i've spent so much life cowering protecting myself from family attacks. coward has a negative connotation. self protection is confusing. if you do it it's smart. if i do it it's cowardly. social definitions. hypocrisy. i never respected societal views. i couldn't without poisoning myself.
'the coward dies a thousand deaths, the hero dies but once.' how about everyone lives. not as dramatic. doesn't appeal to general public. i've never been one for un examined ideals. mom screamed at me for scrutinizing life.
standing tall is using a lot of unused unknown muscles. m-u-s-c-l-e-s can be sung to the nestle's jingle.
i did it all. dollar store, seniors ok, main return judy lucy spock mayim, homestead road construction i went through st j looking for john handing out food bags gave me 2 i said too much he insisted, donut & sees candy, cupertino return drop open heat advisory 2 medium lucy trolls, ate lunch did sewing, remembered free yogurt yummy madagascar vanilla at lucky's bought chicken, lettuce, what was i thinking, i don't know. so much weekend food. home.
senior center open today tomorrow 1-7. thinking of tomorrow maybe, i'm curious.
i'm doing well.
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