despair

i'm reliving my childhood.  getting it all out.  feeling trapped hopeless.  some may be from atom bomb.

dad always became depressed august i thought because of heat of summer working as carpenter now i think ww2 atomic bomb drop.  mom always yelled at me for being too sensitive.  i was always apologizing for being me.  she wouldn't yell at dad for that.  too many other things.

watching stretch it occurs to me sahra teaches because her mom does.  she has no desire like miranda.  doing restricted movements still gets the circulation going.  my hips always feel better looser.  she does 2-4 movements so it's simple and easy and encouraging.  and she always reminds to relax through stretches.  get rid of tension.