I'VE BEEN AWAKE SINCE 4;30. I'M TAKING MY TIME. I HAVE SO MUCH TO BE THANKFUL. I NEVER SPECIFIED THE PEACE I'VE CRAVED. I HAVE PEACE. I ALSO HAVE THE EXTERNALIZED CHAOS I FELT AS A CHILD.
THE FAMILY WAS ALL ABOUT APPEARANCES. MOM ALWAYS WORRIED WHAT THE NEIGHBORS WOULD THINK. THAT'S WHY WE LEFT HAWAII. MOM AND DAD ALWAYS WORRIED ABOUT LOOKING GOOD.
AND I NEVER CARED. I WANT TO FEEL GOOD. I CAN'T SEE HOW I LOOK ANYWAY. UNLESS I SPEND MY LIFE WITH A MIRROR.
REVELATION; MOST PEOPLE LOOK FOR MIRRORS TO REFLECT THEMSELVES.
TOM'S REASON FOR LIVING. TO GAZE UPON HIMSELF. THE MAJORITY OF PEOPLE. TO SEE THEMSELVES IN THE WORLD AROUND THEM.
I'M CONSTANTLY AMAZED.
I WENT TO 24 HOUR 10:30 AND DIDN'T HURT. MIRACLE. AT NOON I DROVE TO ST CLARE, PARKED AT LIBRARY 2 BLOCKS. IT WAS BEAUTIFUL AND SUNNY. SHORT LINE INSIDE. I SAW WALTER. HIS SISTER TEXTED HIM NOT TO COME OVER. HER LOSS. WE HAD A GREAT TIME. AT LEAST I DID. THEN AT 2 WE RALLIED TO FIRST PRESBYTERIAN. WHITE ATTITUDE CHURCH. LEFT 4:20. BEST THANKSGIVING EVER. NO FIGHTS YELLING.
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