ABUSE

I'M REMEMBERING.  NEW HORRIBLE THINGS.  WHEN WILL I BE DONE?

AT LEAST TODAY WAS GOOD.  BOOK MOBILE ASHWARI CHECKED IN AND OUT CHROME.  I'M CURRENT.  I WATCHED MARENCOL UPSTAIRS DID PUZZLES.  RAYMOND BROUGHT HIS PANTS TOOK ME AN HOUR TO PICK OUT STITCHING AND REPLACE CORD.

I'M GOOD.

QUIXK

DON QUIXOTE.  I WAS GOING TO WRITE QUICK. 

AGAIN

I'M STILL HEALING FROM OVER WORKING MY BODY TAKING CARE OF MOM AND DAD, MY SISTERS NEGLECT/ABUSE AND BETRAYAL.

I'M STILL LEARNING MY LIMITS AND TRYING TO EXPAND.

TODAY WAS 88 o SENIOR PARKING LOT.  92 CAMPBELL.  I STOPPED OFF AT MISSION LIBRARY UNTIL 5 PM 85 o.  TODAY WAS SUPPOSED TO BE COOLER.

DEAD AGAIN WAS ON DECADES TV.

EVERY DAY

I'M FEELING THE WEIGHT OF MY WORLD.  INTERNALLY I NEVER FEEL ANY OLDER.  PHYSICALLY IS ALWAYS SUBJECT TO CHANGE.  ONE MINUTE I MAY FEEL 90 THE NEXT 15.

TIRED 2

I'M STILL FEELING TIRED BUT I'M NOT SURE IT'S STRICTLY PHYSICAL.  IT MIGHT BE MY LIFE.  BUT NO, I'M BETTER AND YESTERDAY I FOUND AQUAMARINE GOLD OVER STERLING BRACELET AT ST J $10.  I DESERVE BEAUTY.

AFTER SENIORS, ST J HALF OFF.  JACK IN BOX LUNCH.  I WANTED TO TRY TV BURGER BUT NOT AVAILABLE.  SO I HAD MY TWO TACO AND CHICKEN SANDWICH. 

ALL CONFLICT IN MY LIFE IS LEAVING.  I ASKED ABOUT SUSAN.  THEY RAN HER OUT.  JOHN'S EYES LIT UP LIKE A JACK-O-LANTERN TELLING ME HOW THEY KICKED HER OUT.  I BELIEVE IT.  DRAMA ADDICTS.

RAYMOND

BROUGHT STRAWBERRY BOSTON CREAM CAKE. 

I WENT TO THE CREDIT UNION, ST J  NEWSPAPERS AND BOUGHT $16.35 GOLD OVER SILVER AQUAMARINE BRACELET, 7 PLUMERIA HAIR CLIPS, 3 COIL RUBBER KEY BRACELETS.  SEPT 30TH LAST DAY.  OH, WELL.

NEW MOON

NEW MONTH.  DVD-WHAT MEN WANT-MOM PROJECTED HER FEAR ON ME TO TRY TO AVOID HER OWN FEAR. 

COULDN'T SLEEP AND I DIDN'T FIGHT IT OR LAMENT.  NEW BEHAVIOR.  AND I'M REMEMBERING MY DVD PLAYER.  MORE HEAVEN.