still discord-finally done-lost tabs

trump is consistent.  all he's good for is distraction and discord.  hopefully he won't make it racial.  

only biden-harris will get us beyond covid because they care.  trump doesn't care about lives only money.  as long as he keeps making money he doesn't care about lives.  when his money is affected he'll care.

daily word-guidance  i considered going to lucky's for free bottle sparkling ice and paying citibank due 10th.  instead i read through auntie's letters.  her birthday 9th, uncles's was 4th.  uncle died 4/17.  bro 6/17.  i'll make copies of pictures of mom and dad's ashes at the crypt.  

i heated potatoes mixed 2 eggs added cream cheese.  yum.  finally cooked the krusteaz lemon bars.  used last 3 eggs.  had the box $2 clearance for at least a year.  whew!!  too sweet.

i thought about going shopping since open 'til 9 too cold.

harris-biden announced election win.  wonderful presentation.  i've never felt more invested in america.

lost all my settings.  all my tabs disappeared.  whoa, scary.  suddenly gone while watching jamie.  so i'm totally distracted.  missed 45 minutes getting my settings back.  

being the light. showered effortlessly.

most people are afraid the light will show the truth of who they are.  so they're afraid of the light and afraid of the dark.  just afraid.

trump's afraid of being forgotten or ignored.  

10;23 #12 car a new record.  and good reception.  took a little while to connect.  did a 12 minute walk to garbage and stretches.  i'm leaving senior center garbage at senior center.  ooh, i found more shepherds purse by kids picnic tables.  

well my cd adventure lasted 1 day.  

still no final vote count

with the bushes i worried more.  i had my passport ready.  (auto saving.  maybe because of good reception.)  i'm resigned.  does no good to worry.  

i'm so blessed.  i'm watching mary reilly.  child abuse.  i'm exorcising the demons.  i didn't know why i borrowed a movie i was never interested in until the abuse.  i remember waking in the arms of tommy meyer crying "don't, mommy, don't mommy, mommy don't."  i have no memory of the abuse.  alien was always bragging of burning me, sticking me with pins changing my diaper.  i remember her pushing me out of windows, off the swing always from behind and lying that i fell.  all this is behind me.

trump is a professional manipulator

he's done it all his life and has built his business on it.  he has blacks and latinos in his pocket.  he's a racist who knows how to appeal to minorities.  he appeals to those who have no hope of equality and pose as supporting winners.  they, like the jews who backed hitler will be sadly disappointed.  maybe that's what they're looking for.  another disappointment to dramatize.  

trump has been systematically terrorizing the usa to better manipulate people.  he's making the economy easier to manipulate by withholding covid aid.  covid is the best thing to happen to trump.  he's using the rampant racism as a smoke screen to blind the world to his business deals.  i watch china global television news on channel 36.3 that shares all the trade deals.  trump is selling out middle america.

for the first time in my life i can feel cold in my back shoulder blades.  felt so weird.  as my body heals my thinking becomes clearer.  the brain and nerve cells are working in tandem.  

i took secret cd and forgot to load.  i tried benny goodman big band.  ok made me want 3 more 'secret' copies.

senior lunch line 10;12 #7 i walked park, stretched, decided to make the effort to give art tom's sudoku and crossword books.  merry christmas to him.  so i parked and walked them to his scooter and practically albino jennifur got in my face like i was trying to pull something.  so typically racist white woman.

lol.  i have to laugh at myself.  i just realized jt chinese chatterbox used to monopolize the conversation to the point ella mae and i moved to another table told me i was getting fat and maybe 6 months later had a stroke.  no one missed him 'til he came back.  happened years ago.  when your family disrespects you it hurts.  eh, when strangers insult you it's on them.

watched 'fido' 2006 canadian zombie comedy.  pretty good carrie ann moss, billy connelly.  

hurrah!! 24 no appointments needed.  

little update cloud

there we go.  it has a strike through it until i update.  and until i update if it's disconnected it's gone into the void.  i wonder if the void is full of stuff or a vacuum.  i wonder do all the bits go anywhere.  bodies are comprised of atoms which are recycled.  thoughts are electrical energy must be recycled too.  

it's wonderful taking my time.  i went to target looking for cord to disc man none i did get glucosamine $18 took one and feel calmer more comfortable in my body.  it has sulfate so who knows it may be my allergy to sulfa.  i walked down to sprouts checked clearance and priced supplements $25.

arrived seniors lunch line 10;08 #7 car just behind fat perv red hyundai.  i wore my $9 designer denim chiffon and walked perimeter of block.  shepherds purse weed killer sprayed oh, well.  perv is aping my stretches.  if it makes him healthier it improves the planet.  

i walked a lot.  

pain is distracting

my spine between my shoulder blades is screaming.  i think constant pain is exhausting from burning calories messaging the brain and moving around trying to find a comfortable position.  

aging is interesting.  observing my body, skin, muscles, hair changing as a part of nature.  

i can't believe i remembered first of month pay bills.  i hadn't thought about it at all.  sitting in line i wrote out life insurance check and remembered i have to deposit.  

i was thinking of picking up cup library holds 2.  for sure.  after lunch pick up i mailed life insurance and voting ballot i filled out last night at kiely mission station.  despite road repair i went to chase new machine, 1.  luckily early no crowd.  straight to star one deposit with urmila named after hindu goddess more road repairs to cup library moving once into shade.  noon i ate my turkey pot pie.   it's sad when the biscuit is the best part.  i ate half.  i tried county internet wouldn't connect.  asian clerk most reasonably checked in and out secret cd having exceeded max 5 check outs.  then i thought $v i got 2 h202, baking pan, blond floor mat.  i decided the light weight mats in kitchen would fit better in car.  i can try it.  i got home at 2 pm thinking it was late i did so much and drove 16 miles.  whew!!

home to rest i'm enjoying building up my stamina.  

i've got the blahs-dst

medulla part of brain stem.  sleep autonomic functions.  my symptoms.  (i'm watching 'medium' brain surgery episode.)  when the plastic step shattered.