Friday, June 15, 2018

I'M FEELING

A LITTLE OUT OF MYSELF.  I FORGOT TO WHEEL GERTA'S WALKER.  I WENT TO ST J AND HOME.

I ACTUALLY LOVE COMING HOME NOW.  I NEVER FELT THIS HOUSE WAS MY HOME.  I WAS NEVER MADE TO FEEL WELCOME.  I HAD TO EARN MY PLACE HERE.  I HAD TO DO ALL THE WORK WHILE MY SISTERS AND MOM LAZED AND MY DAD DID THE BIG JOBS UNTIL HE DECIDED BEING AN INVALID WAS EASIER.  SO I NEVER FELT AT EASE HERE. 

AND MOVING BACK WAS BETTER AND WORSE.  I WAS AN ADULT, STRONGER AND THEY WERE MORE CHILDLIKE AND SET TO REMAIN UNCHANGED.  MATURITY REQUIRES, DEMANDS CHANGE. 

LIFE REQUIRES CHANGE.   THE LACK OF CHANGE IS DEATH. 


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