Brilliant Happy Thursday to me!

first hour sorting fruit and washing car windows.  I feel so much better.  

Walter refuses to process vomiting his stress and anxiety over all.  I continually stop him.  he's not practicing for himself.  I have to run away or he'll never learn.  

I soaked, stretched early.  gave Cody treats and fruit.  lunch OK.  Nah Young lost Walter's lunch.  I suggested he get lettuce from Joanne for his chickens he'd rather complain.  he went on and on all week.  he refuses to process his PTSD.  he avoids and distracts maintaining the status quo.  I have to run away for him to learn to control his thoughts.  I can't do it only he can heal himself.  I sent him home.  

weird energy 20% chance

happy anniversary me

finished 480 puzzle 11 X 13.    

great sadness

I dreamed of feeling wanted.  all the shows I watch are about inclusion.  

Leta's inclusion is the love I lost at 4 yrs old when we left Hawaii.  

my family always left me out.  they made me the scapegoat.  I was blamed for everything they didn't like.  I wasn't liked.  

talked w/Walter about us.  he still doesn't get that we're the same.  he just doesn't listen.  he got me extra lunch.  he stayed to talk we ate at 3. 

I finally understand playing Louise is ALL I need to do.  I improve the world by playing Louise.  I raise the planet vibration.  Everything is alright.  

moving up in the world-wheel  

high humidity 77%

 cheers word day

indulging myself bonus puzzle.  

I played all day.  took fruit to Toki.  couldn't find my keys , back to seniors I found them fell next to driver seat.   scared myself.  

I puzzled 'til 6 decided I wanted to shop Raley's Nob Hill.  clearance soup, cor cakes, sale blueberry almonds 2/$7, Gorton's frozen fish 8/$5 Monday I cooked all using sandwich microwave crispers.  2:30 minutes crispy and crunchy.  

home 7:30.  

day of miracles-Leta pancake b'fast St Justin-returned hot spot city-116/52

8 am #4 parking at 24 hour.  tub and pool half hour.  best shower coming and going.  St Just last shady parking.  Woo Hoo!!  I ate a banana b4 and after workout.

Oh, so good.  6 pancakes butter 4 links and pineapples, strawberries, honeydew.  orange juice.  

Leta such a lovely maniac.  and a lovely family.  Walter, Beverly, son Oliver.  she kept handing me bottles of water making me laugh.  insisted on getting her own coffee.  

library 90 degrees at 4.  I was going home to watch Fantasy Island but I hadn't planned on 90.  projected 84.  80 at 1 pm.  

mojo chicken and gummies b'fast-Sunny hot spot due 9/12

I remembered to ask myself what I need to be happy.  Supplements for the week I decided I wanted Glucosamine and A Reds.  

I decided on CVS at 9 am to use $10 coupons expiring today.  10 St Justin lunch then Sunny Dollar tree for AA batteries parking space front door (never happened before).  11 am Sunny library my favorite shady spot in back.  

Sunny hot spot charger plugs into chrome book USB.  

11 hour Louise Hay recordings.  

PG Wodehouse story Sea of Troubles contemplates suicide.  I'm reading online Gutenberg.org.  Dad's death 9/5 coming up.  

5 pm I finished 2 puzzles.  I suddenly decided to go to Dollar tree for frozen dinner and ice cream.  Woo Hoo!!  

seniors hot shower-Leta b'fast 10 St Justin tomorrow

Happiness is the little things.  I enjoyed the puzzle.  

Toki came to lunch.  Walter was visibly relieved.  he got me extra chicken.  

I stayed and played on the puzzle.  3:15 Omeed reminded me the center closed at 3.  I went to college Safeway for 2 $5 Hormel beef.  I walked the store, no donuts I wanted.  

home 4 pm I froze them and ate a pint of macadamia rocky road ice cream.  

happy baby.  

brand new puzzle Octagon box

I discarded 5 missing puzzle blamed on Ozzy and Jackson.   I don't put up w/blame.  take responsibility.  

I gave Cody bookmobile milk, cookies, spicy tuna rice beans, fruit cup.  then pool tub soaked stretched.

most excellent lunch of fish sandwich w/Fred, Walter, Gloria, Nicole.  

went to Cupertino for holds.  walked library then back to shady parking.  I'd been thinking of tire air pressure check, couldn't find America's tire went and walked big Safeway Lawrence x Stevens Creek Blvd.  back to Woodhams found and they checked.  on to central library returned and requested the overdue book All is Well.  

getting hungry 4:30 I want grilled cheese or potato cheese.  

so I walked Savers and bought 24 new red envelopes $1.49 and new gold bandana $1 orange tags.  Grocery Outlet $13 bargains, dinner and b'fast.  

blogger problems?-solar flare-Zza

maybe internet glitches.  very slow.  like under attack.  

