9/11/2001

I AWOKE FEELING SAD AND REMEMBERING HOW GLAD I WAS MOM HAD DIED 5/13/2001 SO SHE DIDN'T HAVE TO FEEL THE SADNESS.  ONE MORE PAIN AVOIDED.  I NEVER TOLD OF A'S MANY BETRAYALS BECAUSE I KNEW THEY WOULD HURT MOM AND SATISFY A, REVELLING IN OTHER PEOPLE'S PAIN.  PROBABLY THE PSYCHO IN HER. 

THERE ARE PROBABLY A LOT OF PSYCHOS WHO HAD A BETTER UPBRINGING AND NEVER NEEDED TO ACT OUT.  SHE WASN'T ONE OF THEM.  THEY'RE BASICALLY COWARDS.

I JUST REALIZED THREE BIG HITS:  DAD DIED, MOM DIED, 9/11.

AND THE HELLISH YEAR BEFORE DAD DIED.  WHEW!  I SURVIVED A MAJOR STREAK OF DISASTERS.