and turkey tetrazzini soup.  I'm so relaxed.  reminds me of falling asleep at the library and the guard waking me.  years ago.  now people eat and sleep anywhere.  and talking.  

I'm wearing navy shorts and pink spandex.  pool maybe 4?  

I'm resting.

self care @ 24 hour-OMG HEAVEN!!- -21/65

 huh, I can come here twice if I want.  miss Vicky Jesus sister said she has one pass w/Kaiser.  Toki could get it.  

ooh, Cup lib 9 am using city guest.  the auto return not online.  I have shade parking, listening to Louise.  HEAVEN!  auto return turned on.

Asian man just gave me new 17.6 oz raw Manuka honey APR 2030 no refrigerate.  

and now to read Marla Gibbs.  more Heaven.  the man who parked next to me is the super gym that trashed the newspaper not sharing.  I didn't know he was homeless.