i feel my life is hopeless. feelings are not facts, thank god. i just have to stay neutral. i'm waiting. i'm learning how to feel. i spent my life numbed to tolerate the hell of my childhood and now everything hurts. i'm tired of living my life alone. i have no experience with loving giving people. all the important relationships in my life have been with people who used me 'til i felt all used up. and i'm back.
i came home 1 pm to rest and care for me. i have all my numbers together for taxes. when i feel stronger i'll do them. i guess my worksheets will be my copies.
i'm blessed to have tv. i'm blessed i have the new yoga to watch. my neck feels better. i got another voice mail from back doctor who's done nothing for me. they want billing info and another appointment. i don't think so. i'm growing up.
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