QUEENLY TROUBLE AT CITY LIB-ACTUALLY WRITTEN ON SUNDAY

DEPRESSION:

TRIED LOGGING BACK ON AFTER A BATHROOM BREAK.  I HAD TO GO TO THE DESK TO HAVE THEM CLEAR IT.

I REALIZE I SPENT MY ENTIRE PREVIOUS LIFE DEPRESSED.  LATELY I'VE FELT HAPPY.  NOW WHEN I RELAPSE TO DEPRESSION IT FEELS ODD.  BEFORE IT FELT NORMAL.  IT DOESN'T FEEL LIKE PROGRESS BUT IT IS. 

THAT FEELING OF DOOM AND DISASTER IS THE PRECLUDE TO DEPRESSION.

SUNDAY MORNING ON CHANNEL 5 HAD A GAY NEWSCASTER RACHEL MADDOW (WHO CONTENDS WITH DEPRESSION) ON TO TELL HER STORY AS AN ANCHOR ON HER OWN TV SHOW.  SHE DOESN'T REMEMBER SHE HAS IT WHEN SHE HAS IT.  HER PARTNER REMINDS HER.

MAYBE PRINCE AND ROBIN WILLIAMS FORGOT TOO.

MAYBE BEING DIFFERENT IS A CHEMICAL DIFFERENCE SINCE MEDS CAN ALLEVIATE THE CONDITION.  I KNOW MY ANTI-ANXIETIES HELP IMMENSELY.

FEELINGS CAN ONLY POINT TO TRUTH IF THE TRAINING IS IN ALIGNMENT.  THEIR ABUSIVE MISUNDERSTOOD PASTS DIRECTED THEM TO CRASH AND BURN.

I'M RETRAINING MYSELF.

I'M HAVING FUN AND TREATING MYSELF AS THE PRINCESS, QUEEN, EMPRESS I AM.

AND GOD IS DIRECTING.