life

is supposed to be easy.  the whole idea of church is a community of like minded people.  no matter the labels each person is different and has different ideas and ideals.  no one seems to understand the cain/abel story.  there are always differences or we wouldn't be unique.  we should celebrate the differences.  it makes the universe.  the differences keep everything fresh and new.  god in action.  infinity.

but everyone wants everyone to be the same.  impossible.

juneteenth 1865 lincoln freed the slaves but eric and i were slaves to our families.  slavery takes many different forms.  autocratic bosses, politicians.

and people continue to be enslaved by the past.  rehashing the past.  celebrating the past, continuing the dysfunction.  we must live now and learn for the future.  change for what is, adapt.  i'm talking to myself.  i have to embrace technology.  how else can we make this a better world without polluting it.  if tech doesn't make life better it's not progress it's suicide.

hanging out at senior cooling crippled swimmer came sat at my table.  she's consistently annoying.  b 4 covid she acted like her leg gave her special privileges.  no one else at 8 tables but she has to try to sit with me.  i called made appointment for computer at 2 so i left.  glad i brought extension cord for chrome.  i watched half movie upstairs.  only an hour not 2 as per newsletter.  i renewed card.  

county libraries closed tomorrow and sat day.  oh well moon day.  the old me stressed and would have rushed tonight.