sitting seniors feeling sad. watched 'mom' about dying friend reminded me 12 years watching dad slowly go over cliff. and mom's sad life none of my business. maybe they were happy doing and being who they were. my judgment makes me sad not their lives. they loved each other and lived the lives they chose. i'm sad not them.
saturday i didn't drive and woke pain free sunday. or maybe sitting in the car computing or both. drove to mission too tired to get out of car ate tiny lunch.
1 pm feeling exhausted came home. checked out tv turned it off. nothing i want 'til 2. remembered mail preview letter irs. form letter from president joe biden re: stimulus payment. whew! deposited 3/12. and p g e $5.05 credit! looked at markets. tygj. i remember when the ads didn't come 'til friday. half the week gone.
i'm drinking caffeine in an effort to stay awake. i prefer not being awake all night.
the last 2 nights good dreams. carrying child piggy back like i did with mitt but a small grateful bobby child this time. and this morning being inmate in nursing /rest home taking care of betty having mini stroke. i'd love to live in a good rest home. i can make this house a good rest home. a life with purpose.
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