heat kept waking me, the good is i'm feeling pain free.
lucky gym an hour floating in the 82 degree pool. I slipped on the steps into the water. what a surprise. bleach from the tiles on my feet. I wonder, I have lots of pool shoes for traction. so lovely taking my time no clocks running my life.
arr cup 9:52 so I decided to straighten car. then I ate my chicken cutlets.
checking my sunny account 'cat' didn't register. huh.
I'm ok. lucky's Cathy gave me 3 clearance turmeric tea $1 a box no longer in system delicious cinnamon sweet.
whoa! i did it. i went to star 1 after seniors for deposit and remembered to ask about the income tax withholding letter. after me a huge line started at 10 am. they open at 9 am. I worry i'll forget to pay bills.
Main library 2 hours i'm taking a break from the Van Gogh puzzle. Gloria Navarette was walking through stopped and talked. i know the fear and anxiety of care taking parents. actual title of Edgar Cayce book.
I am blessed. I changed my flips to give my feet a vacation. they take me everywhere. my balance has changed. my hips have become very unstable. being aware is half the solution. when I was 7-8 I feared I had trichinosis when my muscles hurt. I didn't know I had psoriatic arthritis like my dad's mom. so he had it too. maybe he wasn't so lazy. maybe why he became a hypochondriac never felt well.
3 pm snack time 93 degrees. 4 pm 97. on to sunny.
4:15 I parked in shade across in PD. I checked the temp it really is 84 here. so lovely quiet. I started for cup in my enthusiasm but the traffic light changed. I may go to nob hill to eat my salad in the air conditioned parking. tomorrow is better for 10 am cup not 1 pm sunny.
lovely 91 degrees at 3 pm seniors came to main under parking very comfortable 86.
an hour to shower no mom at the door screaming at me. HEAVEN. wow what not to have. I need to concentrate on what I want. I want pain free healing.
I want a good hot dog. hard to find on a holiday. lots of lovely other things to enjoy.
no open cooling centers I may hang out at this or another 24 hour. a 10 year old died yesterday hiking with his retarded parents in 147 degrees. the idea of people that stupid out of touch is appalling to me. like my parents which is why living this long is a miracle. she threatened to kill me so many times I wanted to die. she stole my joy. like my sisters.
it's sad so many young people are here instead of with family. so many unhealthy looking out of shape children. the problem with gyms it's not a total body workout. some over and under developed muscles. I do like everyone doing their own thing. when I mentioned heaven doing what you want Jane jumped to hitting people. where did that darkness come from? when I asked how she assumed hitting was acceptable she backed off. saying her comment of a heaven including hitting people was merely for clarification. no, it wasn't, more like disturbing.
I am blessed. I woke 4 am raring to go. tomorrow 24 hour fitness. I went out to wash my car and 72 degrees 6 am. no dew.
2 hours in the tub I dreamed of puzzling and friends. I made up for waking early. 3 pm 100 degrees. 4 pm - 6 pm part 2. I love watching the water droplets dancing on the foam. home 95 degrees.
flashbacks to kindergarten. putting blocks together and being ranked gifted after mom calling me stupid, retarded. she was projecting herself onto me. my stupid retarded mother. maybe autism is a gift.
today my back is so normal. I soaked. makes me wonder if I was massaged all night if i'd be pain free.
I printed big lots ready order held 4 days, oatmeal cookie recipe then it wouldn't stop. I wanted a lucky's shopping list. eh, that wouldn't print. another mystery. not a good one. ooh, orange cranberry walnut cookies. I can chop up dried persimmon. Sprouts has orange cranberries.
I wanted good parking main, I picked up "Magical Negroes" at mission and here by 1 pm. Hilde grudgingly gave me last meal for my dinner. 4:30 100 degrees. tonight library open 'til 7 or I can go to sunny 'til 9.
heavenly sitting listening to healing. I puzzled 'til 4:30. 6:45 I decided to pick up big lots and lucky's. new me enjoying heat and flexibility. new me home 7:30 what?! game shows can wait.
my chemistry is off. I nibbled an apple I had and when I remembered I hadn't eaten I drank a shake. my right hip still aches. I had a good hour soak in the tub. i'm considering a part 2 this evening.
doing what I want when I want is remarkable. I don't know how I stood it before except I didn't know what I was missing.
on the way to main I remembered chase. so good to accomplish w/o planning and stress.