I went to *1 deposit check, teller researched as much as she could, I could have gone to B of A looks legit.  if it bounces $10. 

$10 Mtn Mike pizza. I went to Senor Pizza first.  pepperoni good.  mini 5 inch.  mini 3 toppings $13.  came back to seniors.  pizza so rich made my bones ache.

I considered another swim.  big police presence on Franklin across Benton.

new me.

lovely puzzle fun

annoying man ex-Will phone conversations w/wife and rental realtor.  probably for my benefit.  not personally, he's trolling for a wife replacement to blame.  been there.  he can't refrain from simply not eating or drinking posted on the table.  I've mentioned to him twice.  

and I'm happy.  I finished the puzzle ignoring him.  WIN!!

unlimited hot water Lx Gym-A BIG PROMOTION-wheel

6:30 lots of parking.  12 hours of sleep gives me energy.  babies and seniors need more rest.  I'm doing what I want.  

I got extra bean soup and Ruben gave me 2 ham cheese sandwiches.  I ate chicken salad celery parsley.  I removed the diced red onion.  

I took Toki avocados and oranges she cancelled tomorrow so I'm glad I delivered.  her right leg hurting.  

lovely overcast cool 64 but smoky

I'm still feeling stressed.  smoke and dad's death coming up 9/5.  Aiko making his last month HELL for all of us.  she must be so proud.  

lack of oxygen and anxiety.  

I slept lunch to 5:30.  feeling better.  

Anxiety from past life

Golden Girls is bringing out so much.  I'm taking care of myself and my feelings.  self-respect.  without an example it's been tough to do.  like living on another planet.  a raw emotional landscape.  every new emotion hurts.  

taking care of others is easier.  focus outside ourselves.  eyes and ears survival is outwards.  releasing pain I needed to move.  so 24 hour at 8:34 no parking I was way in back.  added to my exercise.  I soaked stretched in hot tub and cooled in the pool.  10:15 I picked up St Justin lunch and remembered I wanted to use CVS expiring coupons.  bought beets 2/1.  I walked Ross' and Safeway.  realized I didn't have a car key and started to freak.  I put beets in the trunk.  key waiting for me.  

parked under Main at noon.  book sale.  I ate my lunch feeling so tired.  air quality is bad from fires.  2:30 I went home to nap 'til 5.  parked in the shade.  

moved my car to my driveway 8 pm.  I watched "Stars in my crown" 1950.  so glad I napped.  

Lx Gym tub/pool-Target - Leta St J b'fast Sunday 23/10:30

$15 new charging cord and 2/$4 small chunky PB.  

I'm finding the good in change.  

the senior locker room is closed so I went to 24.  then I decided to shop Target to keep my card current.  

I'm feeling capable.  

I bought fresh fruit tart for dinner.  a little disappointed the $5 enchilada dinner is veg only.  I wanted chicken suizas.  

Paid city-Leta 92 B'day-forgot Cody bookmobile-Sunny 24/63 paused

delicious Baskin's ice cream cake.  Walter got me extra piece.  I think he annoys to get neg vibes.  

Best hardest Disney puzzle Mickey & Minnie.  takes me within.  

I was so mellow last night I forgot to charge spot.  

goofing

such fun to do what I want.  I'm releasing anxiety.  I didn't miss it at all.  yesterday and today smoke warnings on the weather.gov.  people feel stressed because the body notices.  

it amazes me people complaining of feeling tired when there's no oxygen.

people live in bubbles totally out of touch with the world.  makes me wonder how they survive.  proves there is a God.  

Costco $4.80/gal-Citibank $.17 credit

seniors resting.  having more fun.  Walter got me 2 fish squash dinners and extra fish.  

Paul stopped by w/salt vinegar chips YUM!  my needs are met.  

unlimited hot showers

hot tub 104 pool 84 degrees.  and me free.  I drove to CUP library couldn't access summer reading even w/help.  then Panera nothing I wanted was almost was boxed in by the over sized in compact spaces.  took some maneuvering to get out.  

KFC Taco bell combo I tried spicy fresh jack pepper burrito $3.  eh, OK.  senior green banana perfect dessert.

eating lunch in lovely Sunny library shade 80 degree 1 pm.  I want to turn in Summer reading.  got my $5 coupon.  

I didn't feel like cooking opened a can of soup.  

Sunshine such a maniac-Valley Village flea Aug and Apr-releasing stuff

after getting Ruben's goodies St Justin she came over and asked if I went to a senior rummage sale at the center.   I had to ask where, "on Winchester".  she's so used to secret dealing she's losing her vocabulary.  

