STILL AGITATED

I MUST STILL BE UP LEVELING.  I RECOGNIZE AND ACKNOWLEDGE FEELING CONFLICTED, RESTLESS.  THAT'S IMPROVEMENT.  AND I CAN LET THAT BE, OBSERVING MYSELF.  LIKE A CHARACTER IN THE STORY OF MY LIFE. A HUMAN BEING.

I OBSERVED ROSE MARIE YESTERDAY.  SHE CAME TO INGE'S BIRTHDAY PARTY AT SENIOR CENTER.  SHE HASN'T CHANGED HER ATTITUDE.  SHE HAS $7K A MONTH FOR ASSISTED LIVING AND WON'T SPEND THE MONEY TO COME FOR LUNCH.  HER NIECE BROUGHT HER.  SHE HASN'T PROGRESSED.  SHE SAID IT'S ONLY BEEN SINCE JUNE.  IT SEEMS LIKE A YEAR ALREADY.  I GUESS BECAUSE OF MY CHANGES.  I'VE CHANGED.

 6 PM- TODAY WAS BOOK MOBILE DAY.  AS I WAS LEAVING I FINALLY REMEMBERED TO ASK PETE IF HE LOST A LIGHT GREEN LIGHTER LAST WEEK.  HE SAID YES AND I TOLD HIM IT WAS IN MY CAR AND I'D GIVE IT TO HIM AT LUNCH.  HE AGREED AND THEN APOLOGIZED TO CODY BECAUSE IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY AND HE FORGOT HIS DVDS.  SO I RETURNED HIS LIGHTER AND GAVE HIM MY SPARE LIGHTER FOR HIS BIRTHDAY.  HOW COOL IS THAT.

I'M GETTING MY BILLS READY.  HOW CAN I MAKE IT FUN?  I'M GETTING BORED WITH IT AND DON'T WANT TO SCREW IT UP TO MAKE IT EXCITING.  I KNOW HOW I AM.

I WENT TO ST J TO LOOK FOR THE RUBBER SALAD DRESSING COVER.  ZERO.  I FOUND A COMPACT CAN OPENER, NEW 9 X 12 CANVAS, LIGHTED MAGNIFYING HANDS FREE LENS.

I REARRANGED MY CHAIR AND FOUND THE SMALL NAIL CLIPPERS.  HOORAY!  I'M FEELING SUCCESSFUL.

MY FEET ARE HURTING AGAIN BUT IF I STRETCH MY BACK AND HIPS IT GOES AWAY.