GROWN UPS HAVE CHOICES

BLACK FRIDAY-I SPENT MY ADULT LIFE WORKING RETAIL THE BIGGEST SALE DAY OF THE YEAR.

CHILDREN ARE PRISONERS.  I DON'T THINK MOM EVER MADE A DECISION CONCERNED WITH KIDS.  I KNOW FOR SURE DAD CONSIDERED US PROPERTY NOT PEOPLE BY THE WAY HE TREATED US.  THEY WERE BIG DESTRUCTIVE KIDS.  THEY NEVER GREW UP 'TIL THE DAY THEY DIED AND EVEN THEN THEY WEREN'T VERY MATURE.  LIFE IS DIFFICULT ENOUGH AND YET THEY WENT OUT OF THEIR WAY TO REFUSE IMPROVEMENT.  RESISTING POSITIVE CHANGE IS FOOLISH.

I'VE BEEN FLASHING BACK TO 1160 LAWRENCE STA RD.  QUARTER ACRE ACROSS JEFFERSON JUNIOR HIGH BEHIND THE SHELL GAS STATION AND STORE NOW 7-11 BEFORE BELONGING TO HAWAIIAN MAN.

I NEVER HAD ANY MONEY.  MITZI AND AILEEN WERE DAUGHTERS WHILE I WAS THE SCAPEGOAT.  I WAS SURE I WAS ADOPTED.  I WAS CINDERELLA.  MITZI WAS TOO LITTLE 3 AILEEN 13 BIGGER THAN ME SO I HAD TO BABYSIT AND START DINNER OR GET BEAT UP AND PUNISHED BY MOM WHEN AILEEN LIED.  SHE'D TAKE OFF TO HANG OUT WITH HER FRIENDS.  JUST LIKE MOM AND DAD.  WEEKENDS THE FAMILY WOULD GO SHOPPING, RUN ERRANDS FOR THE WEEK AND MOM AND DAD LEFT AILEEN IN CHARGE WHILE THEY WENT OFF WITH THEIR FRIENDS.  AILEEN WOULD DISAPPEAR AND IT WOULD BE ME AND MITZI.

SO I THOUGHT MITZI WAS MY FRIEND BUT SHE SAW BEING LIKE THEM WAS EASIER FOR HER.  AND THE REST OF THE WORLD.

THE CLIMATE CHANGE AND POLLUTION THAT'S POISONING THE PLANET IS DISRESPECT.  I'M SUFFERING LIKE THE PLANET.  ONE OF MAYBE A THOUSAND OR TEN OR A HUNDRED THOUSAND CARES TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.  THE CHILD MIND LEAVES IT FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO DO.  ONLY CARES ABOUT ITSELF AND INSTANT GRATIFICATION.

THAT'S HOW I GOT SO SICK.  I'M THE ONE WHO CARES.  I TOOK CARE OF THE PARENTS.  THEY'D SACRIFICE ME IN A SPLIT SECOND.

WE COULD MOBILIZE THE HOMELESS TO CLEAN UP THE PLANET.  BUT WHY WOULD THEY.

2:30 I GET THAT MY RETICENCE TO GO ANYWHERE IS FROM MY BODY SAYING NO.  I FORCED MYSELF TO DO AND BE.  TODAY I'M EATING, NAPPING DOING NO THING.