i'm watching 'oppenheimer'

Kurt Vonnegut jr came from a scientific family of physicists and knew when they launched the first atom bomb the chain reaction might continue until everything was consumed.  they decided it was the best way to end the war.  yeah, right.  'cat's cradle' see the cat, see the cradle.

forgot wheel oh, well

i left the library at 5:30 after a full day.  i'm having the time of my life.  

sprouts i bought cherry pie 20% off, 99 cent ice cream 2, camembert cheese 2 i thought was brie.  not as good.  no flavor.  i used can mushroom soup, cut up cooked chicken, mixed veg, potatoes and onions for soup.  pretty good.  for dinner hilde wanted to give me 3 fish lunches i wanted den and lady to share.  it was only ok.

good night and good news.

post disappeared. i was having more fun!

i spent half hour looking for movie remote.  it disappeared.  i looked under, over, around even crawled on floor.  huh.  now i see it written.   so 3 things.  the returns, post and remote.  i discovered the player has little tiny buttons.  and i feel ok.  

what a good day.  i swam 8:30, puzzled relaxed.  lunch with fred and toki.  i finished the puzzle stopped at sprouts decided to go home and rest.  back hurting i found remote and ate the yam i cooked this morning.  so delicious.  i scrubbed it, wrapped in parchment paper and nuked 4 minutes turned over 3 more.  i ate lunch chicken and cilantro slaw for dinner.  

lion dance, p f chang snacks.

i misplaced half of cup returns drove home and found them in trunk fourth time i checked.  the storm was like a hurricane.  made me glad i weigh what i do.  the wind and rain was like i never experienced before.  i drove slowly thankful for my dependable car.  and library self check malfunction created problem with checkout alicia gonzales will trace and fix.  i found umbrella and lost and found had at least 50 items because of weather i'm sure.  last year i wouldn't have been able to endure the driving and fear, my stamina is better.

sunny library i drove around and around no parking and spaces blocked off for performers.  hundreds of cars.  i parked at police city hall and walked in rainy winds.  i returned movie and checked out puzzles going around dragon dancers.  i've never seen so many asian families, lots of little ones, parents and grandmas.  made my heart sing.  i stood in quick line 5 minutes for lettuce wrap and salad.  i charged chrome, played healing music, puzzled 'til 4:30.  watched "royal family" eddie murphy creator producer.  something new to me.  exhausting day.  bed and movies.

returned mrs. sidhu-i've been reflecting on the fact that every great civilization destroyed itself

new library puzzle of gumballs edge still undone.  took me 20 minutes.

i checked st j twice and sprouts twice.  i bought great turkey dinner $1.86 and 2 cooked chick breasts 99 cents.  

sitting at seniors i can see that trump is the instrument of the destruction of democracy.  the greeks, romans, british all became complacent and decadent and rotted from within.  the right wing anti-abortion ignores human rights using emotionally charged issues to distract and control minds.  nothing more than a trick to divide and conquer the american people.  republicans want a republic not a democracy.  they believe they're smarter and better than everyone building the country and prefer to destroy to control.  destruction is easier than creating.  criticism is easier than solutions.  

my hips legs blocked

 my feet hurt, good i have feeling again.  my ankles swollen.  i look down and see my mom's feet.  she's always with me.  my biggest disappointment when she died was the fun we missed having.  now i can drag her along with me.  she's dead she can't resist or deny.  hilda must be her replacement so i don't miss her.  she looked straight at me and didn't bring me lunch.  it's on her.  

i'm still expecting punishment

muscle memory is still protecting me.  anxiety is a body thing.  the body manufactures chemicals on its own for survival.  

sprouts clearance too much.  seniors early.mom stunt i didn't tighten drink cap into my gym roller.  lunch good.  so today oil change, return hot spot, clean slate.  maybe savers.  i brought strawberry donuts and cut up in 1/4's fred tried one, i ate 2, toki tried a bite.  i gave the rest to anna and the half way house people.  they were very happy.  

waiting at carlos' for car to cool oil change.  and scoping out my day.  maybe i'll hang at main or savers or enjoy the beautiful day it's turned into.  and now i know why people plant decorative pepper trees, the smell of driving over the seeds.  smells wonderful.  $74.74 on discover 3.99% discount cash.  

mailed bill,  sprouts again clearance prices labeled.  huh.  new bogo flavored seeds.  more to sample.  withdraw chase straight to savers 3 1/2 hours looking bought new roller.  i could go everyday.  library an hour found 2 copy room quarters,  returned spot, puzzled half hour. stopped st just 3 boxes of food left.  i took 2 bags of frozen pollock, beets, celery.  i stewed 3 fish steaks with a honey mustard packet.