I checked no movies or books.  I remembered how to get there the back way.  it's been awhile.  May last year.  

I'm getting back my shine.  today's weather is perfect.  forecast 90's not happening 77.  I caught Paul's fear.  

I turned in summer reading for Mtn Mike personal pizza, book bag, book coupon.  SCORE!!

I have a county book and cd overdue I may return tomorrow.  I thought I lost the case when I had it with the movies.  I saw Sammi as I was leaving the underground garage after looking through my trunk for it.  I gave him some avocados he gave me a T-Joe PBJ crepe I ate to fuel my search.  TA DA!!.  prayer partner.  

ladies showers still cold-Paid DISC/CAP*1

BUT the family showers must be the same heater as men's nice and hot.  

I do love my puzzles.  they have roast beef bag lunch again.  I'm pondering.  

I brought the buffalo chicken and kept the crackers.  I never considered it before.  

I puzzled 'til 10:30 lost in my own world.  I decided to shop college Safeway after lunch.  I came home and ate sushi and watched TV.  5:30 I decided 24 hour unlimited hot water, walked Food Maxx home 7.  new bill I called Disc to check it out after confirming my bank balance.  so far so good.  

wheel-fancy blazer

Day of Remembrance-Cody paper Peace Cranes

Saturday Cup I picked up 2 Peace Cranes for Cody's Bookmobile.  And I found them in my doubled Sprouts bag.  

I finished Ferrari puzzle I started yesterday.  

I LOVE HAVING FUN!

wheel solutions back today.  

it's been so long since I called *1 I wasn't sure how.  it came back to me.  

programming the future

by playing Louise I'm raising the vibration of the planet.  by improving my health I'm improving the planet.  done and done.  

I'm fulfilling my purpose.  everything more is flourish.

5 pm chrome crashed.  I put in blogger.com and voila!  

I guessed the wheel word.

Inge $3 recycle Danny's 7-4 open-Carlos' 1 pm 81 degrees-Oxygen sensor

easy not even a gal of gas.  I bought a roast beef bag lunch $5.

Carlos wouldn't take any money.  I already paid $300 for his taking care of last week.  that was last week.  I still owe him on account.

Croatia & window box wheel words.

I'm loving doing what I want when I want.  

just listening to Louise raises the planet-PAID BARTOLO-cleared car floor 91 degrees at 8 pm

called Carlos O 2 sensor I'll call 1 pm to confirm or reschedule.  

it's so smoky I want to run away.  I feel panic.  

my left eye irritated blood shot, both eyes stinging.  

3:30 he will have part.  lunch VERY salty.  Carlos has to attach through cabin I must clear floor.  

I decided I can postpone if I want.  NO PRESSURE.  I planned on using rolling tubs.  

while I was clearing the passenger floor Tony came by promising to touch up the paint and fix the gutter again free.  nah ah.  he wants money.  I already paid $3K.  

Burger King /avocado b'fast-Bartolo money

I'm loving my broken home.  Aiko broke the oven, washer machine, refrigerator, front door lock.   I picked up fruit.  I started to stress looking for cash.  I have so many bags.  located Bartolo pay.  

new behaviors, never be locked out by locking up w/key.  anchor desired memories to remain focused.  

I added avocado and peach to Grocery Outlet salad for lunch.  

4 hour nap.  I was exhausted from picking up kitchen avalanche.  I am loving my leisure.  

90 degrees and I'm good.  

semiquincentennial-250 years

LX Gym-new hot spot central-mailed LIFE Mariposa ctr-Miracle "IGOR"

lovely shady parking.  I drove early.  Randy's menu $3-$5 each.  

I have so much more energy. 

Randy's donuts long lines has sparked Stan's long loyalty lines.  

St Justin's long lines too.  Sunshine likes to talk.

I ate my lunch in copy room listening to Louise.  I charged 10/$3 kid movies and 25 cent new dream catcher in card basket from bookstore.  Sammi brought 2 nieces to meet me.  county due to expire.  I used to freak when overdue (Marla Gibbs) and now I take it in stride.  I can go tomorrow.  

I decided to go at 4 after I wanted Burger King.  I parked permit close to Cup L door.  then chose 2 Hiroshima remembrance cranes.  

I decided I wanted to get Grocery Outlet.  Savers first I found like new "IGOR"!! half price $1.49.  perfect salad spinner, Capri jeans, jewelry stand 20% off reward.   Grocery outlet choc almonds, goat blue cheese crumbles $3.49, tomatoes  $.99, 2 cheese chips, clearance salad $1.49.   

home 8 pm Heaven.